I really think I'm currently in a depressive episode again and it drains me I'm exhausted I want to lay down, I want to sleep... Ugh...

I feel really exhausted, but it is, what it is

Yk what, let's try that second name idea for a week or so in my display name :O

I've been thinking about a male second name for a while now and I know my parents wouldn't like that, but I also don't wanna get rid of my current name, yk? And to me, having a female and male name does make sense in how I see myself as a nonbinary person tbh... Hmmmm

I still want to look like Merlin from BBC Merlin and I know I won't ever achieve that BUT I WISH

The urge to rewatch BBC Merlin again (at least the first season for now) God I love this show sm, it's so comforting and really just one of my favorite shows of all time, ever since I first saw it on TV as a child

Doodle comms! #commission #art

Look at my man Richard 😭💜

I was once kicked form a discord server a few years ago bc I muted all the notifications (except for @ notifs) and apparently, doing so would mute them for everyone on the server and the admins told me to stop, bc they wanted to get a notif for EVERY message and idk... I still think about it hahaha

yeah nah, no Dokomi for me this year.... but next year, hopefully, if I don't forget about it again ahahahah Ryukishi better show up then-

I'm always so so happy to see my OCs drawn by other artists, it warms my heart x3

Tomi hands wawa

eine... T-Teeparty? und diese Brosche... Diese goldenen Flügel... *inhales* IST DIES EINE UMINEKO REFERENZ?!

wanna be the Schnapp to my Schnipp? youtu.be/P3ynj6w2tII?...

I wish I could start my whole life over sometimes... Everything is so exhausting atm

Watched 2 movies today, I'm proud of myself

1 year old → 5 years old（Now） He grew up… but he’s still just as cute

I'm in a Ghibli mood Gonna watch some Ghibli movies today I guess

Guten Morgen ihr wundervollen Chaoten! <3 Das Update ist live und ihr könnt euch jetzt eine ganze Tonne Sakura Sticker und Lesezeichen gönnen wenn ihr bock habt! Viel Spaß beim Stöbern. #aufkleber #lesezeichen #sakura #dinos #katzen

Aaand headache is back Gonna lay down and watch smth (even though I'd love to go for a walk actually but meh... Don't wanna leave the bed today ngl)

Merke langsam, dass ich heutzutage echt Schwierigkeiten hätte, mich in dieser heutigen Jugend wiederzufinden bzw uo to date zu sein und ich finde so viele Sachen und Redewendungen heutzutage... Cringe... Ah...

Pokémon Ranger time :3

can't believe I already was productive this morning well... today I wanna read a lot more (a few manga to be exact) and play soem more Pokémon Ranger, today I am allowed to stop overthinking anything and just focus on nice things

I sorted out A LOT of movies and Books/Manga I finally have more space to focus on the series I collect and read atm

I think I'll start to sort a few things out today which I wanna sell soon Just so that I feel better about myself-

Actually really tired... Bleh.... I think I'll go to bed now

Okay, so: I bought the 70s Winnie Pooh movie (bc I really don't know if I even have that one on DVD, could be that I had that on VHS haha), Kung Fu Panda 1 (peak) and Over the Hedge (also peak) First vinted order hehe

Wishlisted some Winnie Pooh movies on Vinted and the seller now messaged me... Anxiety rises for no reason ahahahahah ;;;;;; They even wanna give me a discount, they're already cheap af😭

Lol I feel like I should just vanish ugh My existence is useless actually Why can't I just go full camouflage mode and hide from everyone?

Slight correction: Apparently this is not the same as the YouTuber has, he has the Super Mario Bros. 3 cartoon and I have the Super Mario World cartoon But I was so sure that Mama Luigi was in there... Well, guess I'll see that one day-

Happy Pokemon day

Found peak again while looking for smth else

Okay, so I can't find these 2 movies rn, but I found my Pooh Series DVDs (5 to be exact) and to my surprise, each DVD only has a runtime of around an hour... Huh, well...

Kinda wanna rewatch the Tigger or Piglet movie... God I love these two movies, the feels I get from watching them UGHHH (Grand Adventure is also of course really, REALLY good, but the Tigger and Piglet movies always make me cry)

I'm mad at myself that I didn't get any Dokomi tickets this year (and I really don't have the energy to buy some now tbh) But eh... Maybe next year... Maybe... Haaaaahhhh

brain feels mushy I feel tired (despite having two coffees and one matcha latte) today I just feel... bad, idk

warning german post Ich habe mal meinen YT Kanal etwas "aufgeräumt" meine Streamaufzeichnungen sind jetzt nicht gelistet, sie sind also theoretisch noch da (die Playlists sind zumindest noch öffentlich) joa... o7

I feel like screaming everything annoys me everyone (irl) annoys me (which makes me mad at myself for thinking so) just leave me tf alone, don't talk to me, just let me exist on my own, I am at my limit atm

My 3DS is fully charged Time for more Pokémon Ranger 🫡

thank you Ryukishi07 for saving my life, you're such a cool dude

god, Umineko OST is so cxzuhjsdbncjzbhnsdjzzvbgcjhwsrd

More Beatrice bc I cannot stop thinking about Umineko

I am already suspecting that my dad wants me to throw stuff away or smth He said he'd get containers to put things away I HATE cleaning up with my dad bc he wants to throw everything away I know I am clingy, I know I am probably a hoarder But like... Don't do that to me

I should really just sell stuff on vinted But then I remember that we stored most of my books and manga incorrectly and they all have curled up pages and stuff... I could just throw them away at this point ahaha ;;;;;

Wish I wasn't such a lazy piece of shit My room looks like a mess again and I just can't keep it clean I'm so exhausted... Mostly mentally I feel like I'm spiraling again and I hate it

wishing everyone a schnipp schnapp morning youtu.be/P3ynj6w2tII?...

slay

I wonder when my DMMd anime arrives... Thalia already got the confirmation that I am over 18, but I guess it may take some time bc they may not have it in stock atm? Anyways, I'll wait for it patiently