I'm dying. #pcos #pmdd

One of the things I say to my partner when I drop him off at work is "kick ass, fuck bitches, take names" Work is a warzone for both of us & this little mantra is a way of making comedy in difficult situations. My adorable bean of a husband sent me this morning. I love him so much.

Wore suspenders for the first time today. They got spider webs. 🕸️ Holy shit, it was so bizarre not having to deal with the tightness of a belt on without having to worry about pants. 😂 Honestly, highly recommend for anyone who has issues with the feeling of tight clothes. #autism #sensoryissues

Pfft. Not surprised at this point in my life. 😆 It's very validating though. These days I feel like genderqueer/fluid are the most accurate. 🦝 Try it yourself if you'd like. Link in comments. #genderfluid #nonbinary #enby #agender #transgender #genderqueer

On top of feeling sick as fuck today. My fucking Walmart delivery driver stole my fucking CARPET CLEANER. 😭😭😭😭 bruh, stealing my package of fucking cleaning supplies is not worth getting blacklisted as a delivery driver.

The DAY after I start feeling like myself again and I like, "okay I got this. I don't feel as sick..." I cannot express the amount I just want to vomit all my organs out right now.

I feel like ✨deeeaatthhh✨

That feeling when you have so much anxiety that you can't even make an appointment with your doctor to get your meds to help with said anxiety. (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠)

I need to not be on my IRL social media when stoned. I might comment some wild shit which now everyone i work with might see. I gotta save that stuff for the vtuber account. I can post all the stupid shit here.

Here's a question: If you and your friends went to an amusement park, but then, one of your friends gets kicked out and trespassed. Do you leave to keep your friend company? Or stay and enjoy the park?

One benefit of living in a low income apartment complex, is you get first row seats to interesting police activity.

As cute & expressive my last Live2D model was, I am so happy with this new version of me. The pngtuber for stream is rough right now, but this design is so much closer to what I imagine all those years ago when I first created the Pudz design. Can't wait to make more models for this.

That annoying urge to play Dead Space on stream for the 5th time. 🫠

I love how on Sunday I was like "i'Ll sTrEAM aT lEaST a LiTtLe bIT"..... 😐 Work kicked my ass this week. Streams hopefully to resume somewhat normally by next Tuesday. This trash panda has been out there making that bread. 🍞 🦝

Didn't realize that I put my "Life is shit and then you die" shirt on this morning when I had a cat drop in at an assisted living place.... Whoops. 💀

Should I spend my Sunday getting stoned or stream?

I haven't done Art on Twitch in a while... WTF is with this new category picture? I hate it.

Winter is chaos season for Pet sitters. My entire September is booked full and I'm already starting to get Thanksgiving and Christmas booking requests. I'm so happy for the work. But all this on top of moving in November (°Д°) I'm streeeeeesssseddd

I wish Twitch would bring back watching ads for bits. I miss sitting there and farming bits to be able to support streamers without the stream being interrupted when I don't want it to be. Give us back control over our viewing experience! 😭

Interactive mobile ads are the worst for my stoner ass. I'll be zooted out and start thinking that the ad is the mobile game that I was playing. 😮‍💨

It's Raz and I's 6 year anniversary. ❤️💜 I legit don't know where I would be without this man. He's helped me grow as a person & accepted even the worst sides of myself. He showed patience & love that I never knew I needed. Hell, I legit would not even started streaming if it wasn't for him.

This marks almost 1 year since I started my Dog Sitting Business. Last fall & winter were surprisingly busy for a new sitter. Now I have a lot more regulars and OMG this fall is gonna be busy. 😭 This job can be exhausting, but god damn is it better than any other I've had.

🔴LIVE Playing: Phasmophobia [Stoned] 📣YOUTUBE PARTNER PUSH! Any lurks on YT helps us reach our 4k watch hour goal! 📣 ❤️ Youtube.com/live/3d3etBKsakU?feature=share 💜 Twitch.tv/PudzPudz3 #vtuber #420streamer

Chronic fatigue fucking sucks. My brain is like: "Yes! Let's get this shit done!" But my body is like: "Yeah, no, I can barely lift my arms."

📢 YOUTUBE PARTNER SUBATHON! 🎉 Getting monetization is notoriously difficult. As an extra push I'm doing a 3 day event to help with subs & watch hours! We'll be playing through Hollow Knight again & a bunch of other fun! Any lurks would be mega appreciated! #youtube #vtuber #disabledstreamers

Anyone else able to feel their skin burn in the sun when they aren't wearing sun screen? 🌞 No? Just me? Okay. 🫠

One of the annoying things about having comorbility conditions is trying to figure out which condition is causing a thought or ailment. "Ah, is this a #OCD need to happen this way, or an #autism needs to happen this way?" "Am I tired from the #Fibro? Or is this an #ADHD burnout?"

