Day 336 of Chaotic Joy My joy: my 4th baby is 9 today!! My challenge: HOW IS MY BABY 9?!? My life: got to watch 2 ridiculous action movies and ate cranberry jalapeño dip How was your day?

Day 335 of Chaotic Joy My joy: helped my mother with a tech problem and not only succeeded, did not blow up/lose temper My challenge: i can't stop sneezing/runny nose. Allergies or cold? +

Day 334 of Chaotic Joy My joy: ORGANIZED and decluttered my kids' art/pencils/markers/etc supplies My challenge: OMG IT TOOK ALL DAY I'M SO TIRED My life: SERIOUSLY IT TOOK ALL DAY MY BRAIN IS WIPED How was your day?

The adhd is adhd-ing todayyyyyy. My adhd trail is exhausting lol

Day 333 of Chaotic Joy My joy: writing sprints with the Bookish Bay Brigade My challenge: I need to realize that finishing tasks requires energy and bandwidth and I'M TIRED My life: GETTING SO MANY ANNOYING THINGS DONE BUT OMG I'M SO TIRED How was your day?

Day 332 of Chaotic Joy My joy: finally feeling like I can breathe My challenge: Sasquatch (8) is NOT having it with some of his school work My life: Just happy to be here How was your day?

Day 331 of Chaotic Joy My joy: spent all day watching movies with my toddler My challenge: spent all day watching movies with my toddler My life: older kids went to an amusement park and it made me happy they get these experiences How was your day?

Day 330 of Chaotic Joy (late edition) My joy: cowriting with a friend My challenge: did not write what i needed to write My life: started taking iron again and oomf, the way it hurts to poop How was your yesterday?

Day 329 of Chaotic Joy (late edition) My joy: it was my eldest daughter Gamera's 14th bday!!! My challenge: getting my house ready for a dozen teenage girls My life: was so tired i fell asleep before the party ended How was your yesterday?

Day 328 of Chaotic Joy My joy: caught up with a good friend My challenge: so sleepyyyyyy My life: being productive is nice and all, but also, i need a nap How was your day?

Day 327 of Chaotic Joy My joy: playing playdough with Kitsune (2) My challenge: I think I was really present with the kids today, but did not accomplish much else My life: I'm okay with that though How was your day?

Day 326 of Chaotic Joy (late edition) My joy: hanging out with my Tue writing buddy My challenge: so tired My life: so much wiping bottoms and dealing with bodily fluids How was your yesterday?

Day 325 of Chaotic Joy My joy: clearing out and reorganizing my kids' bathroom - and them THANKING me for it! My challenge: I'm so tired from organizing shit lolol my brain is so tired from all these micro decisions of keep, move, throw away +

Day 324 of Chaotic Joy My joy: ticking more things off my to do list My challenge: THE TO DO LIST JUST KEEPS GROWING My life: I think I'm-going-to-bed-early-on-a-Saturday-night-bc-I-did-too-much-adulting-years-old How was your day?

Day 323 of Chaotic Joy My joy: having dinner with my mom, Not Yoongi, and Gamera (13). My challenge: too much stuff to do and i'm doing themmmmm My life: toddler put herself to sleep tonight. Just demanded my presence and she conked out. How was your day?

Day 322 of Chaotic Joy My joy: seeing an old friend as she dyed Gamera’s (13) hair My challenge: can’t sleep because too wired and too much to do My life: idk if it’s a combo of higher adderall dosage, caffeine, and this new adhd system but damn what is sleep/rest How was your day?

Day 321 of Chaotic Joy My joy: idek but it was a good day My challenge: even though i've been very productive, i need to remember that my kids are not obstacles to my productivity and to see them as human My life: i finally finished writing an article! How was your day?

Day 320 of Chaotic Joy My joy: i was really productive today, but mostly, i'm happy i'm actually getting things done My challenge: I AM REALLY TIRED THOUGH My life: the hardest part is adjusting my expectations to reality (which is that i am too ambitious) How was your day?

Day 319 of Chaotic Joy My joy: got all my desk organizing stuff and decluttered/rearranged my desk and it looks great My challenge: tempted to keep fiddling instead of just letting it be good enough My life: doing things makes me happy How was your day?

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival! Happy Chuseok! Happy Tết Trung Thu! Happy Tsukimi!

Day 318 of Chaotic Joy My joy: listened to podcasts My challenge: played way too many mobile games My life: did make progress on trying to arrange my life to minimize distraction and systematize my tasks How was your day?

Day 317 of Chaotic Joy My joy: spending time on zoom with a good friend My challenge: staying up way too late My life: going through an ADHD course and working through the action items How was your day?

Day 326 of Chaotic Joy (super late edition) My joy: got a ton of errands and stuff done My challenge: did not get important writing done My life: just wasted my dayyyyyy How was your yesterday?

Day 315 of Chaotic Joy My joy: finally catching up with a friend after a few months apart My challenge: i had too much teaaaaaaa My life: learning korean has been nice just so i can see some progress in my life How was your day?

