A friend had an artist do this lol

Well Winterfest For Terrors Of Nowhere has ended but at least i got one thing out of the event i survived neo pilot so now ill just have to wait till next Winterfest to try and survive cold night and get the torch

One thing i know as of late is im not perfect i try to just enjoy the time i have with my good friends i know i can't please everyone and sometimes worry that i will push someone away that i care about eh its always a fear of mine even when said friends say they will stick by me thru things

I have gotten tired of some people becoming man child and just block me without even trying to talk to me about their problems with me or if i did something wrong like fucking man up its so fucking childish blocking someone because you don't see eye to eye i only block people who really deserve it

Im gonna try to keep my hopes up that this year will be better than 2025 it was really bad for me last year so the bar is pretty fucking low all i can do is be around my friends and keep moving forward my friends have been by my side thru everything and i thank them for that both old and new friends

Well my situation has improved a bit I'm not in too much danger anymore I ended up getting a huge amount of extra money which I ended up spending on a switch 2 income is at least better which is why I even considered on getting one with the extra money in the first place

I feel like i need to be around friends more than ever im just so done with this fucking year i can't catch a break at all even when a small light comes thru its still not enough to get me out of my situation my brain is my own worst enemy right now and the only thing stopping it is my good friends

Small light at the end of the tunnel but not completely out of the woods yet on my financial situation it is to be seen if it will turn into a favorable position where i can survive but its a step in the right direction but at least i have a little hope

Just letting everyone know that this Wednesday i will be celebrating my twitch affiliate anniversary with a 12hr stream at 12pm PDT hope to see some of you guys there www.twitch.tv/icybluederg

ko-fi.com/icybluederg/... starting a new goal to help with next month since it is still taking time to fix things i have been having bad luck im gonna keep trying but so far it is not looking good for me im gonna start burning money to the point where i can't afford rent/food and bills

ko-fi.com/icybluederg/... starting a new goal to help with next month since it is still taking time to fix things i have been having bad luck im gonna keep trying but so far it is not looking good for me im gonna start burning money to the point where i can't afford rent/food and bills

If you can help pls anything will do since i will be a bit strapped here and there until i can fix my financial situation ko-fi.com/icybluederg

Still struggling mentally especially now that furality is over i just hate that i have this gut feeling that im fated to fall this year i just for ONCE my gut is wrong and things will turn around soon cause man i seriously need a win soon

i wish things would just go back to how they were before this year has been nothing but loss and barely any wins in my life

I really don't expect much help but i may be heading to a dire situation if anyone can help any bit helps to give me more time at this point im slowly running out of time ko-fi.com/icybluederg

Thx to all who have supported me so far and have reached abo 75% of my goal every bit is gonna help give me more time to fix my financial situation as of right now i will be fine but if i can't get it fixed next month i will suffer the month after for having reduced income

I really don't expect much help but i may be heading to a dire situation if anyone can help any bit helps to give me more time at this point im slowly running out of time ko-fi.com/icybluederg

Welp Im screwed next month my main source of income is being shafted im so done everything seems to be against me i don't know what to do at this point job search has so far been a bust even if i get ssi back its still won't really be enough to survive im sorry everyone but my time is running out

If you can help pls anything will do since i will be a bit strapped here and there until i can fix my financial situation ko-fi.com/icybluederg

Things are still a bit tough still not much progress in fixing my financial situation im hoping with taking this stream hiatus and trying to focus on getting more applications for jobs out mabe i can land something cause i still haven't herd much word from ssi

Birthday beam yeet

Might need some help financially soon as ssi is currently holding the money they give me and i don't know if i can get them to release it so i put up a goal just in case to get me by until i can figure something out so pls share around here is the link ko-fi.com/icybluederg

Well I really don't know if i will fix my financial situation no word form ssi job searching has been at a standstill im trying my hardest but i feel like im getting nowhere fuck this year man i hate the stress i can sorta get by with what i have been getting money wise but its gonna be difficult

I haven't been feeling myself lately i feel like all my effort to fix my situation is just gonna fail idk im trying to keep myself together but its been very difficult i just want things to get better but wonder if they ever will trying to hold on to what little hope i have left

so far iv had at least a few people support I am at least little over half the goal so i do that those that have supported only really a few days till the end of the month so yea im probably gonna have to still touch my 500 line of credit unless i reach the goal before the month ends just $200 to go

Iv been slowly losing hope that things will get better for me its been really hard for me to keep it together yesterday i ended up having an anxiety attack from all the stress im trying everything i can to figure something out i might have to hit my $500 line of credit just to get by next month

Might need some help financially soon as ssi is currently holding the money they give me and i don't know if i can get them to release it so i put up a goal just in case to get me by until i can figure something out so pls share around here is the link ko-fi.com/icybluederg

So I recently hit 1.5k Followers on Twitch so i plan on doing a 12hr stream next week on the 21st of Jan at 12pm PST

also looks like @the13thseahawk.bsky.social @gamerwolf.bsky.social @project-x.bsky.social and @garukubluemoon.bsky.social are my most viewed streamers this year

throwing this up here as well

Gonna be continuing cursed halo tonight at 7pm PST with @gamerwolf.bsky.social

Tune In at 7pm PST me and @gamerwolf.bsky.social will be doing some cursed halo

Grateful for the friends and community's that continue to help me grow thx guys you mean a lot to me

Had a pretty hefty panic attack last night that just hit me out of nowhere like a ton of bricks i feel bad tho cause it was around a stream im still kinda feeling meh from it but im still gonna stream today to at least do something to distract my mind from the thoughts and stress

Tomorrow at 3pm PST It begins

I have been having a lot of doubts lately my mind has just been all over the place tbh im trying really hard to beat back the thoughts but i feel like its really difficult cause of all the stress i have been going thru as of late it has most certainly taken its toll on me

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Doing some GTA V Crowd Control www.twitch.tv/icebluedrago...

Ended up catching a small bug so streams will be on pause for a bit

Welp I made it to the site