I don't talk about them much because I could never find words to do them justice, but you should never ever ever underestimate my infatuation with the relationship between Zack and Sephiroth. Kryptonite is my quintessential Zack Sephiroth song.

In a bid to reduce my stress and blood pressure, I have been playing the Silent Hill 2 remake.

MRI came back all good, or what we suspected anyway. There is a tangled venous cluster in there stressing out the nerve and causing it all. Which sucks, but at least it's nothing more sinister (a tumour, MS, etc). Thanks for the support, guys. Now just an 18 month wait to see a neurologist 🙃

I mean, considering I just posted the Strictly dance earlier today, this is going to be my everything, isn't it youtu.be/4iZZGBMlFbc?...

Say what you will about the BBC, but never forget: they brought us the Rufus/Tseng routine

This is such an amazing idea. Please share and encourage people to participate!

A real craving to write something soft and cosy with Sephiroth and Tseng. Which is a real problem when they are possibly the two least soft and cosy characters I ever could've smushed together. And yet knowing this does not the craving stop.

I just saw The Offspring and I think they cured my depression. For like three hours at least.

You can trust that I will read far too much into this, because I am forever obsessed with how I am perceived.

Reflection #FinalFantasyVII #FF7 (Rufus chooses the pattern on Tseng's socks, btw ;)

Every time I go away, my brain revives the VinVeld+Tseng brain worms. I know this snippet was posted back on the bird app, just bringing it back here to tickle some brains again. Post-OG, post Sephiroth. No one else taps into this side of Tseng like Vincent does. #ShinraFuckers #ff7turks

Always together Tseng and Rufus #ツォンルー #Tsengru #FFVII

Telling me I won't fall asleep mid-MRI is just telling me you're underestimating my degree of sleep deprivation. That was the most relaxing hour I've had in two months.

I have a brain scan tomorrow. Which yes should be a little scary, but in reality it's just going to be a blissful hour of not needing to be in work.

Pre-burnout is weird. Manager flagged up the crazy rate I've been producing materials at, and I just had to say to her "I'm very much on the edge and it's not going to be long before I have to tap out, I'm trying to get as much done as possible before that happens."

Sorry I've not been keeping up with anyone's posts lately. I hope you're all good 🖤

I could've SWORN this is on my AO3 but I can't find it, and I know I've posted it here before but hey, you get it again. I'm writing something that won't make much sense without this background, and I'm going to be annoyed af if I've not published it as part of a bigger fic already. #shinrafuckers

Damn it, I can't find an insinuation I made in my own god damn fanfiction

@nemialmasy.bsky.social Your recent Spice Girls posts led me back here. I don't know if this Mel C track ever crossed your path? 10y/o chiral knew there was nothing straight about this song, and upon rediscovering it I still think it slaps.

Well damn. (To be honest, I knew it got me when "Does your character wear a suit" popped up 😅)

Sephiroth VA Toshiyuki Morikawa says that you might think Sephiroth was like everyone else before his descent into madness, but that isn’t the case. He’s a legendary hero who has had to live in a different world than everyone else. He is completely and forever solitary. (CLOUD vol. 1, 2008)

Tseng is absolutely that prick who turns up to the Halloween party in his uniform, shrugs it off, and claims that there isn't much scarier than a Turk on the job.

Another mention that everything on my Etsy is currently 30% off! This is because I'm moving - and don't know if I'll be open for Christmas stuff in time. So if you're after things from me, now is your best chance! Link in bio!

Had a flare of pain in the middle of the call with my manager where I was explaining how I'm ready to return to full time. 2025 has one hell of a sense of humour, and that humour is BAD and NOT ACTUALLY FUNNY and lads I am SO so tired today. Please send Sephiroths. Any variety.

I spend nine months of every year firmly telling myself I have more than enough reusable drinking vessels, then Starbucks Japan comes and smacks me in the side of the head with colour-changing cat designs. God damn it.

