my healing incisions are so fucking itchyyyyy

how is all of my skin SO FUCKING DRY I’m not even in the dry outside winter air!!! i look like a lizard!! putting my tgel on my shoulders dries my skin out so much that it looks like an actual desert !!! wtf !!!

i CANNOT wait to be done with nipple bandages and 23/7 compression bc the skin around my underarms is so fuckin annoyed

Two weeks after top surgery! Def have some annoying swelling below the underarms and my armpits are a bit raw & sensitive from the medical tape securing the bandages that cover my nipples, but otherwise healing has been decent (labelled photo as graphic media just in case but it isn’t too bad)

I’m sorry I’m not v active on here but do any of my beloved perverts have any recent gay shows to recommend me while I’m out of work for the rest of the year

I’m worried that I’ve developed a seroma or two despite the drains petering out to almost nothing after a week 🙃

i can’t wait for my post-top surgery slouch posture to improve so that i can better appreciate my newly flat chest instead of it looking concave bc of the forced awful posture 🥴

IT’S FLAT FUCK FRIDAY !!!

imma be honest y’all I’m so paranoid about nipple graft recovery

does bluesky have image blurring/spoilers or no

i am the cleanest I’ve been since the day before my surgery bc i finally felt up for an everything wash/bathe session and i feel so fuckin human again

obvs i know and have processed that i’ve had top surgery but like it has-yet-hasn’t hit me that my tits are gone bc I’m just so focused on the recovery and wound care of it all

the way i can tell I’ve forgotten to take my daily meds for ten days bc i’ve been so focused on other aspects of top surgery recovery that i forgot i have mental fuckin illnesses that need addressing

okay this is random but did anyone else have hiccups at least once every day while recovering from top surgery like is this a correlation or just coincidence

one “unexpected but it also makes complete obvious sense” thing that I’ve noticed coming out of top surgery is that it is much easier to hand-on-heart feel my heartbeat simply bc there is less tissue between my hand and my heart

ngl almost passed out getting my drains taken out but now I’m getting freaked out by the weepy drain holes 🥴

i would probably be feeling more cabin fever if i actually felt up for doing things but my latest adventure was going downstairs to the living room today to watch the same stuff I’ve been watching in my bedroom this whole time

four and a half more days of this first week of recovery 🥴

the cruel and unusual punishment of getting my fucking period the day after my top surgery 🙃

got home from surgery around 2.5hrs ago and healing now 🩷 it’s a lil rough out here but we’re making the best of it

top surgery tomorrow morning 🩷

i cannot properly express just how much i am dreading going back to work tomorrow for Special Cup Promo

oh yeah another fantastic development at [coffee shop] that not many people know about is that as of a month ago they made it a policy that nobody can preventatively wear a face mask unless they have a documented accommodation to wear one 😃😃

seeing sabrina carpenter in toronto tonight and this morning we walked to a little mom-and-pop cafe for breakfast and between the latte & the fresh breakfast with local ingredients and sitting at a table looking out at the bustling city street, I think I reached an ultimate state of bliss

i love getting paired with an unsafe driver 🥴

“there’s like a rule 34 in fandoms but for piss” is a sentence that came out of my mouth today and my sibling just covered their face w their hands in embarrassment lmfao

I will unfortunately not be signing up for the sxx this year, but FORTUNATELY it is bc I’m getting top surgery next month!!! I might delve into the treat sheet if I’m feeling Up To It as I get further along in my healing process and also would not have a set deadline to make so!! there’s that

marianas trench starting to go lowkey viral bc of josh ramsay’s cover of defying gravity, what an incredible time we live in

i desperately want to be the person that is not on social media but i am unfortunately addicted to scrolling twitter and taking psychic damage every other post

the ssv that put in his two weeks is having it out with the store manager right now while only partially in the back room and the vibes are r a n c i d

god, someone tell me not to desperately apply to any retail job i can find and take a $2+tips paycut and lose benefits for it simply bc i can’t fuckin standing working here anymore

i slept until 1:30pm and then proceeded to nap for half the day and am still tired so i am deeply suspecting that i’m either coming down with something or ***** ** ***

LOVER DEAREST X GOOD TO YOU, BUFFALO WON SO BAD THANK YOU MARIANAS TRENCH

it’s the people in their buffalo bills jerseys at the marianas trench concert that clearly went straight from the bills game to the concert

I’m so ecstatic that marianas trench decided to add a phantoms song into the second leg of the force of nature tour setlist (only the lonely survive) but I would absolutely DIE of euphoria if they played echoes of you at tomorrow’s buffalo show 😩😍

our fucking water heater went out :’)

skipping the munch I’ve been looking forward to bc I’m bleeding for some fucking reason so I’m already miserable & can’t cancel going to our friend’s birthday party tonight but if I go to the munch then i’ll be nonstop from work at 4:30am til post-party at like 10pm with no break & i can’t do it 😞

secured mcr tickets today AND seeing marianas trench this sunday??? i stay winning

WE SECURED TICKETS TO MCR IN NYC NEXT AUGUST AAAAAAAAAAA

started putting together a cute little miniature bookstore model on saturday, and worked on it more today to get the foundation and electrical work done 🩷 most of the work left is a bunch of little accessories/props/clutter but all the big stuff is done ☺️

been the most consistent with my tgel than i have in a long fuckin time and i can tell simply by how horny i am

my condolences to any danmei fans who subscribe to my ao3 account bc i just keep posting minecraft smp ficlets

food issues // all of the Substantial food at work (anything with protein) is tasting extremely Gross™️ & i can only choke down pastries but that isn’t enough to eat for meals & I’m just so frustrated !!! why tf does my mouth actively make things taste disgusting when my brain doesn’t want it !!!!

I trust y’all’s opinion esp regarding queer horror movels, this one sounds really good but it has pregnancy (of I’m assuming a trans male character) as a major plot point. Is this book and/or author good enough/worth putting this on my tbr despite my aversion to pregnancy & pregnancy-related plots?

tried my hand at one of those little wooden craft build kits :3

Being trans is great, but it would nicer during a time when my mere existence is not a form of protest

finally came out to my grammy & grampy at dinner tonight and told them I’m getting top surgery in november 🥹

so i got baby’s first ttrpg recently (with a cheap set of dice that goes with the Vibe) and now i just have to……learn how to play a ttrpg looool (the Old Gods Of Appalachia ttrpg uses the cypher system but in general i have never played a ttrpg so there is a learning curve there)

okay none of y’all judge me if you see me uploading angsty fuckin minecraft smp fanfiction okay

stupid “make sure you’re directly handing off food and drinks to every customer so it’s going from your hand to theirs it doesn’t matter if you have to wait for them to come to the counter don’t worry about how long it takes we have to slowly reset customer expectations” go fuck yourself