I feel kind of sick recently... maybe a stress build up or maybe not I want to rest my mind somehow but I think I'll never get any rest

ah I'm so tired lately why

how do I get better at life... I've become everyone's problem because I just cannot do anything right anymore I don't think I ever could so it's a mystery how I've ever gotten by and then I realize oh so that's why I dropped out of society

it just makes me feel a lot less stressed when I come here I guess it's a thing that my brain relates to relaxing

sns is the last place I can go

everything is just a new level of discomfort and blocking my mind out to ignore it if you can't even have peace of mind in quiet days off then why even have a day off yet I need my brain to work and do well and half of it is shut down to deal with stress how do you manage those paradoxes

I'm not trying to be negative, I'm just very very discouraged and distressed and worn down every single aspect of my life is a source of stress... not just small stress insurmountable, life ruining stress impossible situations I CANNOT solve without miracles and my own brain that I can't control

I feel I have failed in every possible since of the word. I see nothing but disappointment in everyone's expressions. I feel nothing but the sense that I'm not doing enough, I shouldn't be there, etc.

and I don't think i'm ever going to have any peace of mind...

I'm a failure of society! of the whole world

I honestly believe I am incapable of learning anything anymore I'm the worst in every single group, every situation, every aspect of life there's no one who could ever give me genuine praise when I simply cannot do what others can do

to think everything in the world is going to ruin and I spent a decade being tormented by absurd impossible circumstances and situations and when I give a little effort to do better to dream of a new life the world starts going down and all my opportunities, hopes and dreams of a better life with it

if these are adhd symptoms is it possible to structure your brain with your own ability? because nothing I've ever tried has worked... nowadays even the pressure of someone's disappointment or anger isn't working on me

at this point I do think that medicine may be my only option so I can function normally in the world when it demands so much of me and my brain is just not capable of handling any of what is demanded of me but I have a lot of fear in me so I'm afraid I will regret not pushing through on my own

🌸🍒 #hatsunemiku #miku

#PixelArt #ドット絵 Wedding Holly for "Wedding" theme in the OOrthodox Church of Glasses group

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『掌に春』 ミミさんと桜 #illustration #イラスト #oc #一次創作 #一日一絵 #喫茶影絵

guys did you know? millsage and danran are here now. Just blanked out. but they are here bang-dream.com/artist/

sacrificing sleep for the greater good of my life 🥲

how do you prove all the people who doubt you and look at you with pity wrong

I'm having that "I have no future" depression episode again but just a day ago I was in a very "I'm enjoying my time so much" phase so what changed in that time?

They bounce! 🧡💚💙

I wanna RT a bunch of art since if i scroll a lot it is all revealed to me and I've lost track of everything here but instead I need to nap so I can recharge my brain for better output... my focus has been so off lately but I've been doing more than nothing at least

Aaah I'm a day late but again Happy Birthday @matdotpng.bsky.social !! Mat is a super cool artist who draws pretty women and is an amazing friend mwahhh a Night drawing for you! 💚

I had food but after not eating for hours does food make you feel sick because it makes me feel like throwing up...

｢ハッピーバレンタイン！感謝のお気持ち、受け取ってください♪｣ #ValentinesDay #バレンタインイラスト #oc #illustration #art

(2/3) ART TRADE ෆ⁠╹⁠ ⁠.̮⁠ ⁠╹⁠ෆ I gotta start colouring my lineart... but one more to go!!✨✨ OC DESIGN BY: DearGardenia on toyhouse OC OWNED BY (and art trade with): strawbiu.07 on insta #arttrade #notmyoc #digitalart

黒糖様より活動3周年記念のグッズイラストを担当させていただきました。 #illustration #イラスト

企業様、個人様問わずイラストのお仕事を募集しております◎ 取引実績 MVイラスト、ビールラベル、グッズイラストなど お見積りだけでも可能ですので下記リンクへご連絡お願い致します。 ▶︎lit.link/otobokehoka #イラスト #お仕事募集中 #依頼募集中

【お仕事】 hikawa様よりアーケードコントローラーのイラストを描かせていただきました。 ネオン風、彩度高めに仕上げさせていただいております🙌 #イラスト #お仕事募集中 #アケコン #illustration

I kind of want to share some stories from past online communities here but does everyone need to know these stories... it is a good question, indeed. w

hatsune miku but she's king moggle mog xii ⋆˙⟡ #ffxiv #vocaloid

marin kitagawa! ˳✧ 💛💖🎀 #mydressupdarling

I think Tommy will be there forever connecting both generations....

I was going over insane stories from my formative years in the Internet when I was online 24/7 and my whole view of the world and exposure to society was through social media. I can't believe I learned many of my social skills through the Internet but it makes me wonder what it really taught me.

🍓 #イラスト #illustration

all of a sudden my body hurts? I feel like I've been broken up or something

体が痛い痛い

I just need one thing that could change everything and everything would be okay again

capture #art #artist #drawing #Japaneseart #animeart #artwork #amazing #illustration #illustrator #illustrationartists #drowingart #drawing #comic #anime #pendrawing #penart #manga #漫画 #oc #お絵描き #イラストレーター #一次創作 #illust #oc #イラスト #創作

🤍 OC: White Rabbit Rosu (Angel Ver) #oc #art

I really like things that I can just sink my time and energy into...

I have to get my mind together but I can't get my mind together~ what do I do anymore I can't do the things I need to do to help myself

And this is the reason I try to never make absolute decisions. Always leaving some kind of exit you can use if things go wrong is essential.

I have a habit of binding myself into bad positions that I can't get out of regretting it. I'm unable to handle confrontation and my mind jumps to the worst conclusions so I end up trying to avoid everything and disappear or I make things worse by trying to fix it in a way that buries me deeper.