Something I'm rapidly learning about this condition is that furiously growling "It's only pain, pain cannot stop you" does not, in fact, stop the pain from stopping you.

Thank you so much for your lovely messages of support etc yesterday. I'm not going to reply because, to be frank, it all made me mighty emotional. Thanks for bearing with me. Once I find a new normal I'll be back again with fandom posts. For now, there's some bloody dark places to navigate.

So it's true that things can change overnight. One day you're exploring Toronto, the next you're dosed up on anti-convulsants, full of fear and unknowns. I thought I knew what depression was but boy, decades of questionable mental health didn't prepare me for this.

I am quite terrified that this nerve pain is trigeminal neuralgia. Matches every single description I've read. It's 3pm and I've not been able to eat, drink, or brush my teeth today yet.

Lesser known chiral lore: I was raised catholic, and despite being a very different adult now I am still compelled to go through the motions whenever I visit a cathedral. I still say my prayers in the pews, make offerings to Mother Mary, embrace sacred silence. Fuck confession though, let's be real.

Had an incredible dream where I was introducing @onebrainsel.bsky.social to D'espairsRay. (And I should think that the dream was nonsense because surely you don't need introducing to them by now ... 👀)

Am I thoroughly enjoying exploring Toronto? Yes. Am I also spending every other second talking myself out of ending it all under a train to escape this nerve pain? Yes. We don't have this many trains at home. So many opportunities.

Our first flight was delayed, meaning we couldn't get our connection to Toronto. And don't get me wrong, that SUCKS, but it means we're stuck for a night in Amsterdam, & Amsterdam happens to be my favourite city in the whole damn world. So I'm MEANT to be annoyed, but really? Living the dream! 👏👏👏

I had the single most terrifying episode of facial nerve pain ever last night, and I'm starting to think I probably need to stop joking about 2025 trying to kill me off.

To this day I still haven't forgiven myself for missing out on this one

It's absolute sod's law that Scotland and Canada are playing a World Cup match not an hour from where I work ... and I can't go because I will be in actual Canada 🤣

I am the type that doesn't normally enjoy the clippers-against-skull feeling of having my side-shaves buzzed back in, but the burnout is as such that it genuinely lulled me to sleep today while he was doing it. Brain was just too burned out to complain about it 😂

I've beasted it in the gym three days in a row and have still felt numb at best, shit at worst after, and fitness is my normal guaranteed go-to. I have a taiko rehearsal tomorrow, if THAT doesn't work then my only remaining option is to walk into traffic. Just for the lolz, clearly.

Happy release day for METAL GEAR SOLID Δ: SNAKE EATER 🐍🥳🥳🥳 #MGSDelta #MetalGearSolid

Hoo boy, I've done a good job holding it in these last seven months but I'm pretty sure today is going to be my first Crying In The Office day. And I'm fighting it because I've been really bloody assertive in this role and crying will undermine it all. But ... man.

Correction: boy do I want to write. Just ... anything, really.

Boy do I want to write SephTseng.

Nothing makes me read my own fanfiction quite like being in work. And I don't know what this means but it really is a pattern I find myself in 😅😅

Driving around and seeing the fucking flag graffiti'd everywhere is honestly sickening. I've only been back two days and I regret not accidentally missing our train home.

Accurate.

Yesterday at the cinema for Demon Hunters, a little girl on the escalator behind me whispered to her mum "Mum, she has Rumi hair!", and honestly I think my life is complete 🥺😭

My uncle founded a community orchard up here in Scotland. He told me the story of someone stealing one of their apples. They're training a few trees to grow in a tunnel through the space. They press their own apple juice. I think my uncle is founding Banora.

Hyperbole is not a violent threat. Words matter. @bsky.app get your shit together, you haven't been around long enough to keep all the people who left Twitter over this shit if you're gonna protect bigots too.

Repost an old illustration you still like!

So I realise I'm probably the last person in the world to watch K-Pop Demon Hunters, but I think my life is now complete. I am in love.