I do obviously try and avoid political chat on socmed at all costs but I still feel a bit grumpy about how I haven't seen *anything* on the UK elections today specifically about how the Insane Fascist Party For Morons has made terrifying gains. Like is anyone else seeing this shit

Omg FINALLY concluded contracts on the flat sale/house purchase this afternoon, a mere TWO WORKING DAYS before I'm due to move. I've aged decades in the past few weeks

Me losing interest in a longfic because wangxian "decide to wait", truly I am your scumbag high school boyfriend, I WILL break up with you if you don't put out

I wish The Youth (or maybe just the American Youth? Difficult to tell online) would stop throwing around 'fag' (as in gay person, not as in cigarette) as casually as they do. I'm sure it's an age thing and possibly a regional thing too but god I wince every time

Just watched The Northman for the first time and really enjoyed it, but my main takeaway is that oh my god I could actually see what was happening in the nighttime scenes and didn't have to turn the brightness up on my TV even a little bit, PRAISE BE

Not to be dramatic but I actually want to kill myself because I can't deal with this level of anxiety

My toxic trait is that I cannot get behind wei wuxian drawn with a fringe, I just think it looks weird and jarringly anachronistic, like that's a 90s schoolgirl haircut I'm sorry

Things finally progressing a bit with the house move but whenever I start getting hopeful it feels like I'm letting my guard down against something going wrong, like I have to remain vigilantly pessimistic otherwise the universe will punish me? Anyone else broken in this particular way or just me

"you can always fix in the edit! it needs to exist before you can fix it! anything is better than a blank page!" But what if you are me, intimidated to the point of inaction by sheer amount of fixing the existing words require. What then

Now just blocking on sight any tumblr account that unironically refers to wei wuxian or indeed any character as A War Criminal as if the concept existed in a form identical to the Geneva Conventions in ancient fantasy China

I came extremely close to editing fic today. I didn't, obviously, but I was close

masturbation will always be underrated in smut fic. let em go, lets see what they do on their own.

Carefully filtering out every tag I don't want in the ao3 search and STILL finding nothing I want to read on the first page is how it's been for about two years now but I keep checking, and keep coming away deflated

I swear to god I wouldn't even know there was a new harry potter show if it wasn't for the 3000 social media posts telling me I need to ignore it

It's only been two weeks and two days since I accepted an offer on my flat and nothing has gone wrong and I'm trying to get on with my life in the meantime but I am stressed out of my fucking gourd. I am terrified ALL THE TIME. How do people live with this level of uncertainty

In completely separate news, god zhang linghe is so charismatic and pleasing of face, I crave the day he's in a drama I think I might be able to finish

I realised that it's only been three weeks since I viewed the house I'm attempting to buy. It feels like three years. I don't know if my nerves will survive this process

"have you ever considered transitioning" have you ever considered that this is a really invasive thing to say to/about someone completely unsolicited

I've had some really nice fic comments lately (I suspect I may have been recced somewhere BUT WHERE). Looking forward to getting the fandom part of my brain back so I can actually write again

Despite ongoing Extreme Uncertainty I'm daring to get a bit excited about moving. I looked up the bin collection days for the new house today (shared on-street bins right now so collection days are unimportant. Having My Own Bins is an exciting novelty, as is having a loft, internal stairs, etc)

Haaaa I received and accepted an offer for the flat this afternoon, I'm losing my miiiiiind !!!

