Today, kambal's post made me remember all the vocal synths I used to love as a teenager. But in the end, interacting with people on her tgc gave me a panic attack. I wish so badly I could just be normal...

Nothing's coming together 😣

Tw: #gore Tried out a new brush. I spent a lot of time trying to figure out if it even allowed to post this here. Let's just assume it's fine... #oc

If I don't pull Lohen, I'll finally delete Genshin for good🙏 Same goes if he doesn't have any weird, psychopathic lines about Mika... #genshinimpact

God, please forbid me from saying what I actually think. Amen 🙏 It ends badly every single time, yet for some reason I never learn from my mistakes.

#twistedwonderland #epelfelmier

You asked, so I drew. Here we go, pretty lady performing a kabedon (my self-insert) Good thing my office doesn't have a strict dress code and I can dress like a homeless. Though even that doesn't save me from weird comments. I'm supposed to be the creep harassing shy guys, not the other way around😭

These past few weeks, Pinterest has been killing me 😭 For some reason, it decided to start showing me Kanata/Allen art 😭 No, literally anything but that 😭 I get angry every single second those two are mentioned together.

Okay, I tried to draw Kenta better this time, but I still don't think it turned out well. I need to learn more about him to better understand how I see him😖

Okay, now I'm embarrassed that I actually posted that \(º □ º l|l)/

Okay... I drew Shiki. I just pictured exactly what I wanted too clearly... I don't know if this is what you were expecting... But yeah... Shiki is just my type... I love cute, shy guys. #paradoxlive

Every time I tell myself I need to draw Kanata less, but they used a dirty trick by giving him a low ponytail, which is definitely my favorite hairstyle on him… Sigh… So quick sketch again... I planned draw Shiki, but I can't resist...

Shiki is so cute, so pretty🥰 I'm literally dying😖

There the last one. Now everything's fair. #twistedwonderland

A little sketch to remind the fandom that Jamil is actually in his eternal prime 😤 Just because the new prince has more makeup and flashier clothes doesn't mean you should come for our old snake 🐍 #twistedwonderland

His design didn't disappoint, I'm happy! #twistedwonderland

I completely forgot Crona even existed, even though they were definitely the first character I ever kinne...

Bullying my husband because he can't say no to me

A quick sketch... I didn't plan on drawing Kenta at all until I'd caught up with the story, but...

The first ship I ever shipped. Someday I'll draw a full piece for them and make my childhood dream come true...

An even sketchier sketch. And again, what even is this expression about. I'm interpreting it as us about to get beaten. So confusing... 😵‍💫

A sketchy sketch. I feel like I draw Nayuta way too rarely. Probably because his hairstyle is complicated... (for me)😓 I wish I understood better what kind of expression he's making 🤔😵‍💫

I paid kambal for a Cozmez commission😒 I won't repost it here, but you can check it out on Tumblr. I gave her complete freedom concept-wise, and personally, I was really happy with it. 'Cause no one ever draws anything wild with them like this 😒 I love free thinking. I wish I can do it too

A little sketch I made for a profile pic to capture my current state of mind. Day five of not being able to formulate and work up the courage to send a completely harmless message ( even though I was technically given permission to text this person...) #kashuukiyomitsu

And the reason I draw Teto is because kambal got me more interested in vocal synth😭

The reason you should never be nice to me: I might develop a hyperfixation. Poor Kambal... A little drawing of her AU Luka.

A little sketch from work featuring the wonderful Teto🥰 I just want everyone to fall in love with this beautiful song (youtu.be/bC6lS83WxrQ?...) 😭 it's so summery

A little WIP snippet of a fanart inspired by the official Teto cover of The Red Means I Love You. It was unexpected. But Teto just makes every song better. The pose is kind of a mess, but I decided not to redraw everything because I like it dynamic... I'll finish it soon and post the full version...

My beloved son, whom I never actually draw. Hopefully I'll manage a full-body ref for him before the art fight... #oc

My cute little baby finally home😭 now if anyone ask "do you have some cozmez merch", I can answer "this is all I've got" 😭

Nayuta sketch that's a week old by now. It was meant to be sketch for a oil pastel piece, but that turned out badly, so I never posted it. The sketch itself is cute, though. Sorry about the mess I don't have an eraser at work, I keep forgetting to bring one from home😭 Also I just can't draw cleanly😔

A little sketch, inspired by a song. I'm stuck in an art block, but this song is just so heartwarming and inspiring (◡‿◡✿) #Cozmez

Day to day so soft 😭 I'm so sad I'm incredibly behind on the story because the Russian translation is way behind,and I haven't even tried looking for the English one 😓 probably I should...

It kills me that all my subscribers on Telegram are only here because of Twisted Wonderland. Even if it's just five people. It was my save place and now I don't feel safe. I don't want to engage with this fandom anymore (｡╯︵╰｡)

Second batch of sketches. I really don't want to draw Vil or Malleus, so I'm not sure I'll even be able to finish this... #twistedwonderland

My first three sketches for "Guess my favorite housewarden based on how they're drawn"😒 #twistedwonderland #fanart #sketch

A commission I bought from the amazing kambal on Telegram (or on Tumblr). I'm so in love with her style🥺 The moment I saw her works, I just knew that my punk-at-heart Iliya had to be designed by her (because I struggle to break away from his cute image). Yes, this is the same character lol

Well I redrew a full-body piece for the ref sheet of one of my OCs, Ilya. I think it's ✨Glow up✨ This time, I didn't force the colors after finishing the piece like I do last time. Either way, I'd say it's decent progress for a year. Especially considering the past ~5 years of stagnation. #oc

I’m sure that on this day romance lovers are getting all the content in the world, so we absolutely need to balance it out with some platonic/queerplatonic content to remind that love exist in different forms. So here’s a little sketch of the best platonic pairing or friendship, whatever you like it

O-Sayo, I'm sorry for using you in such a sad context. Here, have a persimmon as an apology.

I don’t care if this is supposed to be an art blog. I’m sharing anyway: I finally bought the figure of my husband I’ve wanted for ages! Now all I need is a casual outfit figure 😭

朝に11周年のお祝いの挨拶をするために、審神者の執務室の障子の前で, 入る直前にもう一度自分の身なりを整える男士を想像する

"I am not just a thing for you to sell in your hour of need." #toukenranbu #saniwaOC #sayosamonji (mentioned in sword form) It'll be 10 years this year, so it's time to at least structure my oc's story a little bit...

The twins' new outfits look so delicious (￣﹃￣)

My face when the vacation is over and I have to go back to work tomorrow:

ペアリング買った日💍💍💜💜✨✨

Okay, TikTok said long descriptions are better, so I got a bit carried away and wrote a little fic for last piece. If you're interested, I've attached some screenshots below. It's in Russian, but I guess the image translation should help... A little bit OOC, maybe? Idk #cozmez

It's done. That was so time- and energy-consuming that my next full art piece will be done... never again. #fanart #Cozmez #paradoxlive

Just a little WIP snippet because I felt like sharing 🐸 Truth is, I'm already way past this stage (this is version 19, and I'm already on 26)... Surprisingly, I hit a good pace, and not even building factories in another gacha slowed me down much.

Okay, this brush lets me paint not just clean, but also messy, the way I like. I hope I can still manage to draw at least one of the birthday pieces for the twins. Yes, I know it's been a month already. Whatever. Birthdays still doesn't feel like a real celebration for me anyway.