Day 314 of Chaotic Joy My joy: finishing a book My challenge: The book was not good My life: What I want to read is so hard to find😭 How was your day?

i'm getting really sick and tired of reading about fucking in romantasy like it's magic and remaking people. it's so cliche and boring and sooo boring. I AM ALSO SICK OF ANCIENT HUNDRED/THOUSAND YO MEN FUCKING COMPARATIVELY YOUNG WOMEN UGH GROSS 1000000000X GROSS

Day 313 of Chaotic Joy My joy: slowly making progress in Korean My challenge: not making much progress in anything else My life: just another day of building sand castles by the shore How was your day?

Day 312 of Chaotic Joy My joy: multiple moments of community today! I always start off dreading such events bc effort, but after, my heart is always full My challenge: so much to write!! My life: Toddler was up at 3am, then napped from 2-5pm so idek what is happening How was your day?

Day 311 of Chaotic Joy (late edition) My joy: met up with a college friend I haven't seen for 20+ years or so! My challenge: so many things to dooooooooo so tiredddd My life: i blinked and wonder when did my life get so full suddenly? especially with the children! How was your yesterday?

Day 310 of Chaotic Joy My joy: had unexpected moments of connection today with strangers My challenge: did so much am so tired My life: so much of what I do is quotidian, like building sand castles on the beach, constantly washed away only to redo it the next day How was your day?

Day 309 of Chaotic Joy My joy: I really am starting to like my Korean lessons more and more. It's one of the few things in my life where I feel like I'm moving forward. My challenge: IDEK I'm just existing My life: I do a lot but it feels like nothing How was your day?

Day 308 of Chaotic Joy My joy: talking about our throughlines and eras with an old friend and fellow creative My challenge: WHERE DID MY DAY GO My life: I did all the things today but still feel behind How was your day?

Day 307 of Chaotic Joy (super late edition) My joy: catching up with my writing buddy My challenge: binge watching “Copycat Killer” on Netflix My life: SO MANY THINGS TO DO FOR KIDS AND SCHOOL How was your day yesterday?

Day 306 of Chaotic Joy My joy: seeing Kitsune (2) run around in joy during music class My challenge: so much to consume and do My life: i'm tired How was your day?

Day 305 of Chaotic Joy (late edition) My joy: Got to meet Scott Okamoto in real life!! And also watched the world premier of his son's short film My challenge: I lazed about in bed all day and read fanfics (this technically should be in my joy but it's also a challenge) +

Day 304 of Chaotic Joy My joy: napped and netflixed My challenge: i think i ate too many snacks cuz my tongue is swollen and kinda hurts My life: everyone is home and safe and that's a good day How was your day?

Day 303 of Chaotic Joy My joy: stopped taking bcp for peri My challenge: started spotting and hour after the time i normally take it and guess who has full blown cramps and is bleeding My life: STILL PREFERABLE OVER BEING ON BC How was your day?

Day 302 of Chaotic Joy (late edition) My joy: binge watching shows on Netflix My challenge: dealing with extremely irritating people My life: birth control pills give me uncontrollable rage but so does perimenopause like plz why How was your yesterday?

Day 301 of Chaotic Joy My Joy: All the kids DVD l and I got our Covid and flu shots today My challenge: baby has fever 😭 My life: finished Killing Eve!! YAAAAAY How was your day?

Day 300 of Chaotic Joy My joy: binge watching Killing Eve My challenge: power went out My life: my toddler is big mad the power is out because no youtube How was your day?

both Not Yoongi and i did our poop/colon mail-in test so our mailbox has 2 poops in it lol. LITERALLY MAILING SHIT and it's in the 90s these days so it's HOT SHIT I feel like that is also apropos for our times.

Day 299 of Chaotic Joy My joy: binge watched A Man in Full today! My challenge: binge watched A Man in Full today! My life: I really do enjoy taking the kids to activities bc then i feel less like a bum, and also OMG SO MANY ACTIVITIES How was your day?

AGING IS A PRIVILEGE BUT IT IS ALSO SHIT

Day 298 of Chaotic Joy My joy: my friends who love me My challenge: these days, grief sits so close to the surface My life: doing korean hw! I am flashing back to last minute Chinese hw on Friday nights. How was your day?

It's hard for me to concentrate on the personhood - the realness of my children as people without being reduced immediately to tears. To think my father looked at me and still abused me. Still did not care when I walked away, going non-contact for 14 years now.

Day 297 of Chaotic Joy (late edition) My joy: seeing Taylor Tomlinson's new set! My challenge: ate half a pastrami sandwich and was full until next Tuesday. also why is paramount theater soooooo sleep inducing? My life: continued to binge reaction videos. How was your yesterday?

The older I get, the less I like gratuitous female nudity in movies/shows. I used to think it was empowering and no big deal. Who cares if the actress is fine with it? Now, I wonder about power imbalances, if the actress felt safe to say no, if there was a way to tell the story without it.

Day 296 of Chaotic Joy My joy: watching reactors fall in love with BTS My challenge: idk what to do with myself lately My life: some days, I wonder if we're in the upside down How was your day?

Day 295 of Chaotic Joy My joy: watching more BTS reactions from my new fave reactors My challenge: so tired but what did i do all day? My life: trying to squeeze in some Korean learning How was your day?

CW: death, mentions of abuse My grandmother died last Monday. She was a terrible person and I do not mourn her. Also found out my father was committing elder abuse. I am/was non-contact with both of them for 14 years because my father was an abusive POS and still is. (1/3)