Four viewings down, five more currently booked in this week. The ultimate fear: that I have to go through the exhausting process of having this many strangers in my unnaturally spotless home and *none of them want to buy it*

Flat has been on the market for three and a half days. Three viewings down. Three booked in over the next week. The uncertainty of everything is making me want to crawl out of my skin

Had the first couple of viewings of my flat today (which went on the market on Thursday). Please let one of them make a decent offer, I'm already done with having half my belongings hidden away in cupboards and keeping every surface spotless

So listen I had an offer accepted on a house yesterday. I am freaking out because I want this *so much* and so scared it's going to fall through somehow because nothing will be legally final for months

For me there are two very distinct flavours of horny, namely "I want them to rail each other" and "I want them to rail ME" and unfortunately have to report I'm experiencing the latter for the first time in years in the most embarrassingly basic way on completing astarion's personal quest in bg3

After failing the first go last month, today I passed my driving test!! Was so convinced I'd failed this time too, fully burst into tears from shock when the examiner told me

They knew what they were doing

"[cql is] heated rivalry but ancient china" sorry I can't hear you over the kill bill sirens

Look I know moresomes are challenging to write but I cannot BELIEVE that in a fandom this massive there are only six lwj/wwx/sl/xxc fics on ao3. Like are the narrative parallels and hero worship not enough to generate just a couple of little pwps? For me?

2026 Event Schedule 1/2 Until March: Get hyped, MAKE ART, and wait for the art submissions period to open! March 1st - March 9th: Art Submission period, No Prior Sign-Ups Needed! March 11th - March 17th: Writer Claims period, No Prior Sign-Ups Needed!

I don't read a lot of fic with jiang fengmian in but whenever I do I find the characterisation choices unfathomable 95% of the time

hey all, spooky (@skstarlight.bsky.social) is rising from the grave to announce a chill mdzs/cql read-watch-listen-along for anyone who might be interested in playing along either on here or on the dreamwidth comm. you can find the full post here: wwxfans.dreamwidth.org/6792.html

When people enthusiastically recommend a (single season, usually cdrama) show to me that hasn't finished airing, like no I'm sorry, I NEED to know if a show is going to stick the landing before I sink tens of hours of my life into it

That's how it was for me with #TheUntamed/ #CQL 🥹🥹🥹 #cdrama

Saw the "mdzs & related fandoms" tag out in the wild for the first time...this could be life-changing

I'm aware that I'm being a 100% downer on here and have been for months (years??). I hate it, but I'm just so stressed and sad and anxious all the time and my life is in complete flux and I have no one, no one to lean on that I wouldn't feel a burden to. But I'm trying

When platforms bring in measures that don't affect the US: oh that sucks 😊 obvs we'll still require discord and/or access to DMs to participate in our events tho When it does start to affect the US: FANDOM MUST CHANGE

hey has anyone done a sort wangxian fusion with lwj being haunted by a dream version of wwx driven by his guilt that he could have done more to prevent his death

Update: watched Inception lol (DVD pre-movie trailers for The Owls of Ga'Hoole and the Deathly Hallows Part I videogame)

'I guess it would have to be mdzs canon since CQL WWX is an actual demonic cultivator' ??????

Inception soundtrack came up on my random playlist and am reminded that, man, no fandom whiffed it quite so badly in terms of what I actually wanted to read than the arthur/eames fandom

Having doubts about the estate agent because he had a weak handshake, like the 1950s businessman I clearly am at my core

Made the firm decision to push on with moving home (selling & buying) last week and it has Consumed Me. Have scoured reddit for solicitor reviews. Started all the million little DIY fixes to make my flat look extra sellable. Mood pinballing from excitement to despair on an hour-by-hour basis

Cloud Recesses era Wei Wuxian, you'll always have my ❤️ #XiaoZhan肖战 #TheUntamed/ #CQL #cdrama

'Don't show me any videos where the person is using a huge handheld microphone'. 'Don't show me any videos blatantly piggybacking on this week's ragebait trend' Can you IMAGINE

If AI was actually worth shit I'd have the ability to describe in detail *why* I clicked 'not interested' on the recommended youtube video

Things I can no longer do without a vpn (fyi for those outside UK): - see any images marked nsfw on bsky - access bsky's chat function - access any discord channels marked as nsfw (even in servers which are 18+, and these are not always the channels you'd expect) - see any images hosted on imgur

aspirational

Reblogging art that ALREADY HAS ALT TEXT to add an image description with only a 'please reblog this version :)' and no comment at all on the art itself just feels passive aggressive and I will block you