The best thing (only good thing??) about being chronically underslept is that I can pretty much sleep on demand, and you know what THAT means? COFFEE NAPS 🙌

I mean, on the complete flipside of my last posts I'm pretty sure my hometown is going to elect the fascists in this week, so we gotta enjoy the beauty we do have, right? (Told you, still a miserable bastard 😂)

I hate to vaguepost a second, and this is just a stream of consciousness but I've got to let it out somewhere. Recently I have just been so awestruck by the people I have in life. We are all assigned our lives randomly, and I am so honoured that my time has coincided with so many brilliant people.

Oh no I just rediscovered Spiders by SOAD and I will now not be able to function for the next 5-7 days.

I cannot overstate my inability to write PWP. Me: "Here, Brain, this shameless (and absurdly hot) smut has just written itself. Please provide words." Brain: "Damn, Chiral, that IS hot. I've reworked it, given you a new six-chapter outline and removed all traces of the pr0n that started it all."

It is a blessing to exist at the same time as Zero of D'espairsRay.

Two, alone

Since people (= @kat7e.bsky.social) asked. Getting Rude involved? It is Reno's suggestion. Tseng and Reno's sexual relationship is rooted hugely in trust, understanding, and having specific itches to scratch that they can't or don't necessarily want to share with their respective partners. (1/7)

It is a blessing to exist at the same time as D'espairsRay.

I try not to be so vulgar here, but really sometimes I just want to enjoy Tseng getting railed by Reno and Rude.

Oh no, I sense a thread of Reno/Tseng thoughts coming along ... ... ...

A little extract from the Reno Origin Story for #WIPWednesday (will I ever finish this damn thing? Shiva only knows)

Being back at the gym is absolutely wonderful, but man. In order to stop my brain from exploding I have to make sure I don't work at max, and don't go beyond 70% of what I can do. Do you know how hard that is?? "We're glad you enjoyed this demo! You are not allowed to buy the full game."

This project has the bonus of not one but two zines! A fanthology and a community zine. So, if you're a long time fan of FFX and you've been hoping to sink your teeth into some gorgeous art and moving stories, follow along! You're in for a real treat.

In case you're wondering how my return to work went today, I have spent the evening looking at job listings 🤣

Thank you all for your help 🥰

WINDOWS LAPTOP-USING WRITER FRIENDS. What software/apps do you use for writing offline (specifically not being beholden to Google docs and cloud saving)? I NEED YOUR GUIDANCE LIKE I NEED MEDICINE, come fix me. My previous faithful laptop was from 2008, I have never felt more out of the loop 😅

Two weeks ago: "I guess I'm ok to go back to work, whatever." One week ago: "I guess I'm ok to go back to work, whatever." Today: "Oh I remember what panic attacks feel like now."

Had a rehab session with a specialist in the gym today, and I felt a million times more seen than I did when I finally saw the actual neurologist. I realise I never updated anyone about that appointment, because it was fucking awful. The gym, however? Returns to be my saviour once more.

*taps the sign*

Highlight of the day: some flagshagger from the local fascist march going to hand me a flyer, making eye contact, and visibly recoiling. Chap, I've got a face full of piercings, vibrant hair, and a fresh side-shave. My iced chai is vegan. I am not one of you.

Drawing characters from behind. The rollercoaster that is relief that you don't have to figure out faces, only to realise you don't know what the back of their hair looks like

This wasn't meant to turn into a photoshoot, but here we are.

The pressure of needing to draw a moot's fave well. How do you artists do this on the regular?

I enjoyed painting today for the first time in literal years. (The first time I enjoyed it in years, that is, not the first time painting. Imagine.)

Veld, Elfe and Vincent wearing shirts with 'Survived Being Hojo's Lab Rat' written on them. Tseng wears one with 'survived' crossed out and 'avoided' written above it.

It's time we talked it out, lads. Vincent's arm. Armour/gauntlet or prosthetic/replacement? As far as I'm aware there's no canon on this, so no right or wrong answers! I'm team gauntlet the whole way (with a spicy twist of course), but what do you all think? Let's go!

I'm not reposting the entire image for at least fourteen different reasons, but can we at LEAST talk about the Gundam x Death Stranding imagery at the top here? Wtf was the prompt, like "Add some angels from a WWII flashback designed by Yoji Shinkawa"??

No hetero explanation for auron and jecht’s relationship

I was lurking on Dead Bird App recently and, uhh, someone's gonna have to tell me what the fuck is happening with Ever Crisis.

See a couple, post a couple. (Fuck it, why not)

Hrm, there are some I don't quite agree with, but overall that's not an inaccurate top ten ☺️

Slowly trying to creep back into existence but boy is it hard. It's so hard. It looks like I've missed a lot here though! Resisting the temptation to go back and reply to everyone's posts since the start of April 😅

I tried to do the sorter thing you're all talking about, then this happened and I just wanted to put my phone in the microwave instead.

Trying to untangle my feelings towards RPF/real people fic. Full disclosure, and without meaning to shame anyone, I personally find it cringe at best downright creepy at worse, but I wrote a LOT of it when we were kids. I recently found tonnes of it, and my god it was so so so cringe to -

I would like to personally thank the person two rows in front me in the cinema for sobbing through most of the second half of Project Hail Mary. It was reassuring that it wasn't just me 😅

I've not been doing too well, lads, but Artemis II is what's seeing me through. It's so human. It's so HUMAN. It's not influencers, it's not advertising, it's not some absolute fucking maniac playing big dicks with millions of lives. It's grown adults being lost for words at the wonder of the world.

Tseng of the Turks. #FinalFantasyVII #FinalFantasyviiRemake #fanart

STOP 👏 WRITING MULTI-CHAPTER OUTLINES 👏 FOR WORK 👏 YOU WILL NEVER 👏 WRITE 👏 You are currently BROKEN and CANNOT WRITE A SINGLE PROMPT, I can ASSURE you you are not writing a MULTI-CHAPTER EPIC. BEHAVE. (I say to myself, drawing out pages of a multi-chapter epic)

This is fucking delightful, and if no one makes fanart of this then we have collectively failed as ##shinrafuckers (please don't make me do it myself)

The responses are all so great, I'm sorry I'm just responding to them all with I LOVE THESE but I really do!

I'm going to say this once and only once, because I am not proud of it. I am not enjoying Death Stranding 2.

So hit me, what are the Turks' most regular hobbies? No meticulous weapons maintenance, no reading (as wonderful as Tseng looks with reading glasses), I want the confusingly tame stuff.

It was so lovely waking up today to so many posts about Turks Week 🥰 I'm sorry I once again bring nothing to the table, but I'm so glad this event has started so strong!

There are pairings/combos of characters I hold so sacred I can never risk writing about them, for my Weak Human Words will never do them justice.

Went to the barber for the first time since December (DON'T JUDGE, IT'S BEEN A ROUGH TIME LATELY), and he immediately declared "Mate, that's not a side-shave anymore, that's just neglect!" Thanks, buddy 🤣 (Side-shaves freshly reinstated now 🥰)

My BC baddies, i need some timeline help. When tf did Veld actually get married, and when in the grand scheme of things did Kalm happen? When were he and Vincent working together? Am struggling with his timeline in general (since I so badly bungled it for myself years ago 🤣)

One week into my two weeks sick leave. I keep being told I need to stop "trying" to get better. How does one not try to get better, I ask? Surely it doesn't happen naturally. (The worst past about this post is that I'm being 100% serious)

My partner asked where I'm playing and I accidentally answered "Nibelheim", so that bodes well 😅

Playing with a new taiko troupe out of town for the first time tomorrow 🥰