when people comment on my posts (elsewhere) my head goes all funny

i want to draw like everyone else… why do i have to suffer ….. i love looking at art but then i get sad because i cant make anything anymore

i don’t know if i can continue drawing even with my left hand, even that has started to ache and burn inside i think its over

this has gotta be some sort of punishment…

nothing new T_T

all i can do is complain and be helpless 😭 i wish something would give me hope and set me on the path to recovery…. or just die that works too

its so funny… its been deteriorating for a whole year now… and no one really cares what, do i have to scream and cry and make a scene for things to happen? for doctors to take my pain seriously? for my family to acknowledge it? i don’t understand do i just need more money? it has to be my fault

crossover art fairytail x sb/69

the pain is getting so bad despite me not doing anything to my arm i cant take it im trying to stay normal but i just cant take this😭😭😭😭 someone save me

my body and mind are a prison i feel like im going crazy everything is unbearable 😭

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i keep fantasising about buying a box cutter, but what even is the point? my wrist constantly hurts anyway, its just redundant i wish it would go away…. i feel my sanity fading nothing is fun anymore, i hate goinb out to see people

my room is so disgusting that cleaning it is making me want to cry….. what is wrong with me?? why do i live so disgustingly….

yaaay

new V flavour

new phonecase! the wendy bromide is super visible now happy

What does ラブスウィートブレーメン even mean? 😭 what is Bremen….

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im a failure of a human wrist declining at 20 with no achievements no job cant go outside without looking like a disgusting fool carrying mascot plushies with me and dressing unconventionally no social skills and now diagnosed with mental disorders why even try, im doomed to fail…

unless i get help from a doctor this month, i think my ability to draw is gone i tried drawing for less than 20 minutes today and could hardly function keep im mind i dont even use pen to draw anymore i draw on ipad with finger, and even thats becoming impossible now why….

i hate the human drive to live it would be so much easier if i could just vanish forever … im really annoyed cuz i keep trying new things outside of drawing to stay sane why… do i keep trying to live?

can’t someone save me…

june soon… i want to see wendy in a wedding dress

Merry Christmas #SB69ファン創作

left hand wendy

dinner

popeye

im pushing myself too hard but i can’t relax at all!!! i do nothing all day and be useless, so the only thing i can think to do is draw!! but that’s bad!!!!!! AAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

the more i draw the more its bordering on self harm💀 well id say it already is that, sometimes i purposely keep drawing even if its painful i mean… i also just want to draw….. i dont know now

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takes so long for me to get up and i immediately regret it when i do…. whats the point of doing anything? i have no goals, and the only thing that i enjoy causes me pain i am a nuisance to other people and i can’t really do anything i give up….

wrist is burning after just hanging up some clothes and eating dinner…. if i cant even do simple things, how can i survive in life? im trying hard you know….

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i really miss fesalive, i made such imaginative and crazy artwork. i feel like i dont make such inspired artwork anymore and just try to improve my technique instead im drawing other franchises, but nothing was as fun as drawing during fesalive era😭 id love to go back in time…

what the heck, in 2021 i had some crazy ambitious ideas that i never finished, i dont think i could even come up with genius stuff like this now

i thought i drew more small manga back in the day, but it was more like one off joke drawings…misremembered my own work lol (old art)

finally went to sleep after being noisy on the timeline, and then woke up to the doctor calling me to change the appointment time to an hour later 😭😭 dunno if it’s worth falling asleep again, but im running on like 3 hours sleep😭

its 2:20am, i feel like im losing my mind, i have a doctor appointment early in the morning and my heart is racing from irritation and craziness so im gonna have a beer

everything frustrates me… i hate sounds……….. kill everyone

i think its just autism

i have a small limit on socialising…. i dont outright hate it, but i hate dealing with its effects i like people interacting with me from a distance… enjoying my art, lightly talking to me about shared interests but anything beyond and it becomes personal, i cant handle it… i get crazy….

i like confident characters who dont really second guess themself, and always believe they’re right even if they’re not. i wish i could hold myself high and believe in myself too, but i think im too far gone and trash

ugh… being myself is torture…… cant i die in a bus accident or something so i dont have to think anymore…. ive had enough

existing, having a presence, impacting people… it makes me feel sick i hate knowing anything i do affects other people, in a good way or not i hate existing in people’s lives, being a memory, being known…. i wish i hated it enough to delete all my accounts though, because im also lonely and chatty

the laranja x chihirosings songs are way too good… everyone should listen to it….. (crazy person)