all of my energy is drained from just looking at my skin. it disgusts me so much

our little angel <3 🥰

just a doodle...im so tired #gundam #ガンダム

i spend almost all my time in the dark and its not really intentional it just has to do with how much i hate my hands

man i was able to thoroughly shut up in 12th grade and now i cant do that anymore

i woke up today with a chipped tooth. i am missing half of one of my front teeth

i am a deeply selfish person

i need fo finish these notes or i will never forgive myself

there are some people you can tell right off the bat that they are a beautiful person no matter their physical appearance

GREAT VEGETABLES

this 3d model is absolutely incredible though the hair looks like cat ears. this one is great

i wish we could all live as artists without constraint

im going to shoot myself x2 apparently i didnt have to do a whole paper. i just had to fill in a worksheet. im so stupid lmao please kill me

you can tell i genuinely think i deserve to live. i m going to shoot myself

i need a job

i put my sona in uc gundam (provisional design)

always thinking about that one line from adolescence that goes “kids just need one thing that they are good at” and yeah

going to finish drawing my bullshit and hope that doesnt somehow involuntarily force me to draw even more bullshit and get back to writing my fic bc honestly as messy as it is (and i probably have to redo it) everyday i get new ideas and it feels like an infection i need to drain or ill die

otori is incredible did you guys know that.

i can only doodle now #gundam #ガンダム

what the hell #gundam #ガンダム

half my phone case is missing like it just all decided to fall off one day

i cant sleep and i have an exam and i need to sleep so i can perform well oh mhogd please even one hour is fine

Comm

i need to eviscerate myself and kill my brother

billions should follow otori

padaobi nui #obiwan

#gundam #ガンダム

mommywan with... m-massive.... huge... big cuteness

do your best glemii!

my writing makes me want to die

i cant bring myself to do anything

don't be afraid of spending 30 minutes reading fanfic before bed, because those 2 hours will be the best 4 hours of your day.

instead of studying i did not sleep the entire night and i sat staring at my laptop day dreaming about the fics im going to write someone kill me

you ever think of a fic author every waking. moment of your life

anakin selfcest is so good holy fuck. its even better than obikin which was not something i could even imagine oh mygod ohmyfodokfkksjs

ouugh feeling immensely sick

i dont think i can drink any sort of alcohol without immediately throwing up anymore rip

#gundam00 #ガンダム00

i have to go outside oh gid

i need to feel something

my family has learned to stop buying food for me and to start hiding food from me even though this is exactly what i wanted for years and now i decide to be upset about it

dont know why everyday feels like a waking nightmare since 5th grade even though my life is the best it can be

i need to feel something right now

i regret telling my mother about any of my hobbies

ive run out of reasons

i cant make peace with the fact that i might never be able to draw and write freely again