everything in my life sucks apart from my online friends actually nothing i can do about it either

got this today :D youtu.be/YjY0Lg0_XTs

pumped to get home after work and continue labbing out an ssl reds alt route idea (its absolute nonsense :D)

52nd->27th, 7:29 1 star :')

going to have to start looking for a 3rd job atp. feels like i'm never going to move out/start HRT

no longer top 50 in anything :( the fall off is real

missed last throw :( first attempt of league would have been sick to pb lol

my league team! :D i hope to pb at least once in something 🙏

i went an entire day yesterday without drinking (alcohol) at all.. its so hard

game that i dont know how to play :DD

(spends the entire summer restoring twitch highlights that died on SRC LBs for free and only 1 person has thanked me so far for restoring something of theirs) This Is A Good Use Of My Time And I Should Definitely Not Quit

u can't pb if u reset

speakers going hammer, xcammer xcammer xcammer

i know i fell off but this the comeback ..

2 xcam pbs from today :D

i wish i was more self confident and had Good Voice i want to make sm64 content I Know Many things

ez to coast when things are going well... but how about when the Challenges present themselves #TimeToCook #MarioEnjoyers

been binge drinking heavily x 365, up at 6 am craving more.. anything i can get my hands on so i can numb my reality at the moment. the layers upon layers of trauma are unbearable and i need assistance methinks

bob secrets without cannon nonsense strat order number 309782 (ignore the igt this would be like 30s lol)

coming up with nonsense things like this is why i still play this game :D

squeezing every hour i can get out of these 2 jobs, need to move out and have a safe space to start HRT :( (unfortunately my savings aren't nearly enough yet lol, living expenses + being t1 diabetic is annoyingly costly)

girl who restores thousands of deleted twitch highlights upscaled to 1440p onto youtube, but with only 9mbps upload and takes a decade to finish reuploading everything (hey)

love yall :]

going to try for deep freeze single star tie to get to 10 concurrent ss records. prob going to be a struggle though, was never very good at that star :3

starting a 2nd job tomorrow morning (temp position through may) nice change of pace from spending years mass applying and getting nowhere :)

sometimes you just gotta do some absolute nonsense

0 star 7:33 -> 7:18 :D

i've had many sessions lately in a row of just 16 end game only, first run past HMC since! definitely going for 3x

deck.blue goes hard btw (anyone that used to use TweetDeck on Twitter in olden times, it is literally that but for bluesky)

was back to streaming today and got this run, almost :D

regardless of it being bc mouth pain i was in/recovery, it feels nice to be 5 days sober from everything. i was at 120ish days straight of drinking, which is even more dangerous because blood sugar dips while sleeping with amount i was having. not afraid to share my truth, life is such a challenge 😭

sry for falling off streaming past week, dealing with a tooth thats ended up angled sideways in my mouth. can't really sit down and focus on anything atm constantly having to lie down and ice pack face.. hoping to be fixed soon, though i don't have insurance so idk. can't live with this pain :(

missed a throw again, but i'll take multiple small pbs always :D guess i can 3x

missed the first bowser 3 throw, but i guess its just 2 second pb at a time now :D

if you stand in front of a signpost with text up for a bit over 18 minutes in ironmario, you gain control of mario with the text on screen

After years of searching daily, I have finally been hired. I cannot begin to express how relieving that is for every aspect of my life.

-22s ahead on 15:55 out of fs yday 📈big things comin soon, more 16 later today!

having missed bowser throw in splits gives huge leads lol, run from last night just gotta hold one of those together :D

2025 and vods still getting dmca muted on twitch because of the file select music rofl

shovelled so much snow yesterday that my blood sugar is just perma going low while (trying) to sleep, had 90 grams of sugar and still low

another interview -> another job i didn't get, been searching every day for years, i've never seen anyone else struggle this much

missed the bowser 2 throw haha, clutched up bits though first full game pb since mid 2023/first 16 pb since 2021 neat stuff, back at it tmo :)

known hardest split in 16 star (hmc) this is like mid 15:4x if it goes well? lol

16 pacers from day 3 of grind :D i'm so bad at end game when it matters lol

had a pb pace into throws yday, not bad for day 2 :3 more attempts today (hopefully stream doesn't dc 6 separate times again lol!!!)

cloudy

even though it is obviously quite repetitive and dull content and without mic/cam etc., really appreciating all the people that have been popping into the single star streams :D the grind will continue this afternoon

-20c outside damn near hurts to breathe type beat