I crawl out of the void @ ffxiv patch 7.5: hey bro what the FUCK did THAT mean I vanish back into the void

Didn't get the job :( Legitimately have no idea where to go from here. Feels bad man

It's so stressful to wait to hear back from the job I want, I'm balancing on the edge between infinite despair and absolute relief, can they please hurry up and decide already 😭😭

Apk to the rescue. Finally got Dissidia Duellum set up, if anyone wants to add me here's my info! IGN: imaginatives Friend code: 4598111108

Got called to an interview for that perfect job on Wednesday!! Really really hoping that this works out, pls free me 😭🙏

I want to install Dissidia Duellum but it says it's not available in my region even though it very much should be?? Very confused :(

I hate it here, state support isn't enough to even pay the rent, I only have enough money in my account to get through one more month without having to dig into emergency funds (which I thankfully have but it isn't exactly longterm sustainable) or beg my parents for more money bc I can't find a job

I was possessed by a demon for the last three days and started drawing a comic about Kuja getting thrown into ffxiv post-dying and he's also a bunboy because ???? idk man, here are some highlights

Finally cleared m9s with my partner and brother, this is our first savage clear, ty to the party finder randos who came through for us 😭😭 Should have taken a picture to commemorate but was too shook by our success to remember 😅 Now onto m10s which terrifies me considering how long we were stuck here

Kuja my beloved I would do anything for you

Replayed ff9. Have now been cursed with Kuja brainrot

Been battling the biggest art block of my life these past few months but I recently managed a single doodle of my ffxiv squad: my elezen, my partner's miqo'te, and my brother's viera. (One day they will escape party finder hell and actually clear a savage raid, just you wait-)

Been trying to put something together for sefikura week but the writer's block is just too real, can't seem to get my idea to come to life the way I want it to, just feel no inspiration for it at all and I don't really have time to scrap it and start over on something else hhhhhhh

Wanted to have a normal Sunday evening but instead I sliced half my fingernail and damn near a part of the finger with it while I was trying to put butter on my bread and had to go to the ER 😵‍💫

Long time no post, so that job I managed to land? It was so atrocious for my mental health that I had to quit after only 2 weeks 😭 Legitimately did not know it was possible for me to be so ill-suited for something I am even supposed to be qualified for. So here I am in my unemployment 2.0 era

I am finally free from unemployment hell, I somehow managed to land a job!! Thank fucking god!! This has been the worst experience of all time!!

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 7. Howl “D’you like me better like this?” The child’s voice was barely audible. “If I… I…” His voice cracked as another sob forced its way out of him. “Shh”, Cloud murmured and held him close. archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 6. Broken “If I kill him now, what happens?” Cloud murmured. “I’m… not sure”, came the response, somewhat shaky on her lips. “He’s… fragmented. Barely holding himself together." archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 5. Angel There was nothing small about him any longer, his halo of hair in constant movement even without wind, the silver painting a contrast against black leather and feathers. His eyes were closed, his face deceptively serene. archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 4. Library “What is it?” Cloud asked. He leaned forward to catch a glimpse of the book. It looked like a children’s book about space. There were cartoonish planets and stars on the cover. “I know this book”, Sephiroth said. archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 3. Grief He held the sword over Sephiroth’s chest. One swift motion and it’d be over. It’d be quick and painless. Sephiroth wouldn’t even know what was happening before… before… Gods, why were his hands shaking? archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 2. Locket “Lucrecia?” The kid looked down at the picture, eyebrows furrowing. “But… that doesn’t make sense. They told me her name was Jenova…” archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 1. Pumpkin Cloud ate his own soup while keeping a close eye on his companion. It was as delicious as always. Tifa never failed at outdoing herself. “Is this a test?” the kid asked suddenly. “A test?” archiveofourown.org/works/729979...