My throat started feeling swollen and tender at the start of stream tonight and it hasnt gotten better... I better not be getting sick right before my weekend...

It's been a hot minute since I've seen my accounts go into the negative. 🫠 Had to do some serious adulting today.

I love when art fight happens cause my feeds always get spammed with y'alls attacks and it's such a highlight of my day. Every single one of you is so amazing for participating in this. Keep it up!

Well last night fucking sucked... Spent over an hour at 1am throwing up and heaving on the bathroom floor. 🙃 Plus I only like, 3 hours of sleep.

First night back on Cymbalta. Little scared cause it gives me awful nausea 😅 but I've definitely seen how much it takes away the constant body aches I get and that daily anxiety and depression is so much better when I'm on it. Bottoms up!

I've got reddit brain. I've tried twice now today to minimize a comment on YouTube and bluesky by tapping it and was very confused on why it opened the comment thread of it instead of minimizing it.

I cancelled my bundle bundle choice membership earlier this year. They keep sending me emails showing me that months games and trying to get me to come back. JFC these games suck. I was a choice member for like 2 and a half years and the monthly games have never been this consistently bad.

IT FINALLY OVER!!! FUCK #PCOS I wanted to yeet my uterus so hard this past month. This PLUS all the stuff with #PMDD. It's been an insanely stressful past month and I'm so ready to get back to my baseline.

The AI subtitles on Crunchyroll drive me fucking crazy I know they've expanded their library like crazy since the service was first created and keeping up on subtitling that is difficult, but JFC, can someone at least please quality check it?!?

Why the fuck do I love mini crafts so much but I was born with stupid arthritic hands that can barely do shit? 😭 In particular, I used to do a lot of mini perler bead crafts & now it hurts so much to finish one project that Ive been avoiding it for over a year now. I miss my little pixel projects

After finishing playing AI The Somnium Files, I've realized I have a very unnerving history of laughing my ass off when characters get decapitated 🤨 I'm gonna blame my parents for taking me to see Orcs in LOTR getting decapitated in theaters at age 4.

How Many Wishlists Does My Game Have? 🤔 #indiedev #pixelart #videogames #gamedev store page: store.steampowered.com/app/3136330?...

I've been going through withdrawal of my meds...cause I couldn't get them.... Cause my fucking doctors office NEVER TOLD ME that they changed my pharmacy. I'm gonna fucking scream. I requested that like 3 weeks ago and THEY NEVER TOLD ME THEY CHANGED IT. I'm literally so filled with rage right now

Hahaha living in my body is so much fun guys. #InvisibleDisability #TooManyAcronyms #disabledstreamers It's times like this that I seriously admire the fuck out of Ironmouse. I know all disabilities are different and I shouldn't compare. But I wish for her level of strength some days.

day 1 of my meds withdrawal cause my fucking doctor hasn't refilled my prescription 😃 already feel like a soggy sponge and everything is too loud. I do wish I was at home though and not housesitting 😭 I wanna be in my own space

HAPPY DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH! I'M DISABLED AF! So I made this to put on my stream to bring awareness to this month. Please remember, disabilities do not all look the same, and are not always visible. Download FREE on my Ko-fi: ko-fi.com/s/f31af46d18

I realize I say "totorial" instead of "tutorial" and now I can't unhear it.

Memory unlocked. When I first started streaming back in 2020 & was aiming towards affiliate, my Bro#3 created a twitch account just to follow me to help me reach 50 followers. Now we're over 700 followers & I'm just so grateful for every bit of support that everyone has given me. 💜 ty

One of the worst feelings to get when you're Autistic, is in a social situation & you come to the realization that the people you are interacting with aren't understanding you and you can feel the "O-kay..." It's such a hit to the gut. Like ah, right, I should just shut up now.

It's gonna be so hot this week 🫠☀️ Imma melt. ALSO I added new emotes for subs & followers! I hope y'all like this emote setup. LIVE💜 Twitch.tv/PudzPudz3 LIVE🩵 Twitch.tv/Lofi_Pudding VODs & Clips ❤️ YouTube.com/c/PudzPudz3 #vtuberschedule #twitchstreamer

We're Playing Cinnamon files today! I swear this game keeps getting weirder... Wouldn't expect anything less from Spike Chunsoft WATCH NEW EP LIVE 💜 Twitch.tv/PudzPudz3 CATCH UP W/ A PLAYLIST❤️ Youtube.com/playlist?list=PLruV5rrczcM3Ou_7Et_okTcG6B7_NNsKP #AITheSomniumFiles #Vtuber #SomniumFiles

Perks of gamers dating gamers is you both understand that not all games can just be "paused" for a convo.

It's a "Get in your Night Muumuu and smoke indica all day while watching body cam vids and k-dramas" kind of day.