Finally played with my @bad-dragon.com Who said chubby pups can't have fun to? =p

House dinner tonight: A glorious mountain of tempura nuggets & fries! Yes, we are eating like we are five years old. No, we will not be accepting criticism at this time. Haha.

After a long day at work, coming home to make cilantro lime chicken & rice bowls with avocado, tomatoes, & roasted green chlis mixed in. God, this is so amazing. Sometimes healing is a bowl of good food, a tired heart, & people beside you in the kitchen.

"May every star we pass remind us that hope travels with us, kindness guides us, and no one is ever beyond the reach of care.” Ezriana Anmut Fleet Admiral The Anmut Expeditionary Medical Fleet

There is something truly special about standing in this uniform on the bridge of my ship. I'm proud to serve as Fleet Admiral of The Anmut Expeditionary Medical Fleet. Proud of our crew & proud of the compassion, integrity, & safety we continue to build together.

Yay I has passport now to go to @fur-eh.bsky.social

I’m tired of living in a house where nothing gets done unless I speak up & become the bad guy. Everyone complains about others not doing their part, but accountability seems optional. I’m sick of the double standards. This house feels like chaos with a roof. I need/want out!!

If you truly were over us, you wouldn't be playing the victim while continuing to hurt others with your lies. We have the right to exist, make friends, & build a family without your ghost haunting us. We don't feel safe around you, & are done letting your lies haunt our lives.

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Out & about at @furality.org, roaming the dealers den & collecting new accessories like side quests! Ezri has entered the server & is currently accepting party invites. Come hang out, say hi, vibe, or drag me into chaos. I promise I only bite emotionally.

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Rough day at work, so I stopped by the store & grabbed everything to make steak, pepper, & cheese subs with fries for the house. Honestly? Best stress-meal decision I’ve made!

Today marks 8 years since I moved to California from Montana. I miss Big Sky Country more than words can say, and I still hope to retire there one day. California hasn’t always been easy, but it’s given me love, growth, chosen family, and memories I’ll always carry. For now, Sacramento is home. <3

4 years went by too fucking fast. 4 years ago, I sat with you in the hospital after your surgery to remove the brain tumor. Memory was already coming in & out, so you had forgotten who I was even before then. This was the last memory I got with you. I miss you, Dad. So much.

People don’t know what it feels like to carry this weight every day. To wake up tired, overwhelmed, already fighting a battle no one can hear. They see me smile, or see me functioning & think I’m fine. They the mask & shell of me. They just don’t hear the crying in my head.

I don’t know if I’ve ever known peace. I know survival & getting up guarded. Pretending I’m okay just to get through the day. People talk about feeling safe, calm, & happy. I just want to let people in. I’m scared they’ll see how much of me is still bracing for impact.

The saddest people are often the ones trying hardest to be there for everyone else. Not because they’re unbreakable, but because they know what pain feels like & refuse to let others feel alone in it. So they give, smile, & say “I’m okay,” while quietly falling apart too.

You don’t always lose people because you failed them. Sometimes you lose them because you finally stopped abandoning yourself to keep them comfortable. Let them walk & the silence tell the truth. The ache will teach you what your loyalty kept forgiving. Then stand up, Ezriana

Stop begging people to stay when they already packed their bags. Let them go. If they want to leave, open the door. Don’t chase them holding the pieces they broke. Some people leaving isn’t loss. It’s survival taking out the trash before it rots. Cry, then lock the door.

Dinner for the crew tonight: shredded oven-roasted chicken thighs over veggies & rice, finished with a rich pork katsu broth. We cooked the kind of comfort food that makes the house go quiet for a second because everyone’s too busy eating. Mission accomplished.

Dinner tonight: John Wayne casserole. Something I grew up on in high school & hadn’t touched in years! Tonight, it hit exactly the way it was supposed to. If you’ve never had it, or you want to do it properly, here’s the recipe I used: www.allthingsmamma.com/john-wayne-c...

Finally got the spare room set up. New bedding, furniture, even a few Build A Bear friends wish I could afford more of them! It’s not perfect yet, but it finally feels like a space I can open to others again. That means more than I can put into words right now.

I almost lost everything & I don’t know how to stop feeling like it was my fault. I’m still here, still trying to follow your voice, even when my own says I’m the damage. So I’ll carry on, not because I feel okay, but because you taught me how to stay.

I’m not okay, I just learned how to say it quieter. Almost lost you, & I’m still standing here feeling like the villain in our story. We just carry on, right? Even when it feels like I’m the ghost that caused the damage.

Watching furs body-shame others is disappointing. "I worked hard” isn’t a license to tear people down or gatekeep spaces because your ego says they’re lesser. I’ve met people of all shapes & sizes with the biggest hearts. Show respect, lead with compassion, & let people exist.

Furry music artists be like: Gimme the beat fox, & free my soul, I wanna get lost in your booty hole and lick away! (Get those lyrics from Uncle Kracker stuck in your head now!)

Even in the dark, even when everything feels like it’s falling apart, I still find my way back to you. Not by chance or by accident. Because with you, is where I belong.

I don’t say it enough, but loving you feels like coming home after a long war. It’s steady & real. The kind of love that stays, builds, & chooses you every time. I know in my heart, that I will always love you!

Hi friends Thank you for coming to Little’s Lounge: Cartoon Night! This space worked because of you. Your gentleness & care made it safe, warm, & real. I hope you left feeling more grounded, held, & less alone. Until next month, keep that softness with you.