i need brain fog to stop being a thing actually

i got confirmation that i will be able to graduate on time, and im so relieved and excited, now i just have to get all the shit done 😭

gonna make a complete written to-do list of things i need to get done to graduate, because checking this shit off physically is gonna be SOOOOO satisfying

finally getting back into the gym tomorrow because my head is screwed on right again yayyyy 🥳

dude im so back to playing league of legends, is this a sign of seasonal depression finally hitting or what 💀

okay update for the real ones again!! im okay again and i overreacted and im still on track to graduate in the first half of this year 🥳 i love modern medicine ❤️

i love being hot and sexy and also knowing how to cook beautiful food 😤

in case you’re wondering how my year started, i already gave up on graduating on time to apply straight to university 😭 i decided now is the best time to get off my antidepressants, which was a fucking mistake what the hell was i thinking idk if its the withdrawals or if im stuck like this, it sucks

i keep forgetting i need to finish a design assignment and keep remembering it when i’ve laid down for the night 🫥

hiii i created a gofundme to raise money for my mental health treatment and bills while i’ll be out of work for the treatment. anything you can donate helps and i greatly appreciate every penny. please share 🥺🩷 gofund.me/450cd6e7f

to add to this, im doing the best i’ve ever been both physically and mentally, i’ve been trying really hard to take great care of myself in the midst of all this academic stuff haha

IM ALIVE EVERYONE JUST REALLY BUSY, IM ON MY LAST SEMESTER AND CRANKING OUT ALL MY CREATIVE AND ACADEMIC JUICES genuinely thank you to everyone that has reached out, and sorry i haven’t shown face before now!! ❤️❤️❤️

dude i cant keep telling the weather by my achy bones IM 21 YEARS OLD 😭

why am i getting a cough? 😀 I JUST GOT BETTER NONONONONO

good morning! 💚 today is the first of many days where the temperature is below freezing, winter has officially begun 😮‍💨 i guess i just need to bundle up and bring a hot cup of coffee to go from here on out i hope you guys are having a lovely friday!! 🫶

also its funny to think that im not sure if my project got chosen because it was the best one, or because my god awful time management skills and series of unfortunate events ass health made my project be the only one that includes updated information 💀

mmm i need a nap

im spiderman now, dont forget about me 🫡

I’m feeling tremendous pressure because of my project being chosen. But also, I have noticed that recently when i get home from class i just sigh and think “wow im so happy to be alive” which is kinda crazy 😭 I guess i love my job haha

the thought of moving into a 20 square meter apartment and making it actually feel like a home and not a bedroom feels impossible

good morning heartsky and everybody else, i’ve missed you 🫶 i am getting ready to face the day, figuring out what im gonna have for breakfast and hyping myself up for class, even though its a very very cold, dark and rainy day what do you guys have planned for today? c:

okay anime watching hotties, give me recommendations please 😮‍💨

holy fuck i actually will have to make university applications at the beginning of next year, like WHAT 😭 and maybe MOVE my whole life to another city 😭 like what??? its all happening so fasstttt i thought i just started this school

like actual full pure panic 💀

an instagram notification just fucking traumatised me 😭

i just made a butternut squash soup and some quinoa peanut salad and i wanna bake cookies because im craving something sweet but they’re so bad for me so im just AAAA

holy shit today has been a whirlwind 😭

my biggest fear is accidentally choosing registration black instead of black on a printing project

i love when myfitnesspal tells me to log my lunch, girl i haven’t had any 😭

i’ve been getting back into anime these days, i dont enjoy youtube much anymore and go there for politics mainly, so having entertainment that doesnt involve politics (directly) has been very fun for my brain

me on dating apps when people try to HIT ON ME??? (i willingly put myself in the situation)

your favourite menace is back people 🤧 (and drinking the most soap flavoured energy drink ever made)

every time i go on vacation and cant cook for a while i come back so happy and motivated to feed myself all the best stuff. BUT THIS TIME i cant taste anything and even if i could i dont have the energy to stand and cook

i have motherfucking covid omg dude

dude what do i eat when im sick, i can barely stand up but i should order groceries 😩

i need to buy new alarm sounds because iphones are fucking dumb and my brain starts blocking out alarms if i have had them for longer than a month 😭

if i had a car i would drive to ikea once a week for a hotdog

i did the super scary thing of asking for extra time for my project 🥲

TW eating habits!! i finally started counting my calories and logging my meals and it has had such a good impact on me over the past handful of days. i have a clear overview of how much i eat and it makes my brain relax completely, because its under control, and ik im hitting enough calories too!!

im pretty sure i had an argument in my dream with myself about whether or not the scarf im knitting is done 😭😭 ITS NOT DONE LEAVE ME ALONE

good morning everybody 💚 happy weekend!!

my throat is hurting badddd

my dad is the realest, he got me a portable heater because my room is always freezing cold 😭 love that man so much

oh yeah my throat hurts this morning 😭

the radiators are off because they broke in the next house over and they’re fixing them and its fucking freezing in my room. like there is a wall of cold when you open my door, always, and not that they’re off? im done, i might not survive the night

im feeling so loved and appreciated today, i love you guys 💚

i keep getting an ad that freaks me out, its just a dead inside looking blonde blue eyed lady that gives me uncanny valley but it definitely is a real person i think she wants my soul

spending the last 24h of being 20 imploding because i procrastinated my damn work

okay probably no gym today because i have so much work to do, and im trying not to find any other things to do even tho im tempted to do everything except work 😭😭

good morning!! i am once again having to work and try to drag myself to the gym, hopefully i actually do all that today 🫡 i hope you all have a great wednesday!! and happy october!! ✨