I listened to a discussion about online behaviors yesterday and it made me realize that the more online I am, the more insecure I am. Because there's always a reason for why someone is posting, whether it be their creations or just photos of what they're doing all day

Dude my friend is so freaking extra giving me these LOL it's almost embarrassing. I shouldn't have said I loved Jinu

I don't wanna use threads on IG whenever I wanna make text posts. Can't they just combine it with stories or smth

Doing a comic, spot and merch for one zine is proving to be a little too much but the fact I draw for my faves makes it worth it. I don't really have any free time to draw anything else tho, so it's been tiring focusing on it when I lowkey just wanna sketch for fun OTL

I befriended two guys at work and I'm just lowkey overwhelmed with how nice they are??? We bonded over KPDH so that was funny, and they were so sweet to support me by buying my merch... 🥺 It all started with them asking a work-related question...

I really need some pick-me ups. I try not to show it whether it be online or irl but damn, it's hitting hard again idk. Just want someone to be there for me even if I can't find the reason for my depression

hyperventilating i finished my part for a collab merch i'm doing with a friend and we're debuting it at our next con. this is gonna be so exciting SCREAMING the best part is they make it at home. they are SO cool!!!

Yikes I haven't logged on to main in almost a month djvjjdjf I feel bad. It is what it is But yes I am so excited to be making - spoiler alert - Ferdinand harem art for that one zine

I suddenly want to draw the blue lions boys doing the saja boys' uuu-rah pose but I feel like that might have been done already lol

I made stickers for the first time!!!

Omg I seriously need to take some photos of my merch that I had during POs but I'm so lazy!!!! I should put them up for sale since my events are all over. Recount some stuff too since I ran out of a lot of things...

I was happy my cousins visited me during my event at least when I didn't know anyone there :') Sure, I was surrounded by customers but I was truly lonely when I didn't have a helper!!! I realize how important it is to have company now

Chat how do I like bsky again, idk why but I find myself not wanting to be here much and that's very dangerous 🫠🫠 Hopefully the feeling is temporary. I just spew my thoughts and leave. how do I enjoy the community here again 😭

Made bank so time to invest in quality merch making tools: a quality photo printer (I don't have one at home and rely on my workplace to print my documents...) and cricut Expensive as hell but hopefully it'll be worthwhile when I start attending more artist alleys in the future

Omg I'm so exhausted ahhhh event went a little too well and I couldn't even sit down 😭😭 I think I got a sale every few minutes and even as I was packing up to leave, someone asked if I could take another sale I'm 🫠

Second event today, hopefully I can get to make moots 💪 It'll be busier than the first con I vended at and I feel it's managed a heck ton better. At least I see advertisements about it online!

Did I seriously just get asked to apply to a kpop demon hunters zine when I only shared chibi style fanart giskkvdn the zine looks really good tho but I'm gonna be shattered if I get rejected in the end 😭

I'm starting to panic now since the prints I ordered were supposed to ship from the UK last Friday and I need them for my upcoming event this saturday... if they're not gonna come in time, I'll probably need to find a local alternative and just print them in person at a local art shop gidjvjs

Wtf I got dm'd with them saying "chibi" is a bad/insult word and should not be used and while I know it might be derogatory, context is important. Don't take it outside of the context it was meant for, jeez... Definitely a dumb spam bot. I never got any complaints for using that word until them

omg i need to make saja boys merch so bad i'm gonna try my hand at shaker charms, but i'm drawing these big enough so i can make stickers too!

Wow it's been a week since I said anything on this account and I'm just here to complain about not knowing what to make for kpdh merch LOL seriously the only thing I'm thinking about lately

Screech I just got accepted to another local artist alley. I need to finish my FE3H train piece because they're expecting me to sell that omg JSJVJRJVS

I replied to the venue saying I'm interested in staying on the waitlist and I guess they know ferdibert because this is freaking hilarious WTFFFF IT SOUNDS LIKE THEY KNOW MY WORK WHICH IS KINDA SCARY EKGJJDNV This made me smile tho, it's not everyday I see this haha

I think I'm finally satisfied with my setup!! Except for that pink tile under my portfolio binder, I'll replace that with a plastic one. I tried lifting my luggage and it's heavy af so I'm gonna try to use plastic wherever possible....

