i think about leaving sometimes

mother,, eat me and birth me again. this time around i will make you proud

swallow memory

my fav movies when i was 13 were virgin suicides, lolita and the movie where britney spears gave birth in a supermarket can u tell i have issues

my thoughts are open wounds inside my brain,, my brain is a scar

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind reminded me of me and my ex in some kind of way

i will never stop loving things or people or places you can hurt me all you want but you will never be able to take away the ability to properly love

i have been isolating so hard the past weeks i fell in love with solitude again

i no longer feel the need of running away from myself

healing is lonely but so was begging you to stay

crossing paths

soften my shell, stranger you crack me open and i pour

i envy that they can touch some other skin without getting burned by the loss of what once was i wish i could find home somewhere else as easily too

the year of acceptance

i will soon unpetal

if the pain of grief visits you again remember that it comes from a place of love

every time someone yells at me i am 12 years old again. home is the first grave

amapof.us is my new hyperfixation

i am only human after all

u already forgot me entirely, didnt u

2025 recap: returned to nature, collected lots of rocks, fell in love, stopped believing in love, became afraid of love, catched a cold, catched several, spiraled really hard, got addicted to knitting, survived photo school, lost friends, gained new ones along the way,solitude, dogs still>everything

my mom‘s life at 18

you probably dont think much about me anymore but i find you hidden behind every corner

us

s/o to my iphone 3 that exploded in my bed back in the day

i am rotten but at least i bloomed

all i need by clams casino makes me wanna run away through foggy streets on a cold winter evening leaving the city behind and run and run until i am running through fields of emtpy land and then end up on top of a bridge gasping for air only to realize that i am human after all

me 🤝 the fig tree analogy by sylvia plath

white nights by dostojewski

saw a fox yesterday night so i guess its really over over

depression hits so hard i sit at my window like bella in new moon

frohe weihnachten, mein twink du fehlst mir

being severely depressed is such a nice feeling because nothing matters anymore i am finally free

people say they like my vibe until i tell them about the time where i was manic and got 6 random tattoos in one week and then went on a roadtrip with two dudes i met once before and came back with a severe lung infection but still went partying three days in a row and no one really knew where i was

kiss my scars

the same person youre missing right now is telling a different person how good their day was

help me, remind me why i‘m here

having a sick brain is strange because you randomly wake up one day and your mind will convince you that it would be better for everyone and everything if your body be rotting five feet underground now

el prado freestyle by untitled halo reassembles what falling in love with someone feels like to me

get ready, the tables have turned,, i am no longer hiding how miserable ive been feeling

lullaby of slow death

life got so messy i started writing songs again

wanna know a secret? u were my favorite part of the year even if we didnt make it

my mind is a scary place to live in

heimliche lust für immer einzuschlafen

someone once picked up a dying flower from the side of the street and gave it to me and i called it love

i put agony on speaker at work today and we collectively went nonverbal and stared at the wall for some time

in another life we‘d maybe be two dogs wearing sweaters and share small sticks