Cursed with -conviction that ppl only want me around bc of what I can provide and not bc they like me as a person -knowledge that the ppl around me are better friends with each other than they are with me -lack of understanding of how to change this & ppl wonder why I like CC Sephiroth so much

Writing sad Sephiroth fic to cope archiveofourown.org/works/72536746

I love how I was feeling reeeally meh about the part of my main WIP that I've been stuck working on for like a month but then suddenly something just... clicked?? And now I actually managed to get somewhere with it?? And it all somehow makes sense on a larger scale (I think)?? I'm very excited

Therapy isn't enough, I need to channel all my shit emotions into Sephiroth Final Fantasy VII so I can be rid of them for at least a moment

Sighhhh I'm going through some sort of phase rn where I just kinda feel really unsatisfied with everything I've written lately...... Possibly I'm a little burnt out bc I've been putting so much energy into it to distract myself from the existential dread of being unemployable but ehh idk

I've been working on one big WIP recently but now it seems my attention has instead split off into three other related WIPs two of which involve Sephiroth being a weird little freak.............

Never thought I'd see a smile like that on your face #sefikura

Slowly catching up on my sefikura fic backlog when I haven't had the mindset/ability to read anything for SO long feels... oddly healing somehow. This ship has been with me through so many terrible things and has always been a source of comfort and I'm glad I can have that again in this shitty time

Government-mandated imposter syndrome kicking in again, can I stop stressing the fuck out over nobody wanting to hire me (the answer is always no) Also feeling kinda meh about my skillsets in general rn, like they're not really enough to get me anywhere and I'm just stuck in the same place

I was supposed to write sefikura but instead I sit here now with Tifa character study that makes an attempt to deconstruct her relationship with Cloud, need to get this out of my system so I can get back to the scheduled programming clearly

Working on *insert mysterious post-canon noises here* and I keep ending up with weird metaphors about ownership. Cloud and his domesticated pet monster Sephiroth. What is with these two, they're making me insane

I think that Sephiroth heals too quickly for any of his injuries to scar. I also think that Sephiroth would be incredibly irritated by this. What do you MEAN he doesn't get to have a scar where Cloud cut him in the side back in Nibelheim?? He DESERVES a reminder of that intimate moment actually!!

Struck by the 2am thought that I need to contribute to the bottom Sephiroth agenda more often (have an idea set in silver lining-verse.............)

cute and silly sephiroth agenda

Red string of fate? Looks more like a leash to me. #sefikura

Apparently I had another sefikura comic from 2020 lying around... comparing og ffvii with remake

Looking through old art folders and found this sefikura comic from 2020, truly a timeless commentary

Me not having anything I need to get up for in the morning is a curse. Consistently staying awake until 2:30am is not a habit I wanted to return to ;-; At least I am getting a lot of writing done?? :'D

3 months since I lost my job and I feel no closer to finding another one. I keep applying and applying and applying and getting nowhere and I honestly don't know what to do anymore. It just feels completely hopeless and it's honestly just destroying me. There are not enough jobs. Wtf do I even do

I need to get back to reading fic but I haven't been reading fic regularly for like at least 2 years and there's so much stuff I wanna catch up on and it intimidates me and I'm also just so focused on my own writing that it makes reading really difficult aaaaaaaa

Hey Sephiroth you're looking real domesticated there (Design for... well, something that may or may not be coming soon >:3)

The irritating thing about writing FFVII fic these days for me is that I never feel like I'm certain which version of events I want to refer to when writing AC/DoC/general post-canon fic. OG is hardwired into my brain and I AM a bit of a purist but also... remake-verse has some cool unique stuff too

I am struck by the realisation that there's a lot of sefikura art which I never posted anywhere other than the other blue hellsite. Including all my art for Silver Lining (archiveofourown.org/works/343710...). Which doesn't feel right. So I'm making a thread of it here. Starting with the cover.

Sefikura smooch ❤️

Job interview soon. Screams

I now face the greatest challenge of my writing career. In order to progress... I must recall the plot of Dirge of Cerberus

Kuja my beloved I would do anything for you (ff14 made me miss ff9 I'm crying in the club rn)