I realize my mistake now. Rereading your own fic for inspo: ❌🙅🏽😵 Rereading the insanely kind comments from the readers of your fic for inspo: ✅👍🏽💯 MAN I hope every fic reader’s pillow is cold tonight, and I hope every single commenter has a particularly good orgasm the next time they hand-plap. 😌

Biggest way I’ve stepped back from fandom is probably the fact that I’ve really come to terms with just how flawed and terminally online the entire “proship v. anti” debate is. The whole thing is a black-and-white, us-versus-them bullshit circus, whereas the truth, as usual, lives in the greyscale.

(Finally deleted the Elon Musk Shitter app from my phone, so sorry in advance for the uptick in shitposting on this platform LOL)

Biggest piss-off when trying to eat healthy is the prevalence of American recipes that use “standard” can measurements that AREN’T THE SAME STANDARD IN CANADA. Wtf is a 15-oz. can of beans??? Our beans come in 540 ml. Are they actually different, given the weight/volume disparity? WHO TF KNOWS???

Therapy for me is 50% working through trauma with EMDR and 50% learning how to trick my brain into doing what I want by treating it like a picky toddler. Currently tricking myself into doing regular hypermobility exercises using fucking Dollarama stickers (and fuck me running, IT’S WORKING 😭)

fun fact: they found the original digital master tapes of all the Reboot episodes that we previously only had in VHS quality, refurbished the extremely rare and expensive tape machines required to play the masters, and are currently uploading them to youtube for free in 1080p! youtu.be/inKdUICLmXY

Watching the kudos-to-hits ratio get worse and worse on old fics, I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE, READERS (read: I, too, reread the same 200 fics on a loop)

Rereading my fic for inspo and fuckin’ played myself so hard, instead of going, “aw, yeah, I remember why I love this,” I went, “eeEEEEYUCK who the FUCK wrote THIS??” BUT. BUT BUT BUT. I’m choosing to make THAT my inspo. 😤 Like OK, you don’t like what you wrote? WRITE SOMETHING BETTER THEN, COWARD

Things are super scary right now, and I keep hearing people say, “history repeats, it’s been scary before, it’ll get better,” but like we are literally on a countdown to the earth becoming unliveable, how am I supposed to take comfort in a cycle when its catastrophic end is staring me in the face?

Getting my hair dyed a great big bright fuck-off colour and then ripping home to hit a nightmare deadline, the universe BETTER hmu with some writing inspo after this 😤

So that was like…genuinely scary. Never seen a storm like that here in my life, this climate change fuckery is really some bullshit, Steven. 😰

The hail at my parents’ place in the suburbs. 🤯

UM.

My area is under tornado watch 🙃 COOL

Good news: I’m writing tonight! 🥰 Bad news: it is…not on the currently 13k ghoap post-canon fic that haunts me like the phantom of a sickly Victorian child (Worst news: I’m not even writing initial final draft fic, I’m expanding goddamned notes/outline drafts 😭)

Reading a fic that was first published April 10, 2026, completed May 18, 2026 (that is a grand total of 38 DAYS for a nearly 80k-word fic), and the author notes are talking about “sorry I made you wait so long” skebsbdhhfb OH GOD I am a bad, cruel, MEAN fic writer 😂😅 (sorry I publish like 1-2x/YEAR)

Took a solid break from Hades 2 after beating it like 1.5 times including the major patch… …just opened it only for it to update, look up the patch 2 notes only to find they added MORE new story dialogue?? Listen, I love SuperGiant forever, but I DID NOT PLAY EARLY ACCESS FOR A REASON 😭

The one friend I have who’s still in the klance fandom but who only lurks and, knowing my Feelings™️ about That Fandom™️, only vents to me when the tea is tasty…has just sent me…truly cackle-worthy tea. I’m getting drunk tonight, I’m so serious. 😂😂😂 lmaooooo

One of the most annoying things about coming back to a fic I haven’t worked on in a while is having to reread the whole thing from the beginning not to edit or improve it, but just to remember where the fuck I was in terms of theming and repetition and baseline craft. Like…wtf was this again…?😅

😭 most embarrassing thing about being a Canadian writer is having to google the most dumb-ass terms to see if they’re widely used or just more weird Canadian slang. (This message brought to you by my recent finding out that “gitch” is not a universal term for underwear 😭😭😭)

UH OH YOU GUYS I went out in the sunshine and got myself actual groceries so I don’t have to fret about supper and now I’m in possession of a fancy coffee, good Canadian whiskey, and a whole day off. I don’t wanna jinx it, but methinks some…👀…writing?…👀👀…may happen? 👀👀👀 Mayhaps…?

the pizza store, ominously: Would you like a hot drink…? What kind, you ask? …h o t…

So there was this lady I used to see in like 2018 who handed out the free paper downtown. And she was SO NICE, we developed a rapport where we’d greet each other every day, say hi when we saw each other around. Then the free paper shut down and she lost her job, and the next few times I saw her,+

I am not kidding, this is the best birthday I’ve ever had. Best place I’ve ever been in mentally, spent the whole day doing my favourite things, got to pet a curly dog named Waffle, got the best server/bartender of all time who showed me pictures of their six-toed black cat named “Tony Tony Tony” 😭

