saw him yesterday for the first time in 4.5 years, do I ask him to come over and assemble my new standing desk

my severely offline, disconnected father and I were at Barnes & Noble yesterday and he saw a cover for Wuthering Heights featuring the actors from the movie and quietly said to himself "oh did they make a new adaptation? that's too bad" lmao

paralyzed by lay in bed in towel after shower time instead of getting ready thinking about everything that could go wrong

being bullied by my ebay search history everywhere I go

living in a much more populated place means I haven't seen as many birds or wildlife, but every morning there are robins and mourning doves outside my window and I have become attached to them already

my grandparents took us to yellowstone when I was a kid and it felt like it was ten hours+ from where we lived; the drive went on for ages. I just learned it's actually only six hours and now I am scheming to get there this spring/summer. so happy to be back in the west

walked outside and gasped

my will-we-or-won't-we person of 11 years is taking me to sundance this weekend and I'm so excited, I've never been 🥹🥹

love when someone tries to argue with an opinion I've expressed. do you also argue with walls and grass

holding handes

the young moving guys unloading my truck got really excited when they found my sword and pulled it out of its sheath talking about excalibur and telling me they watch a lot of anime and stuff. good-natured lads

watching the sun set behind the silhouette of eagle mountain and bathe timpanogos in pink as it went down did my heart a lot of good tonight

making themselves at home already

we made it to utah. I realized that I moved away 20 years ago as of just last month. I have a lot of complicated feelings being back here, but there's no denying that even after being gone for so long this place is still my home

the most beautiful sunrise I've ever seen in my life outside arlington, wy. a hot magenta paint can exploded across the heavens. a visual symphony of color. it's a shame it'll be my last one since these winds will surely kill us

mass dune 1 and 2 rewatch this weekend

ex is texting me to check on my trip

can't wait for everyone to take the wrong message away from dune messiah

if he's not built like this I don't want him

what if I just live in wyoming now

convinced that Leo watched Fallout season 2 and decided to wear Justin Theroux to the Oscars

pretty stoked with what they're doing to hawaiian bbq in laramie. was not familiar with the game here

one of the most harrowing drives of my entire life going from the wyoming border 22 minutes north to laramie

we have crossed over into mountain time. my ears are popping as we are gaining altitude, and it feels so nice to finally leave the midwest behind. good riddance

the person checking me in for my room tonight said I look tired which felt great

we were going to go west by way of nebraska and wyoming but high winds are flipping semis so now we have to go through the colorado rockies passes which is exactly what I didn't want to have to do in march with a 26' moving truck. mines of moria ass situation to find oneself in

pretty good last sunrise

tonight I made an earnest effort to try to have something published before I leave in the morning but it's a cosmic joke to think I could achieve this. I wasn't planning to write anything and when I finally decided to, it was much too late for the arbitrary deadline I made up

we've pushed back departure day to tomorrow because I still have things to do and the puzzling warped mindset of an able-bodied person. also I am seemingly getting sick and I do not look forward to those developments

night guards are so fucked up. here let me just help commute microplastics directly into my digestive track for the next eight hours

running this photo back from the archives (november). it predates several regrettable decisions (not making wiser choices about my time up until moving day)

really don't like this. it felt really bad

please wish me luck today with moving stuff and I will also be asking for luck credit in advance for tomorrow and the entire weekend, thank you

one of my last sunsets at the lake

too much to do so I am going to lay in bed and hope it all gets done somehow without my impetus

ordered a box of the fallout jones sodas and it arrived in the most absurdly loosely packaged box with at least two of the bottles completely busted. glass everywhere in a completely serrated sticky ass mess. this box is now my own personal gom jabbar

it has been cartwheeling around in my mind to write a goodbye essay to missouri, but I am about 60 hours out from leaving with so much left to do and my broken body is so tired

yeah I love the song "you belong to me." no, not recorded by joni james. no, not by jo stafford. no, not the one by dylan. you know the one. yeah. yeah it's- yeah. that one

one of my last sunrises on the lake

I'm telling you folks, whipped white sweet potatoes are where it's at

I move across the country in four days and mentally I am ready but in terms of stuffdonedness I am 100% not ready

happy daylight savings to this king

shitty coffee and an omelet in desperate need of salt and pepper from a local diner. foundational american experience

they thought we wouldn't notice international womens day on daylight savings when we lose an hour but I noticed. time misogyny

branson is.... so fucking cool?? I missed catching some dope other buildings on the strip but this is what america's all about babyyy and I've lived like two hours north of it for a year and didn't know 😭 the vegas of the midwest

I need a cowboy so bad yall

in Branson with my mama to see Miss Dolly Parton's Stampede. I can't remember the last time I took a full body pic because I've struggled with dysmorphia so badly for the last 18 months. wet hair and crocs, let's go to the rodeo

my mom was telling me it's perfectly fine to get in the hammock with my disability after I said no because if I flip I'll be on the ground like a turtle on its back so she got in it to show me and promptly flipped upside down

had a dream about dave foley last night and I've never been more disappointed to wake up and be jolted back to reality

they absolutely do not give a shit about tornadoes in oklahoma as confirmed by my sister where one is literally touched down in her town right now