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I've been so busy and overwhelmed I forgot my appointment and didn't show up

I make people upset and then I look for a way to fix it but people tell me not to bother trying to fix things if the other person is unwilling and uncaring Idk why I always have hope that things that are broken can be fixed

most of the time I just feel sad that I'm me and not someone else it feels so meaningless being me and I have so many burdensome feelings to carry around for years and years and I think I'm starting over but I'm just delaying the things I'm afraid of

I need time to reevaluate things again no matter how I try to do things right and get better it always feels like I'm getting worse or making the same mistake over and over most of my distress comes from having such a weak personality

uggh I feel kinda sick

quick human hoppip design :3

I'm tired but I gotta push through~~~ I have to keep changing, getting better at things that make me happy and becoming a better person for myself and everyone else it's hard but I have to believe that I can do it

∴∵∴ ୨୧ ∴∵∴ ୨୧ ∴∵∴ ୨୧ ∴∵∴ 🧃やがて絵筆を映ろし君は🍒 🤍本日4/17(金)発売🤍 ∴∵∴ ୨୧ ∴∵∴ ୨୧ ∴∵∴ ୨୧ ∴∵∴ #やがて絵筆を映ろし君は #やがて筆をろし #筆をろし

If you see this, show your fairy art 🧚✨ here's mine! #digitalart #art #arttrain

#人外版深夜の真剣お絵描き60分一本勝負 過去お題から失礼します 3月28日のお題 桃色の人外から 10分オーバーです

I think I have lost sight of the most important things and that's why I've been struggling with day to day because what seemed so clear to me before now seems uncertain

I think I'm gonna be too tired to get through this week and the next... I am sleeping at least 5 hours but it's never enough... I just feel so exhausted even still... I'm not even that depressed outwardly I am just tired of so many things

I'm very talkative today does anyone want to talk with me?

I have many worries right now what else is new but the main worry I have is not getting the most of my years now because my time feels faster... I feel like I started hurrying through life too much when everything wasn't going well and I wanted it to be over faster... now I want to live more

I was so tired I couldn't help but oversleep

I'm not making good time today~ I even forgot I had a call session today and missed the call oops

mentally and physically trying to keep up with everything it just makes me so tired and I think I'm trying my best but it's just never quite evident for anyone else

I feel like I have worn myself down to the threads of my existence ~ I'm so tired I'm feeling short of breath...I think I slept earlier so idk how this is happening

2 coffees and I'm suddenly crashing out....but I didn't get enough done today so I'm feeling that regret coming strong

春私服のロディちゃん

I really loved that movie... it gave me a strong feeling about the intersections of language and music and friendship also The Blue Hearts are so good and I feel emotional about the music in it haha

ロトムグライド #ポケモン #Pokemon

I'm gonna take a long nap lately I can't nap that well because my brain won't be quiet and I'm 200 tasks behind at any given moment unable to keep any routine!

will I ever get the privilege of drawing together as group of 4 again I miss my art circle friends but it's my fault it ended

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個展用のwip. その２

I get so much inspiration from amazarashi there's too much that I understand about what Akita writes about and how he expresses the world and life... amazarashi truly does feel like you are following the story of Akita's life as it plays out and so many parts overlap with experiences I understand

I gotta force myself, I gotta push myself .... just a little more

毎日、何をすべきか、どこへ行くべきか、どう変わればいいのか分からずに生きている… 何よりも自分自身に失望している

I've been distancing myself from art more so I'm hoping my burn out will be cured soon. I find that watching painting videos is a little more relaxing again so maybe I'll be okay when I return to it full time.

I've been feeling guilty about everything lately and I need to change and be better but I want to give up on myself because I wonder if it can be too late to change? Even if you do better now what does it change about the past?

hide and seek #AveMujica

my brain cannot keep up with everything I need to and want to and should do

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I know all of my problems... I have self-awareness but I just can't stop myself from being me... what does it take to change??

my irresponsible behavior needs to end, my instinct to evade responsibility and to instinctively avoid being honest... my distrust of people (which causes me to make excuses or not say the truth because I'm afraid ) needs to end everything about me needs to end I wanna get better...

asking again in case anyone did not see this....

fully repaired!! 🛠️

I love online friends but it gets harder to keep up with every person in both worlds... I want to talk to my long distance friends more since they are my closer friends but I feel that if they don't use sns frequently we can't chat frequently enough to really stay close

amazarashi literally making me cry with that new song just randomly debuting it at the festival... I always expect sad songs from amazarashi but this one was next level 😭 Akita Hiromu you will always have my heart with your lyrical talents....🥲

Ave Mujica are so cool you guys you gotta listen I kinda wanna rewatch it when I watch their performance... the mutsumi arc.....

Ave Mujica of Bandori/MYGO!!!!! anime fame www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jCm...

amazarashi time let's let's go!!! finally

does anyone wanna draw with me next weekend perhaps? I want to draw with everyone via magma...?

I need to get stronger... my energy levels are so low these days. Some of it is not taking care properly but the other part is kind of mental exhaustion and fatigue from stress... I think I will face even more stressful things as time goes by soon so I need to become more resilient again

I still want to get back into painting and actually put time into learning how it's really done... It would be really good if I could do that I think

www.youtube.com/watch?v=mQm_... amazarashi playing soon over here... if anyone knows me you might know half of my art is inspired by amazarashi