honestly its probably not good to keep venting on the main account but to be fair, i probably havent been able to be myself in almost a year now majority of me feels like an empty husk while the other holds onto emotions that still "exist" but are drowned under only thing i could mention-

sometimes i question why the silence can be so incredibly loud only to remind myself how it became so loud

hoi hope everyones doing well

Just to kinda post this a bit late but uhh... there wasnt important topics talked today on stream and just playing sooo yeah maybe ill try some other stuff next stream :P

Starting early lol but i blame being bored :P www.twitch.tv/lenairhead

Ok i goofed up but not EST but its CET im too tired for my brain to function today

So ive kinda decided now, in roughly lets say... 2ish hours ill stream (its gonna be 2PM my time sooo... 2PM EST) I'll be continuing Freedom 1 (after i wrecked my save so im slightly reset on a bit of progress) and talk about the general future the VOD will be on Youtube afterwards see you there

So ive kinda decided now, in roughly lets say... 2ish hours ill stream (its gonna be 2PM my time sooo... 2PM EST) I'll be continuing Freedom 1 (after i wrecked my save so im slightly reset on a bit of progress) and talk about the general future the VOD will be on Youtube afterwards see you there

btw something id like to rant about streaming and video platforms arent what they used to be anymore Twitch has been having so many different problems its at this point a pinwall of continued additional problems from bans that dont make sense to just general "what the hell is wrong with yall"

So depending how busy i might end up getting ill do a little stream playin MH Freedom 1 and chitchat a bit about the general future with this, my lewd alt and overall myself it could very well be tomorrow but its undecided yet

Actually i can leave for tonight with this one message Sometimes others want to bury away their own pain behind closed doors, and thats totally fine but sometimes its good to check up on that person, even with just a small message to know that they exist and have a person around them.

A post i want to leave on here. I've been debating, deleting my socials and just staying on discord, play my games and just be more.. busy no more streams, no more interaction and also leaving the whole "being lewd online" as much as it all had been fun while ive also ruined things here and there

Something id like to ask tons of Oldschool MH Players What if, MH Freedom1 aswell as Unite would recieve a "Remake" of which the game itself is kept the way it is but youll have QOL changes, Enhanced Graphic and also movement plus weapons modernized slightly (similar to MHWorld) potential? 🤔

maybe i should announce my streams more early 🤔

Anyways if someone needs me, im going back to my hunters hut and do some more quests for the guild god damn stupid lao-shan

just to end on the majority of this whole thread ive made its just tiring to think youll have to plan a PC ahead of time for at least 5-10 years but technology and parts will keep upgrading and increasing the "minimum requirement" beyond a normal purchase point

this is probably now like "just another rant" but just out of pure wild planning what would be expected of a "modern gaming system that also can use windows 11" while keeping itself below 500 bucks AND make it that future upgrades are possible Nvidia has been iffy at best, AMD hasnt been doing well

with how pissed off i am after what i read this morning to wake up to i can just say fuck win 8,10 and 11 windows 7 was the best windows we had because it didnt add any unnecessary bullshit plus you still could modify quite a bit of the system look compared to now -.-

Just to be like brutally honest i do understand why systems require regular updates aswell as advancements but if a PURE device system becomes impossible to use because "your system is incompatible" then what would you expect of the user? rip out 1000€ out of their non-existant wallet just for what?

