I am finally free from unemployment hell, I somehow managed to land a job!! Thank fucking god!! This has been the worst experience of all time!!

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 7. Howl “D’you like me better like this?” The child’s voice was barely audible. “If I… I…” His voice cracked as another sob forced its way out of him. “Shh”, Cloud murmured and held him close. archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 6. Broken “If I kill him now, what happens?” Cloud murmured. “I’m… not sure”, came the response, somewhat shaky on her lips. “He’s… fragmented. Barely holding himself together." archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 5. Angel There was nothing small about him any longer, his halo of hair in constant movement even without wind, the silver painting a contrast against black leather and feathers. His eyes were closed, his face deceptively serene. archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 4. Library “What is it?” Cloud asked. He leaned forward to catch a glimpse of the book. It looked like a children’s book about space. There were cartoonish planets and stars on the cover. “I know this book”, Sephiroth said. archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 3. Grief He held the sword over Sephiroth’s chest. One swift motion and it’d be over. It’d be quick and painless. Sephiroth wouldn’t even know what was happening before… before… Gods, why were his hands shaking? archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 2. Locket “Lucrecia?” The kid looked down at the picture, eyebrows furrowing. “But… that doesn’t make sense. They told me her name was Jenova…” archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 1. Pumpkin Cloud ate his own soup while keeping a close eye on his companion. It was as delicious as always. Tifa never failed at outdoing herself. “Is this a test?” the kid asked suddenly. “A test?” archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

Cursed with -conviction that ppl only want me around bc of what I can provide and not bc they like me as a person -knowledge that the ppl around me are better friends with each other than they are with me -lack of understanding of how to change this & ppl wonder why I like CC Sephiroth so much

Writing sad Sephiroth fic to cope archiveofourown.org/works/72536746

I love how I was feeling reeeally meh about the part of my main WIP that I've been stuck working on for like a month but then suddenly something just... clicked?? And now I actually managed to get somewhere with it?? And it all somehow makes sense on a larger scale (I think)?? I'm very excited

Therapy isn't enough, I need to channel all my shit emotions into Sephiroth Final Fantasy VII so I can be rid of them for at least a moment

Sighhhh I'm going through some sort of phase rn where I just kinda feel really unsatisfied with everything I've written lately...... Possibly I'm a little burnt out bc I've been putting so much energy into it to distract myself from the existential dread of being unemployable but ehh idk

I've been working on one big WIP recently but now it seems my attention has instead split off into three other related WIPs two of which involve Sephiroth being a weird little freak.............

Never thought I'd see a smile like that on your face #sefikura

Slowly catching up on my sefikura fic backlog when I haven't had the mindset/ability to read anything for SO long feels... oddly healing somehow. This ship has been with me through so many terrible things and has always been a source of comfort and I'm glad I can have that again in this shitty time

Government-mandated imposter syndrome kicking in again, can I stop stressing the fuck out over nobody wanting to hire me (the answer is always no) Also feeling kinda meh about my skillsets in general rn, like they're not really enough to get me anywhere and I'm just stuck in the same place

I was supposed to write sefikura but instead I sit here now with Tifa character study that makes an attempt to deconstruct her relationship with Cloud, need to get this out of my system so I can get back to the scheduled programming clearly

Working on *insert mysterious post-canon noises here* and I keep ending up with weird metaphors about ownership. Cloud and his domesticated pet monster Sephiroth. What is with these two, they're making me insane

I think that Sephiroth heals too quickly for any of his injuries to scar. I also think that Sephiroth would be incredibly irritated by this. What do you MEAN he doesn't get to have a scar where Cloud cut him in the side back in Nibelheim?? He DESERVES a reminder of that intimate moment actually!!

