It rules how no matter what I do I'm always going to step on the landmines that are people who took the side of my rapist for as long as I'm in the spaces I'm in. I'm not willing to give up that part of me to avoid it so now I just get to get hit with that every once in a while.

Really feeling like a fake girl tonight

I feel like my transition is never gonna go anywhere. I've been on hrt for almost 4 years give or take the bit of time I spent detransitioning and I still look like and present as a fat ugly man and feel like I always will

Feeling inadequate

The eternal mental conflict between wanting to be an unrestrained perverted freak and the feeling that if I do people are going to hate me for it

Ope almost forgot to block my rapist's main and AD accounts here

I think I'm coming out the other end of this big anxiety/depression/whatever spike, thank god. Still feeling a bit off-kilter but I'm doing better

Damn. Am I actually a bi lesbian, or am I a women-only lesbian?

Feeling a really strong impulse to withdraw from everything and everyone. I know that isn't helpful but it's hard to not have that be a knee jerk reaction

Brain exploding bad this week.

Hey! This is a more personal account for @sables.ooo, I'm gonna dump things here that I don't necessarily feel comfortable putting out for a wider audience to see and engage with. You're welcome to try to follow me here but if I block you off of this account it's nothing against you, just curating.