IT’S MY GOTDAM 35TH BIRTHDAY BITCH 🎊🎉🍾🎂🥳🎁

lmao dude at the checkout was like “this has been my staff pick for years, it’s one of my favourite books” and we had to have a kiki about it/the film, so it was a sign all along that I was meant to have it today 🙌🏽

*trying to brush my teeth and put on underwear at the same time* ROADSIDE PICNIC WITH THE URSULA K LEGUIN FOREWORD IS BACK IN STOCK AT THE LOCAL BOOKSTORE (FUCK CHAPTERS). THIS IS NOT A DRILL, I NEED TO GET THERE IMMEDIATELY NOW POST HASTE.

btw this screenshot is from, like, the set-up of the film when I had no idea where it was going, and yet I still immediately turned to my partner when it came on screen and said, “OH SHIT I’M GETTING THAT TATTOOED ON ME” And now having finished the movie…yeah, fuck, I’M GETTING THAT TATTOOED ON ME 👀

Finally watched Solaris (1972) and loved it SO MUCH that I had to immediately go buy the book by Stanislaw Lem, and it’s incredible so far. (lol Also watched the American version bc I was CONVINCED that it couldn’t be adapted with American sensibilities and OOF YUP. I’ll stick to Tarkovsky, thanks.)

HELLO??? (- read: fuck me I still do not know how to deal with a compliment but AHHH??) Also Poison Apple is the fic that literally made me 🤤🤤🤤 over ghoap, so let me add my vigorous seal of approval there!! Read it! Read it twice!! THRICE, EVEN 😤

it do be like this sometimes

SoapGhost nation, I have like 2/3 of a hell of a thing in the chamber, and I SWEAR TO FUCK this year I will finish this fucking draft

reminds me of the time I warned my mother-in-law, “My hair is fresh and it WILL dye your pillowcase, so I’m happy to put an old towel down,” and she happily waved me off, and then the next day she innocently asked, “So how do I get this out in the wash?” and I had to just look at her like

dyed my hair big bright fuck-off red last week and now my post-shower towel is a Rorschach test

took a nude so hot I’m straight up mad only my husband gets to see it 😤

A SECOND GRIM_LUPINE FIC??? SO SOON????

Paid for MUBI before realizing the movie I was after was no longer streaming, so I randomly watched The Girl with the Needle instead, and OH BOY was that ever an unrelenting marathon of despair culminating in one of the most gut-wrenching, disturbing scenes I’ve ever seen.

there’s a lot of fair criticism of Bo Burnham, but “it’s 2020 and I’m 30, I’ll do another 10, 2030 I’ll be 40 and kill myself then” remains one of the few artistic sentiments I’ve had to just like..sit with. like damn…yeah…yeah, that’s the feeing…not the plan, but the FEELING…

“A national league cornhole player who has no hands and no legs has been charged with the murder of a man named Bradrick” is a set of words that are actually true and valid, all in a row like that, in that order

Almost every time I’ve come across an actively annoying fandom person and checked their ao3, it’s been “Works (0)” Can we make “put up or shut up” part of fandom etiquette moving forward?

do you ever have a really impressive fart when no one else is around and it kind of upsets you that you were alone? like that was objectively really funny and no one else heard it. it’s not like a funny joke you can tell later on. once a fart is done, it’s done. toot replication is markedly unfunny.

weird looking back at old writing and being able to see the gaps. like “you were really caught up on [X theme], so much that it made you clumsy in [Y areas]”. it’s sometimes very stressful to know that you’ll likely be consistently disappointed with your past self (but that’s actually a good thing).

GOOD NEWS EVERYONE I opened my fic doc tonight and didn’t feel an overwhelming sense of dread, I know from experience that means *trumpets blaring, horses galloping, citizens rejoicing, for the harvest is blessed* THE WORDS ARE COMING, THE WORDS ARE COMING

been kind of half joking with my partner for months that he should grow a moustache, and today he shaved and left it in, and fam, something is wrong with me. it’s like a full Kurtis Conner white body stache and it uh…it DOES THINGS to me 😳 the fuck is this???

“You used to be big.” “I am big. It’s the pictures that got small.” Oooohhhhh I love when a classic lives up to the hype, Sunset Boulevard was a noir camp masterpiece 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Suddenly I find myself wanting to rewatch Whatever Happened to Baby Jane…

readiness is such a fascinating aspect of CPTSD bc what do you mean I’ve struggled for YEARS to just GET UP and DO SOMETHING—FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, ANYTHING—and now I can feel my feelings in real time somewhat and in the space of 2 weeks it’s suddenly way easier to throw on a movie or pick up a book

AND DID 😎🤩 She even rooted out the sheet with the big stars because I did so well 🥹 lmao passing therapy with flying colours

[I do not suggest going directly from twitter fanfic discourse for your hobby to editing industry discourse for your job back to back LOL]

stg no one hates the craft of writing more than people who say with their full chest that writing is their passion because what do you mean you don’t want to learn more about the thing you apparently love so much???

they’re arguing about grammar in fanfic on twitter again bc someone made a tweet to their own following giving totally innocent advice on how to format dialogue