I've done nothing but play 40k: Dawn of War all day

Waking up to random hail is...interesting

Hiatus announcement: unfortunately I will be taking a break from streaming for a while, probably until after the holidays are over. I need time to focus on my mental health and improving myself. I'll still be around here. Picture from my Discord.

It'll be a while before I return to streaming. I was just informed the transfer won't go through until after the holidays. Im very upset.

Happy 🏳️‍🌈TRANS AWARENESS WEEK!🏳️‍🌈 There are so many amazing Trans people in the Vtubing and streaming community! Trans pals, introduce yourself below! Everyone else, go and check out one of the Trans streamers in this thread! I'll start! I'm Oceonax, a Retro Anime Vtuber, Artist, and Trans girl! 💜✨

It was still a little up in the air before, but I do know for sure now the transfer is happening. The department manager said he wants to get me transferred as soon as he can. I still dont have a date yet, but to know for sure its happening now is exciting. I can't wait. Ty for your patience.

Once I get my updated schedule and everything, I'll tell yall how the plan for streaming is going to change. Until then I'll probably stream tomorrow night and talk a little about it.

So I talked to a couple of managers of the department Im trying to transfer to and they seemed pretty enthused about me potentially going over to them. They even offered me specific days of the week off and the process isn't done yet. I think its safe to assume the transfer's gonna happen.

Ah the age old problem I've discovered I'm suffering from: >Introverted af >Craves human interaction

Emperors Children are hard af to paint, lol, at least if you follow what the Codex says.

Vine coming back was not on my 2025 Bingo card

To all my VTuber friends: First: Howdy Second: I think I might need to focus more on building a community better because Ill admit I think Ive been doing a poor job at it. Yall have any advice?

Im trying not to be a downer lately, Im just letting the stress get to me. I really shouldn't.

Howdy y'all. I know I saw I'd stream again today, but I'm still dealing with some things. But I'll go ahead and get this out of the way: even though I'm trying to switch to an overnight department, it shouldn't affect my streaming that much. I'll probably just stream a little earlier in the day.

I wish it was easier to talk about how you've been feeling.

I at least got the process started to transfer departments. I guess we're gonna see how that goes.

Oof. I gotta deal with insecurities, work, and trying to switch departments today. Im nervous.

Well I guess its a good thing I didn't stream because my wifi has all of a sudden decided to impress me by somehow rapidly going down and coming back over the course of 3 minutes.

I just realized I feel like I only ever post about streaming. Thats boring af. Instead, LOOK AT MY SONS! I got the 2 Dark Disciples for my Dark Apostle done today.

Ill probably be back to streaming Thursday. Still working things out at work.

Well its the first snowfall of the season outside. Time for my yearly "This is bullshit, I hate snow" post.

Sorry for canceling last night. Fighting the inside voices that tell me I'm worthless even though I know I'm not. I'll be back in a few days.

No stream tonight. I'm having oneof those depresso nights where I feel like Ill never accomplish my goals in life.

Oof. Its gonna be a frustrating process.

Used to work at a shoe store and the policy was employees had to look approachable (meaning look happy) and had to ask everyone if they needed help. Hated that job. I never looked happy to be there. They tried to convince me to get with the program, but they gave up after a while and let me be.

There might not be a stream tonight either Malphites. Im dealing with some work related stuff and might be switching departments soon. Ill keep yall informed on details how that will effect streams if the switch is made.

I had a dream one of my VTuber friends called me and we just had a nice, pleasant chat. Nice dream honestly.

Yeah im gonna have to cancel stream tonight. Still stuffed up and its uncomfortable to talk.

Since I mentioned it on stream yesterday. At the 1000 twitch follower goal, I'll be doing a grueling 'First to 100' fighting game marathon with @lightningrook.bsky.social With guest callers and all! Look forward to that~

I think im coming down with something. My sinuses feel like theyre stuffy, im getting a headache, and I feel exhausted.

Ooo aah so eepy

Ty all for tuning in tonight. I am worrying about my run atm, but I think I should be able to crawl myself out of it. I'll see y'all again tomorrow night.

Live!

Gonna be streaming more Resident Evil tonight. Probably around 7:00 PM Eastern. Hopefully I wasn't stuck anywhere. I'll see y'all then. www.twitch.tv/malphas_vtuber

Gonna post these here because Im actually really happy with how this turned out. I finished painting my Dark Apostle this morning.

I have learned its Oshi Day! So let me take the time to appreciate my Oshis: Pumpkin Synth and Yomi Quinnley! Pumpkin is a great friend and amazing artist, and we both share a love of survival horror and retro games. Yomi is an amazing streamer that continues to inspire me as a VTuber and a writer.

Slept on the new mattress last night and YALL like I haven't slept that good in a long time.

Schedule for 11/3-11/9 11/5: Resident Evil 11/6: Battlefield 6 11/8: Stagnant Weather (DOOM Wad)

I was running around all day but the good news is I got to go see my Mom and I got a new mattress. Today's been a good day.

No stream tonight Malphites. Im gonna be busy pretty much all day.

Ty all for tuning in tonight. That last level threw me off so much because of how small it was. There ain't no way there wasn't more to that map and it is gonna drive me crazy. I'll see you guys Monday.

LIVE!

Tonight at 7:00 PM Eastern, I'll be playing the Stagnant Weather DOOM Wad. I literally like just found it, lol, but it looks really cool. I'll see y'all then. www.twitch.tv/malphas_vtuber

I forgot I scheduled a DOOM wad not RE1. I have one in mind. Give me a few minutes and I'll put out the official stream announcement.

Back on Thursday, my mod came over and we played a game of 40k with the terrain I ordered. Best game I've played so far. My army's on the right with my Chaos Space Marines (The Pyre) and my mod is on the left running Space Marines (his homebrew chapter).

I do want to stream tonight. Ive been doing a lot of thinking the past couple days and I feel a lot better.

This has been a good Halloween

Rewatching Scooby Doo and the Witches Ghost was actually a lot of fun and a good trio down memory lane. It was stupid, but like the good kind of stupid where its fun.

Happy Halloween yall! Would you guys be mad if I postponed steam another day and instead hosted a movie in the Discord? I wanna chill with some friends.

Yall ever be thinking about random stuff and think back to a certain event in your life and realize thats where a lot of struggles you have currently originate from? Exactly what happened to me and it hit like a ton of bricks.