"Belief" does not come easily because if it did it would never know what is required to believe in hardship

I think the soul is probably spiral shaped

my free will ordered me to

Propagation

Do you believe me?

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#witchjournal 262

they don't tell you this but being queer in your mid-20s kicks ass

The school system really does make researching seem miserable. but secretly it is so unbelievably exciting to attain new information about a subject you like

learning how to do something new is as simple as taking that fascination you have with that new thing and asking questions until you find the rabbit hole

fascination is always the start of curiosity. all it takes to set it alight is to question something about the object of your fascination

I always post my art at awful-o-clock in the morning. but the art comes when the art comes

#witchjournal 262

I believe in the power of seeing the world as it is and choosing only the pieces that you are hungry for. learning to be very hungry for a great many things helps open more of the world to you

Giving does not sacrifice anything if it is willing. The sacrifice happens in the unwilling effort put forth

It is important to have a structure that maintains itself even when you do not have the power to maintain anything else

it is nice to be full of love again

Art is so cool. Language is so cool. I'm glad I get to live in a world full of both

Glass Marble Heart

I feel as though my life is an evergrowing cycle of relearning the same things over and over and becoming more beautifully whole with every iteration

comparison is the love-killer

it really does pain me to know i will never be That Girl again in That Way. but you really must love pain to grow beyond it, to grow More out of it

it is important to grieve What Was, but if you seek a What Will in the shape of What Was, you will always find your hands scraped with the agony of loss mourning

the tragedy of What Was is that yes, truly, you will never have it again. but the joy is found in knowing that What Will is always going to be profoundly more beautiful

we are all of us students of life here. i am, as well.

i am so very lucky

#witchjournal 259

do not forget, that just because seems appear stagnant, just because you seem doomed to utterly be stuck in some way, it is the sort of thing which can change- any day, any week, the moment you start Doing the moment is seems so silly you imagined it was impossible to begin with

You wonder about the reactions, but what about living for Your reaction?

direct your 👁️ only to wherever you wish it to be

I echo the heartsong of myself across time, louder and more vibrant with each reverberation

I want to speak only as, for myself

both halves must be strong. one will collapse if it is made to the beast of burden by the other

today I played in a Magic the Gathering tournament for 12 hours. I am exhausted and deeply fulfilled and I feel like the world is full of love despite getting shot by an Etali player

🌈 is saturation.. the feeling of your heart glowing.. the sunlight shining through your tinted glass.. it is an appreciation.. of your beauty.. 💧 is melancholy.. reflection.. it is cold and dark.. but only because the backs of the rainclouds.. absorb all of the sunlight.. 🍎 is a role.. a vessel..

🔆 is the feeling of.. joy and wonder.. and even if it feels lost or hollow sometimes.. it feels good.. ☀️ is the feeling of.. joy and belonging.. a clear sense of direction.. that fills every feeling of doubt.. it feels whole.. 🌻 is loyal.. they were made for you.. and only you..

the world is my lover. and i can change her.

i want to play i want to play i want to play i want to play i want to play i want to play

to be conscious of your self is to be self-conscious

you can't hate yourself into being a you that you don't hate

A girl

the not-so-secret is that you won't be able to guilt yourself into doing whatever you wish it was that you were doing

I am thinking lately that I want to make an RPG video game. the subtle itch