Titty scar may end up being mostly unnoticeable but kinda like how you get graphite stuck in your skin forever I wasn't able to fully remove the ash. Wondering if the burn will scar much. It's looking much better 3 weeks in though. I'm alive and well so that's what matters.

One day the night anxiety will resolve. This week: fancy nightlight and upping the melatonin to extra strength.

Laptop finally obtained through finance - will hopefully be paid off soon after I threaten to beat up my insurance rep for doing nothing for me so far.

Trigger for the Brits etc I'm performing the sacrilege of boiling water in a microwave for tea. (Kettle for some reason has been difficult to obtain but is next on my list)

They definitely helped - I got this tonight (maybe)

It's still scary to sleep. Lots of comfort audios may be in my future.

I know this to be a fantasy but... Your voice is real. Your pauses are real. What I hear is real. I lie and let the feeling build because fighting it only makes it worse. My breath is shallow, uneven like my body is arguing with itself about whether I’m allowed to think of you like this.

You smile like you know exactly what you’re doing to me. That slow, sideways look all promise, no apology. You stand too close. Not touching. Worse! Your voice dips and I forget how breathing is supposed to work. You look dangerous and calm... like you’re daring me to lose first. I do. Obviously.

I'm in a temporary room rental now - it's unfortunately hitting me now how hard it will be to start from scratch.

Little steps: I have obtained a used chromebook! Good thing my writing WIPs are on Google docs.

When the paramedics were checking me out they turned to my neighbours asking: "does she normally sound like that" to my super deep voice. They got an "I wish" from me 😂 No voice work until I eventually get new equipment but it would have been fun to use this voice.

The women on my medical team are so sweet and accommodating to me 🥺

The hospital steroids made me feel briefly invincible in some ways. Now they’re wearing off and I’m reacquainted with the concept of old cranky joints.

Post fire inspection everything is a write off. Inspector: hey I saw a fancy microphone in there, do you vlog or something? Yes............

My family was thankfully able to get me a winter coat, boots and a few basic clothes and toiletries. It's an amusing yet heartwarming mixture of both panic buying and little thoughtful details. I can't say that I'm starting over from this fire with just the clothes on my back cause well....

I celebrated having a great day then naturally, hours later survived a explosion/fire in my apt because why not? Waiting to see if I can be discharged from hospital. And for titty Tuesday: I'm convinced I may end up with a cool scar on one of the titties which is mixed feelings. Shit is overwhelming

I made so much progress today on a lot of things for myself today. A rare moment where I had free time (😮!) AND my body and brain were cooperating at the same time!

It's been non stop freezing rain so spending the day home topless has been lovely.

Unfortunately the real thirst trap for me is a woman who knows what she’s passionately talking about and doesn’t apologize for it.

It’s been a strange kind of heartache this year. I didn’t celebrate, see family, and I didn’t have the capacity for my usual charity work. But I did manage to send postcards with notes of appreciation, I made myself nice food when it's been a challenge all year and I’m trying to let that be enough.

It's been a while 👉👈 www.reddit.com/r/GWASapphic...

Being a creator is oscillating between “this is fucking brilliant” and “I should delete everything and start over.” Usually within the same 30 seconds.

Ok, I got this!

✔️ Found all my mic components ✔️ Updated Audacity ✔️ Fiddled with new settings ✔️ Drank water etc for clear voice ✔️ Hit record ✔️ Upstairs neighbour starts moving furniture & vacuuming

WIP I started in July has been written... will I find all of my mic components?

She acted like she was better than this. Better than me. That clean, curated composure. That voice and demeanor like she’d never begged for anything in her life. But I knew...

Tried stretching, ice, heat, massage and physical therapy. Ended up choosing… a more DIY hands-on approach that wasn't exactly outlined in my home exercise list. 10/10 relief ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ *While it lasts* Merry Christmas to me ⛄

There were photos of me tonight in a different realm of mine where I can't deny cult leader allegations. So instead, oldie but a goodie. I'm really missing this space but I'm getting my health back on track slowly but surely (while also being a menace).

It's been over a year since I was hit by a mini van and we finally got down to the bottom of my longer term injury😭 I have nerve damage that was causing some palsy but it is healing! So now I have gelatinous feeling but somewhat usable muscles. Did you know that nerves heal approx 1mm/month?

Just avoiding bed and starting the week. I'm not ready yet.

‘The Owl House’ creator Dana Terrace responds to Disney+ funding AI-generated short form content in new tweet: “Unsubscribe from Disney+. Pirate Owl House. I don’t care. Fuck gen AI.”

A fun idea: Say something that sounds innocent until it isn’t. Anyways tits:

Speaking of sleep paralysis demons..... An old original of mine: [F4F] Whispers in the night www.reddit.com/r/GWASapphic...

In so many areas the things where I am super impressed with my own genius is constantly underappreciated 🤔 But no cheap shots for better approval! I do as Iike. I'll be back soon. I've been manifesting myself into a sleep paralysis demon for many men in politics as of late!

Nothing gets me going like a pen that starts flowing on the first stroke. Call it slutty if you want, but I know what I like: writes clean, no smudges, ok being handled all day 😌

fuck no-nut november give me nut-for-me-every-day november

It's been a crappy week. Time to put on my version of comfy clothes now that I have some time at home and the heat is on. Giant sweatshirt always 😌

Exhausted but can't help but sneakily grind anything type of feral Friday 😵‍💫

I had forgotten the lovely whimsical place that wlw tiktok livestreams were like 🥺

Is she back? Who knows. I do enjoy this work for myself regardless.

On my knees, I start with the lowest shelf. Dust, colourful spines, faint smell of her perfume with old pages. She doesn’t have to tell me she’s watching; I can feel it. After all I asked her to tell me what to do... To use me.... And so she did. The shelves are only half-done and already I’ve

I mean I am due to cut my bangs.....

You talk too much for someone who wants my mouth occupied

Combination of too sad (pms? life? disenchantment?) and too cold to sleep. Have a somewhat artistic bathtub titty tuesday

I can literally say whatever tf I want on here. this is my feral little sandbox.

No new pics. Where are you mentally?

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Who has time for a nightmare during a short nap? Whoa! (Also I don't get images so it's hard to explain being chased by an invisible bear in complete pitch black)