minecraft is one of the ways i can take my mind of things

i should kill myself so fucking much

i wish every day for my death

i fucking hate myself

i'm sorry my love, sorry to be this way, hope you can forgive me for not being the best i can be for you, i love and always will love you

i hate myself for everything i've ever done to you, I think too much and i start to feel horrible about myself, i hate how i treat you, I really want to be nice and gentle with you, but it looks like i can't do that, and i hate this, you should find someone good for you, my God i hate myself.

i fear being left behind, i fear that you will leave me for someone else, someone better than me, and I don't wanna feel that again, i hate this feeling

there it is, just me, myself and i again

amo minha namorada

i think this is goodbye, i'll miss you, forever will

i'm sorry for everything i ever did to you, i didn't deserve you, not one bit, i'm sorry to being this way

i'm really disgusting aren't i

it ain't fair to other people

i don't deserve any of this

i'm a mess

I should've finished the job that day, would spare a lot of people's time and energy

i should just learn to leave people alone, it will spare them from having to interact with me

in the end, i fuck everything up

and i'm here, alone in this dark empty room, crying out all of my insecurities e fears

sometimes all i do is cry myself out until i'm dehydrated