time to lay down now, idk if im gonna be able to sleep tho

these meds are making me restless

yeah i don't think im gonna be sleeping any time soon

just took them for today, lets just see how i will do being on meds now!

well, im on meds now i guess.

suicidal ideations are coming back! 😁😁😁

i am not really here. i dont really exist

paraanoid of eveyrone yayayy

evreyone is on their way to attack me and kill me

nothingg is real

waaa all my friends hate me

feeling like shit out of nowhere, that's real fun i guess?

no no the thoughts are coming back, please leave me alone. please... not right now.

🥳🥳🥳

it's just a right wing loser lmaooooo

i think it may have came from this reply actually?? weird that they're targeting me but alright

now im just really paranoid again

thanks man

im kinda already on edge this is not helping me either

i think im being harassed by someone fucking great

cool

well now im in a shit mood again

social media making me feel really bad but i dont really have an option

why did that person block me for announcing that im taking a break from main??????

hi. i've calmed down a bit now

hey i make that face!

i've been starving myself for about a couple days now. yes that really stupid of me and i shouldn't have done it

im starting to think that i might have something else other than BPD but idk what. man im tired of trying to guess what i have going on mentally, need a diagnosis asap

i did try to eat something earlier but i don't think it's enough

now im just... really exhausted

hi

i'll go and try to take a shower now

right this account still has the pronoun labeler. need to remove it

staying on private tho

crying in front of everyone because im pathetic

i haven't eaten in 2 days

i lost an oomf during that, that is so cool actually 👍👍👍👍👍

who used cleanfollow to unfollow my main when it was deactivated

ngl the only reason i listen to music most of the time is because it helps me ignore the bad thoughts that's in my head every day :)

i still don't want to live anymore

im very mentally unwell that everyone is afraid of me for no reason

tired of everyone still

nope i still hate everything

please don't leave me

i don't want ppl to be afraid of me. i might do something to myself but i will never do anything to anyone else, i just have a lot of things go on in my mind every single day. i'm not a scary person, i'm not someone who you should be afraid of

:(

some of my friends longer want to talk to me anymore after that. probably because they think im crazy and want to stay away because they're scared of me

i'll try to sleep now, if it's even possible

this is what it's like to have a family history of mental illness and then of course i get the short end of the stick i guess?