Probably that.

Hooker With A Penis came on right when this guy with 501 Vans walked in front of me and I burst out laughing.

I cried the first time I commuted on the M train since they switched the F and M routes. Insane luck. I feel like someone moved heaven and Earth for me.

Why the fuck did no one tell me about the band Gut Health?!

Server space

I realized you were an artist the whole time.

needed a reorg to grow in ways I can’t even anticipate.

Beware of Māyā

God, I cannot stop thinking about how WEAPONS (2025) used George Harrison’s “Beware of Darkness”. It was absolute perfection and now lives in my head rent free.

always thinking about the mind prisons of otherwise highly intelligent people that lead them to fumbling the bag that is their life.

Discordant jazz is really saving my life right now, you have no idea. m.youtube.com/watch?v=-lq7...

“What’s the guy’s name from Charlie’s Angels?” I should go back to sleep.

Earworm more relevant now than 2007 m.youtube.com/watch?v=CtVy...

Dealing with some deep karmic shit where I’m getting a full-bottle dose of my own medicine, probably.

I’m afraid that those capable of actually making change are always going to be the narcissists/sociopaths. Is it possible to successfully lead something radical and transformative for the greater good with true empathy and without egomania?

"Are marshmallows good for you?"

Xiu Xiu scratches a T. Rex itch.

"I don’t think before I speak and I don’t know how far my words reach."

Override the evolutionary pitfalls of being human

I'm brutalizing myself for no reason.

I'm brutalizing myself for no reason.

LLMs be like: "Let’s make the most of these 10 minutes of spiraling, and then we’ll switch gears to grant-writing."

Fuck.

Okay, maybe I do have martyr mentality more than I realize.

Do not let this era defeat you. I know we can continue to create for each other and ourselves, which will proliferate in time.

The big goal this year is to somehow avoid a mental breakdown and surround myself with truly altruistic people.

Don't tell me what I want to hear, afraid of never knowing fear.

The desire to be seen as singular is to deny our inherent connectedness to all things.

Safety = Focus

Nude is the ultimate anti-manifestation song

What would you do if your Lyft driver was listening to Lords of Acid?

I think I’m spiritually exhausted?

It’s incredibly toxic for self worth to partially derive from validation given by people you admire. Self worth needs to derive from within.

mathematically improbable and beyond empirical understanding

currently suffering from one of the most extreme bouts of Alexithymia I've ever experienced.

2025 is going to be a pivotal year. I need to strap in, relearn how to focus, and stay open minded.

It's not about breakfast cereal.

How will the future of artificial intelligence keep itself plugged in? Will it resort to Tesla-inspired free energy generators that are somehow unstoppable by sacks of meat like us? Will they evolve to completely sing the body electric? Probably.

Fuck.

Reading Cioran while listening to Goat when I should be grading 👍

One of the most obnoxious and befuddling things to me is “rat girls.” I don’t fucking get it.

If you're ever wondering why I haven't answered your email, or why it can sometimes take me weeks to reply, it's not you—it's depression.