film dump #12 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

photo dump #11 📸: Kodak Charmera (keychain camera)

film dump #10 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N me and my point & shoot against the world ヾ⁠(⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠*⁠)⁠ﾉ

film dump #9 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

"... in the scene of the Slaughter of the Innocents is one of the first realistic depictions of human tears. How they leave a trail down the cheek and hang for a moment on the jaw before falling. Someone noticed, seven hundred years ago. Someone knew my pain" -'Less is Lost' by Andrew Sean Greer

film dump #8 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

film dump #7 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

The night sky was so clear I could see orion 🌟🌌

Malaysian countryside POV 🌾

"the masochist's taste for pain does not spring from a love of pain but from the hope of procuring, by means of pain, a strong sensation; those handicapped by emotional or sensory analgesia only prefer pain to not feeling anything at all" - 'On Photography' by Susan Sontag

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film dump #6 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

"... as if the future was something you could rush towards and the past could be left behind. Later, I imagined that the past is not behind us at all, but unseen beneath our feet. We are supported by it as we walk, sometimes balanced, sometimes not...

"Give him time and he'll remember. As soon as the fuzziness passes away he'll remember. Just another few seconds and he'll have it. He wants to hold on to what he's learned - for a little while. He wants it so much"

"Those who hasten to live are in a hurry to miss" 'And Every Morning the Way Home Gets Longer and Longer' by Fredrik Backman

"It felt great. I knew the second that I jumped, all of my problems would be gone. No more worries about debts, ... or family, or regrets, ... or shame... or even about any of my friends, or trees or flowers. Suddenly, I'm standing on that cliff and laughing. It felt great."

"How much easier it would be to know less of the past, so that the lesser present had nothing to compare to. Mark Twain is usually credited with the line that goes 'History doesn't repeat, but it rhymes'... "

"I don’t want to die . I don’t want to die – not yet . I haven’t done anything with my life ... She had preferred to stay on in the castle than return to the reality of her life. Even if it was suicidal, even if it meant dragging down the rest."

"... Olly first said that he'd thought in the past about suicide... 'Why? Why would you ever do that? You're clever, you're funny, you're fit - like why would you do that? Why would you leave us? 'Mate, I wouldn't ever want to leave you, I'd want to leave me.''"

"At almost any location in any major city on Earth, you are likely standing on thousands of bodies. These bodies represent a history that exists, often unknown, beneath our feet"

film dump #5 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

"Human remains ... What exactly did that mean? Was it a few hard bones and soft tissue? Clothes and accessories? Things solid and compact enough to fit inside a coffin?"

“We’ll act as if all this were a bad dream.” A bad dream. I remembered everything. Maybe forgetfulness, like a kind snow, should numb and cover them. But they were part of me. They were my landscape. - The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath

film dump #4 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

"Just as the human body's health depends on continuous flow, the same is true of the mind - when fear, sadness and worry are bound up and kept inside, a crystal clear stream turns into a stagnant swamp of isolation and anger"

"We are, all of us, wandering about in a state of oblivion, borrowing our time, seizing our days, escaping our fates, slipping through loopholes, unaware of when the axe may fall." - 'I Am, I Am, I Am' by Maggie O'Farrell

"Normal people say, I can’t imagine feeling so bad I’d genuinely want to die. I do not try and explain that it isn’t that you want to die. It is that you know you are not supposed to be alive, feeling a tiredness that powders your bones, a tiredness with so much fear..." (1/2)

'The Paper Menagerie' by Ken Liu

Watched "A Secret Love" on Netflix and just loved this love poem from Pat to Terry:

"racism is a visceral experience, that it dislodges brains, blocks airways, rips muscle, extracts organs, cracks bones, breaks teeth"

"... the year before, she had received a thick volume called Famous Women of Science. The famous women had bored her. Their stories were all the same: told they couldn’t; decided to anyway. Because they really wanted to, she wondered, or because they were told not to?"

'I Have the Right to Destroy Myself' by Kim Young-Ha

"It feels powerful to him to put experience down in words, like he's trapping it in a jar and it can never fully leave him" - Sally Rooney, 'Normal People'

film dump #3 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

"There's no comparison between listening to music in a large concert hall with other people and being so close you can feel the performer's breath. It's not a question of which is better or more valuable. The joy of music resides in both,..."

"It used to be called angor animi–the anguish of the soul–the feeling that some people have, when they are having a heart attack, that they are about to die."

"What if I travel so far away in my dream that I can’t get back in time to wake up?" Ruth had asked her father this once, when she was little. He used to tuck her into bed, and kiss her on the forehead and bid her sweet dreams, but the exhortation always made her anxious...

"to think that maybe he was more than just a lump of carbon being slowly ushered toward an unvarnished coffin; the feeling was one of pure, almost painful happiness, like a desperate embrace squeezing air from his lungs, and it was then that the realization hit him:..."

film dump #2 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N

film dump #1 📸: Kodak Ektar H35N