ok but. Jean doesn't even really dare to look at someone too longb(aka check then out), because he's scared of the consequences he's used to. in the next book I need there to be a scene where he's allowed to look at and appreciate Jeremy as much as he wants to, without anything else happening. pls

finished the current infinity nikki inkville quest. that was such a beautiful story. and so gay. so damn gay and I loved every second of it. also cried several times. we literally get a red band of fate as a gift at the end. damn.

I'm halfway through Dexter season 1 and oh my god. Deb is annoying me so badly.. girl. get a grip.

still haven't processed all of tsc and tgr, but what I just had to think about again was that Kevin threw away his public persona for a sec to defend jean during the interview and also stated his honest opinion on the situation without sugarcoating it. idk. not gonna leave my brain any time soon

actually no. I stand by the statement that it's Kevin coded. the song I mean. and the imagery fits both of them for different reasons

also: I have so many fucking thoughts about Kevin. the fucker knew about andreil as soon as Wymack knew. I swear! he was there during all the moments wymack was and just quietly observing them! I also don't believe in his relationship with thea. they weren't in contact for over a year after he fled!

what do you mean im done with the Golden Raven? WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!

ok but like. how are people saying Riko spitting in Neil's mouth didn't have a sexual component to it, knowing what he did to Jean and some other ravens? yeah he didn't do most of that himself but he orchestrated it?!

finished the Sunshine Court. thank God for Neil Josten. my hero. very interesting to get to see him from an outside perspective!

on a more lighthearted note. I love how literally everyone describes Kevin as a Diva. amazing. incredible! XD

you know what's funny? I wanted to draw a piece about Kevin trying not to drown (metaphorically) inspired by the song Damocles by Sleep Token. I now realise that that's Jeans song and visual. goodness.

I'm halfway through the sunshine court and have basically been crying nonstop. that poor guy.

can I just say. after reading the first aftg trilogy twice now (still haven't read the others).. Kevin had such a strong start but in the end he felt really washed out and like an afterthought half of the time. GIVE ME MORE DEBTH ON THE BOI! and free him from this groomer while we're at it.

another one for the photo wall✨️ #aftg #aftgfanart #allforthegame #allforthegamefanart #thefoxholecourt #theravenking #thekingsmen #neiljosten

how tf is tiktok the platform my art is doing the best on? XD

Yeah, I'm all you need, I'ma be your idol. #kpopdemonhunters #jinu #tgcf #heavenofficialsblessing #huacheng

I'm glad I can finally kind of predict under which circumstances I get a migraine. but that doesn't mean I can avoid it at all times :<

still waiting. there have been updates but billing hasn't resumed yet. I'm exercising so much patience here

how do artists not constantly change their profile pics to their latest piece?

So obsessed with those two I can't even put it into words. Andrew liking neck kisses is so dear to me. #andreil #andrewminyard #neiljosten #aftg #aftgfanart #allforthegame #allforthegamefanart

today is try-not-to-have-an-anxiety-attack-day and I don't appreciate it

Andrew finding out he has a brother and thinking there's a version of himself out there that got a good start in life and is happy. and then doing everything in his power to stay away and not drag that version into his own problems.

I would like to use the audio book to make some tiktoks.. I sadly really dislike how it's read though :<

in my head Andrew just looks incredibly soft💕 #andrewminyard #aftg

closeups✨️ #andreil #aftg

first #andreil art I made. got a bit obsessed over the last few weeks. #aftg

rereading the foxhole court is so fun. I have solche a different perspective on things now and focus on completely different things. I also finally understand the passages a lot of people have marked. I was so confused on the reasons the first time around XD

rereading the foxhole court and realising what the reason for Andrews freak out on nicky was. ouch. not understanding the guy was less painful.

GOT HER!!🏍✨️

just saw a person who looks exactly like i imagine the monster twins. hair, height, fashion and all

Neil Josten nosso maior ícone demissexual [ #ABPride2025 #aftg #andreil ]

finished the first three books of the All For The Game series. might be slightly obsessed. fitting XD

I get to collect my new baby tomorrow!!

i just wanted to draw him in a braid and then also got really focused on trying out new brushes oops #.debdoot | #tgcf | #huacheng

sometimes I know i won't be able to read a fanfic about a character because I can't believe someone other than the author could accurately portray them

currently getting into Sleep Token. that's some awesome music.

procreate says I painted 2,5 hours today. be proud of me XD

I'm currently reading a scene where one of the characters is sitting on a beanbag chair and it costs me everything not to constantly stop because my sensory issues for that are so strong that even thinking about the noise and feel makes my jaw itch✌️ gotta love the tism

started a new book series a few days ago. love it so far. it's emotional though and I've been trying not to cry on the train for the last few hours XD

apparently spiders actually learn your rhythm on when you're in the room and when you're not. so she's really trying to stay out of my way as best as she can. adorable

I don't think there's one person on this train who's not coughing

still waiting. absolutely not checking every day. nope. not me. I'd never.

there's a spider in my bathroom and we have an unspoken agreement that she only comes out at night when it's dark and I'm not around. I appreciate how she sticks to it.

read 2,5 last week. slightly less but still pretty cool! don't think I'll be able to keep this many up but I like that I'm still going so far ^-^

biker Hua Cheng. my current hyperfixations are showing🙈 can't believe I drew that bike without tracing.. never again😅😂 #huacheng #tgcf #heavenofficialsblessing

this is so weird but I miss arguing with people. especially irl. I'm such a people pleaser and get anxious whenever someone isn't incredibly nice to me. I was such an angry beast as a kid and I miss that part of me. at least being able to really let it out.

I have three driving lessons left (all gonna be done on tuesday) and then my driving test on Wednesday. there's a certain exercise i haven't been able to do correctly even once so far.. all in all.. 50/50 on if I manage to do it in practice and if I drive well enough in the exam.. but well.

not directly related but he was telling me about how bad he was feeling after that breakup because first love and all that jazz and said "you know how it is".. I do in fact NOT know how it is XD

I have a university interview tomorrow that I can't postpone and I woke up with a sore throat. if I'm getting sick now ill riot.

there's 100 things to do this week and it's getting more with every passing minute..