Struck by the 2am thought that I need to contribute to the bottom Sephiroth agenda more often (have an idea set in silver lining-verse.............)

cute and silly sephiroth agenda

Red string of fate? Looks more like a leash to me. #sefikura

Apparently I had another sefikura comic from 2020 lying around... comparing og ffvii with remake

Looking through old art folders and found this sefikura comic from 2020, truly a timeless commentary

Me not having anything I need to get up for in the morning is a curse. Consistently staying awake until 2:30am is not a habit I wanted to return to ;-; At least I am getting a lot of writing done?? :'D

3 months since I lost my job and I feel no closer to finding another one. I keep applying and applying and applying and getting nowhere and I honestly don't know what to do anymore. It just feels completely hopeless and it's honestly just destroying me. There are not enough jobs. Wtf do I even do

I need to get back to reading fic but I haven't been reading fic regularly for like at least 2 years and there's so much stuff I wanna catch up on and it intimidates me and I'm also just so focused on my own writing that it makes reading really difficult aaaaaaaa

Hey Sephiroth you're looking real domesticated there (Design for... well, something that may or may not be coming soon >:3)

The irritating thing about writing FFVII fic these days for me is that I never feel like I'm certain which version of events I want to refer to when writing AC/DoC/general post-canon fic. OG is hardwired into my brain and I AM a bit of a purist but also... remake-verse has some cool unique stuff too

I am struck by the realisation that there's a lot of sefikura art which I never posted anywhere other than the other blue hellsite. Including all my art for Silver Lining (archiveofourown.org/works/343710...). Which doesn't feel right. So I'm making a thread of it here. Starting with the cover.

Sefikura smooch ❤️

Job interview soon. Screams

I now face the greatest challenge of my writing career. In order to progress... I must recall the plot of Dirge of Cerberus

Kuja my beloved I would do anything for you (ff14 made me miss ff9 I'm crying in the club rn)

I am........... thinking about Wuk Lamat and Sphene............

Last chapter of burn it all down (my very belated sefikura week 2025 fic) is out! 🔥 Only took me an extra half a year... 😂 archiveofourown.org/works/625221...

Chapter 6 of my delayed Sefikura Week 2025 fic is done!! It is LONG and there's a bit of spice, enjoy 😏 archiveofourown.org/works/625221...

My most toxic trait is getting into arguments with people in the comments on posts in the autism subreddit

Painting practice WIP feat. Cloud!

I am once again late-night posting because my life is a mess and I crave to share my brainworms. Chapter 5 of my delayed Sefikura Week 2025 fic, up now! archiveofourown.org/works/625221... (I have not even started the last two chapters yet sooo ehehe we'll see how this continues.......)

Mira went to the vet today and had to be put under and she was sooo out of it that she couldn't figure out how to fit her tongue inside her mouth anymore 😭💕

Actually let's just go. Chapter 4 of my severely delayed Sefikura Week 2025 fic is up now! archiveofourown.org/works/625221... Other chapters will follow... whenever I finish them!! (I beg it will be soon)

It is 1:30am and I am wide awake. Thinking about maybe posting some sefikura

Man the only thing worse than having a job is not having a job

I got fired from my job because of personnel cuts. Yknow. The position that I received permanently only a couple months ago after working my ass off 🙃 Thank you Finnish government for defunding the higher education sector ❤️

Update on my playthrough of a new threat: going well up until the Corel train section nearly broke me. Died so many times, crashed the train equally many times. Never had any issue with the 10 min timer in vanilla ffvii but DEAR GOD this was brutal. But the goats Cid Aerith and Barret pulled through

I need that new Nomura art of Sephiroth in its entirety as a poster SO. DAMN. BAD

Been wanting to re-experience og ffvii in a fresh way so I finally decided to try out modding and play a new threat. It's been a lot of fun, I've gotten jumpscared so many times by unexpected new bosses and even new mechanics on old bosses. Approaching Temple of the Ancients soon and I live in fear

Finally starting to see some writing progress again! Ch4 of my severely delayed SC week 2025 is pretty much done. Debating on whether I should do art for it, as well as if I should wait until I've got the rest of the chapters in a more finished state before I post... Decisions decisions...