:I this really sounds like im not going to be able to continue playing MH World and Rise any further unless i upgrade to Win11

One thing i do would like to mention, whenever ive got time over the next few days ill stream some more monster hunter freedom because as awkward and rough the game has been ive been grinding without problems lately (plus its been a good distraction for how bad my headspace has been lately)

i kinda miss the interaction on my posts but ig it is a bit of my own fault to why this went on 😅 have a nice week people

You might see several artists mad about the bluesky policy update banning non-con, even artists who do not make that kind of material, and wonder why it's such a problem. If that's you, here is a quick breakdown: 🧵

either way, its fucking 8 am. ive been awake since 6am for no reason (even tho ik why) and from being tired to reading the shit bsky has changed im pissed off -.- so imma get back to doing my thing

you know, this is something i cant shut up about now art has been the one thing being seperated from actual real life interaction besides well being DRAWN shutting off, away and locking it into "basements" (as id like to call it already) destroys not just people but also the hard work from them

Yet another day in the Guild Hall

Continuing the stream now (i needed a bit more of a break damn) cya there :)

me "ill be back in an hour after i ate and got myself snacks" also me "i just wanna take a nap now x_x" btw i had ended my stream because i knew my food was gonna take a while but im a danger to myself when cooking because its way too good lmfao

MH Grind Day today, Hoping ill finish village quests today and work on HR Rank ups in Guild Hall to expand further to complete everything (cant be bothered yet with gold crowns and such) www.twitch.tv/lenairhead

MH Grind Day today, Hoping ill finish village quests today and work on HR Rank ups in Guild Hall to expand further to complete everything (cant be bothered yet with gold crowns and such) www.twitch.tv/lenairhead

Half an hour or so till i go live then we will see how long imma keep it going today

as a bit of a heads up ill be pushing tomorrow for a monster hunter grind stream continuing Freedom 1 and maybe also getting on Dos with how ive been progressing slowly i just hope that maybe ill have some company around 😅

im not joking when saying this but im sobbing seeing this having returned back to life... 😭

always make sure your bread doesnt have a brussy

Hopefully today theres going to be some more progress (and also that i quit being so stupid at evading attacks) www.twitch.tv/lenairhead

Well Freedom 1 is a grind i gotta admit that :P i guess i could call this game then Monster Grind Freedom hehe www.twitch.tv/lenairhead

scratch that, almost 3 hours streamed again (god usually id go for at least 5+ hours...) but im way too exhausted out of nowhere and yet again my eyes are hurting -.- soooo gn

Switched to Warframe ^-^

Back to MH Freedom we go maybe 2* can be done today before i head to Warframe :p www.twitch.tv/lenairhead

almost 3 hours today but honestly i can tell how much of a struggle Freedom 1 is ._. honestly im incredibly unprepared for these old school ones dammit x_x

Its been a while, goofing off in MHFreedom and trying to get used to the older games starting with Freedom www.twitch.tv/lenairhead

So ive been kinda in a bad headspace loop and thinking, as a distraction to shut my brain off from saying horrible things what if i would stream monster hunter (dunno if MH1,G or Freedom) at last to kind of start the whole "monster hunter grind marathon"

So ive been kinda in a bad headspace loop and thinking, as a distraction to shut my brain off from saying horrible things what if i would stream monster hunter (dunno if MH1,G or Freedom) at last to kind of start the whole "monster hunter grind marathon"

Im curious, for those with higher specs and have games that use both DX11 and DX12 which DirectX version has done better for you personally? reason why im asking is just because i seem to only discover problems about DX12/DX12Ultimate when it could be solved with DX11 (when possible that is)

i have to say somehow i was expecting that by bday yesterday wasnt going well and i was right with things happening left and right

just a bit of ranting (yet again about games) but honestly its hilarious in some way all the big corps,publishers and mega dev teams have been shutting down or had their respected games shut down OR even canceled before release with main focus of LIVE SERVICE but never thought of one bit point-

welp its the 26th with how this day started i can just hope nothing worse can happen today

birthday coming up so soon huh prob those 6 days will be over in what feels like 3 plus nothing will happen like always

i caved and bought something ._. forgetting to buy the dlc in a bundle for cheap like an idiot x_x

Kinda wanna ask but i wanna do streams again yet this time only on youtube who would be interrested in my decent into madness of old school monster hunter? (MH1,G,Dos,Freedom,Freedom2,FreedomUnite and else)