I’m lonely but too anxious to even talk to people on vrchat, and all my friends gave up on me. I don’t blame them but fuck it’s lonely. I don’t remember the last time someone even asked how my day was.

I’m so incredibly lonely but afraid to reach out to anyone. Driven away all my friends with my insane bullshit, No energy left to make new ones especially when I’m still such a mess. I hate this so much. Just existing has become torture. Idk how much longer I can handle this.

Idk what to do about my mental health anymore, I go to all my appointments and take all my meds, and I’m only getting progressively worse. I’d say I’m in a crisis right now, but I don’t know the last time I wasn’t like this. It just. Is my existence now.

People try to hate me, like get in line bitch I’m here to hate me first

Flew all the way the way out to Chicago for MFF, only to sit alone in my hotel room and cry the entire time. And then got into arguments and chased away the few friends that talked to me all weekend. Thanks mental illness, anything else?

omg it me!

I feel like I’m slipping further away every day

If you’re at Foxtrot tonight, come say hello!!!

i wonder why

Those guys that hate - The feminist agenda The trans agenda The liberal agenda I bet half of them would have heart attacks if they realized there's a conservative agenda.

Go us!

☔️

I feel like I’m struggling with agoraphobia or something. I never want to go out, or get stressed when I have to

Love my dog so much

Can’t wait for it to get even harder for me to function on a daily basis :/

Seems like the adderall crisis is the topic of the day, figured I’d add to the pile of struggles - I’ve had to repeatedly change pharmacies and dosage because they keep running out of it. My psychiatrist regularly apologizes to me for the whole situation, and it’s not even his fault.

Aight bois, 90 minutes of work left, then I get to ride the motorcycle in rush hour traffic for the first time woooo

Wise words indeed, was running the old Bridgeport in my shop today and that cranky hunk of iron will make you regret it if you’re not being safe lol

Now that I have a job again, I need to figure out how to kill time on my breaks. I wanna avoid most social media, don’t wanna get sad before going back into work. Kinda wish I was better at Blender so I could do some sculpting, but my laptop isn’t really strong enough anyways. Hmmm

Today is one of the worst days I’ve had in a very long time. I wish I could just be okay.

on top of the med change I’ve got a super uncomfortable ailment going on for the last week, and it’s gonna take another whole week for the specialist referral to get approved. lol insurance

Justice Alito takes aim at marriage equality again, warning that Obergefell means "Americans who do not hide their adherence to traditional religious beliefs about homosexual conduct" are being "labeled as bigots and treated as such" by the state and "society." www.supremecourt.gov/orders/court...

One month off the old and one week on the new happy pills. So far, shit still sucks. Stay tuned for more depression updates :D

Found out today that my favorite car I regretted selling was scrapped and crushed just a few months after I sold it.

Some people really be like “ThE pEoPle Of the fReE maRkEt wIlL dEcIde” but also “WAAAA WHAT DO YOU MEAN MY (racism/sexism/bigotry/general awfulness) MAKE PEOPLE NOT WANT TO SUPPORT ME” But ALSO “boycott woke companies!!!!1!11”

Reporting job postings after applying to reduce competition #capitalism

new sex slogan

Doing everything right, everything I’m supposed to, and I’m still miserable.

I love you in this life and the next #art #furryart

In a decision where people were sharing struggles and getting support, I tried to share mine and was completely ignored. No matter how many times that happens, it still hurts.

I’ve been playing around with Ubuntu lately, it’s actually kinda fun. Been years since I last tried Linux, it’s matured a lot

@foxtrotclub.bsky.social wooo I was the 100th follower! Nice to see the announcements are moving over here

I’m liking the new little butterfly, bluesky got a mascot!

I’ve got a very (very) long way to go. But I think, ever so slowly, I am getting there :)

I’m not doing so hot

Slowly getting less awkward at a party uwu

Having a sad moment, but trying to remind myself it’s just a sad moment, doesn’t mean I’m sad. Still feel pretty damn sad, but y’know. Making an effort.

Waiting for the dentist and just crossed my legs a little too hard Not a great start to the week

I’m in a weird mood today, not even sure what exactly, I just feel off

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TFW you’re crying for help and nobody answers

I don’t think a single thing has gone right so far this week.

HAD to bring this one back for bluesky

I’m gonna try to start a mental stability arc

@inventorofsex.bsky.social gay

Owo wats this? I’m gonna try be social again?? No more night shifts to stop me from going to parties??? Looks like I might finally be getting out of this rut ^^

I’m extra depressed lately.

waking up to earn my shitty little coins to buy my daily allotted serving of delicious american microplastic