CURSEDDDD but also no one told me Hubert would look nice in Jinu's outfit, i will go die now must be the matching black hair

I really wanna draw an fe3h boys x saja boys from kpdh.... but the problem is idk who would be who 😭 Maybe I can just alter the colors a bit and draw my faves even tho it doesn't make any sense. I have the POWERRRRR

Nuuuu I got waitlisted for sjmade's winter event... I'll see how my first con goes before applying to any more tho

i made the mistake of watching this movie and now i wanna draw a lot of fanart 😔

People who THINK they're friends with me when we barely exchanged words, and then had the audacity to ask why i cut the ties off are ridiculous I can send gifts to anyone I wish, but that doesn't mean we're close

I chose to watch pop demon hunters last night when I got sick 😩... But I can finally unmute all those tags lol It has really good music and I do like the theme of friendship! The story itself is very basic and it felt a little fast paced but overall, cute

It feels lowkey dead here lately, and I'm not finding myself wanting to post here much. That's really bad ivjdjvd

Nothing I post is a flop nothing I post is a flop nothing I post is a flop nothing I post is a flop nothing I post is a flop

Bruh I had the worst scare in a while. I thought I lost my page art file for a zine but turns out I accidentally deleted it when cleaning up my files OTL THANKFULLY I LOOKED THROUGH IT BEFORE PURGING EVERYTHING WTF OVER 2 MONTHS OF WORK ALMOST VANISHED

More setup planning... I just have my keychains left but it's coming along I think I'M SO WORRIED ABOUT HOW IM GONNA BRING ALL THIS CRYING

Omg help I just got accepted to my first artist alley. I'm gonna shit my pants

Fuck imposter syndrome 🔪 Drawing stuff by "vibes" is gonna come get me at some point so I will study more

Ahhh I did it, I finally applied to be a vendor at an arts and crafts event.. Hopefully I won't be outright rejected for having only fanart lol, I'd be so sad but at least I also applied to share with a moot so... save me...

Bruh I thought 2 display stands would be enough but apparently it doesn't fit all my stickers!!! Hopefully this will be worthwhile. I also bought grids. Time for more testing~

I feel so overwhelmed for some reason. Maybe I'm just overloading myself with info, so I'll just take a break from learning Doing that is causing me to be so behind on everything else, I gotta catch up digjjsnf

Omg I discovered a creature called a Dumbo octopus.... I'm obsessed with its ear-like fins

I'm trying to mentally prepare myself to apply as a vendor at a local con.... I can do this man pleaseeee just hit the submit button Seeing so many people say they can make a ton in just a weekend is tempting...

Omg just invested in a couple of AA items... ngl I think I need to physically play around. Thank god for return policies LOL

Omggg finishing an RPG for the first time is always bittersweet. Brothership was amazing but I have so many questions about Cozette gisjjfd I wasn't really the biggest fan of how she was written, but overall, a super fun game!

I'm sorry for only yapping about artist alley these days, but I went to my first one as an attendee yesterday and it was a freaking blast!! Loved browsing and I spent some money on cute merch, but I anticipate I'll be spending more at AIBA next week so I'm saving lol

Should I try finding an Edelgard cosplay at some point and try dressing as her gidjjvje I wear glasses tho, so it might look weird 😭😭 Her dress is perfect tho because it covers my chubbiness lol

OooOOO my DK bananza game is delivering today!!! I still prefer my physical game cards. Genuinely so excited to play it after I finish Brothership 🍌

I'm finally trying to push myself to attend a couple more local art fair events! I'll be going to one for my first time this weekend to see what it's like Normal people: Inari, do you live under a rock, how have you not attended these events before when you're already in your mid 20s

God I'm so tired, I did like idk 5-6 hours of artist alley research today. I wasn't doing some of it during work, wdym I think the best way is just to talk to someone but ugh... I don't want to lose this motivation, but the expenses are a lot... I think I should prepare myself first before applying

I'm starting to design my booth mockups 🤔 I have more stuff than I realized lol, but it's so fun to imagine what it might look like before I invest in the display products

Okok things are finally going as planned. The totes should be coming either late this week or early next week, and my manu is sending off the remade items that UPS fucked up. I just want this to be over man, the production was too bumpy this time around and I need a break