woke up at 6pm. it is impossible to wake up at night and not feel disoriented

Reading is one of the most challenging things to do. It requires a lot of concentration. On the other hand, it rebuilds my brain, which has been destroyed by overwork, anxiety, and depression.

i didn't like the drawing i did of my new Yordle OC. It was very rushed. It's horrible to draw knowing that you have to finish other drawings. Even though I don't have deadlines to finish these drawings, it's still a horrible feeling.

sketches? 1000-1500

i think i did 200 drawings this year. i counted 70 drawings on r34. most of them have alts (some have more than 2 alts) so it would be +60. I drew many comms. For each drawing I had to stop my activities to draw a commission or two. it's something between 200 and 250

I did some research and found several OCs. It's strange that I've never seen nsfw art of them lol. Or I've never had the opportunity to draw a commission with this kind of oc

It's so weird that I don't see any Yordle OCs. I don't think I've ever seen one. It sometimes makes me wonder if someone tried but got DMCA'd (idk my brain always thinks the worst)

none of those penis i use as reference for painting are mine

listening to emo pop punk and drawing the nasty porn feels so dissonant

peanits practice

practice (failed attempt)

i knew i was painting wrong. I feel like I've leveled up

practice

Define your music taste in eight artists: (i'm gonna put an artist for each music genre) 1. Dream Theater 2. King Crimson 3. Blank Banshee 4. Hermeto Pascoal 5. Tyler, The Creator 6. Death Grips 7. Video Game Music (hard to tell an specific artist) 8. Molchat Doma

seeing drawing of girls with big dick but no balls in my timeline feels like i went back 10 years in time when most of the drawings are "futas with dick and no balls". And as always, it never appealed to me.

building a new OC

i'm sorry for the music oriented spam posts. That's my hyperfocus.

and i just found out that the feedback about this album is kind of mixed. the negative reviews point that the band is basically copying Linkin park. Idk why the hate about this *insert the guy happy with two cakes here*

I respect the band's history and their preferences, but honestly I never got over the fact that they had two albums in one way (which are basically two masterpieces) and they never tried to make an album like the first two again

I found a band that is exactly like Linkin Park to satisfy my desire to listen to something other than Hybrid Theory and Meteora www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxIF...

These things I talk about are a combination of therapy and a notebook for me to record my progress. I feel comfortable talking about this since it's about drawing and it doesn't stray from what I do here

Before, I "solved" this problem with the 30-minute practices with 150 sketches (12 seconds each), but I couldn't correct the mistakes, I just forced myself to draw to avoid getting paralyzed. now i want to combine these two things (forcing myself to draw and correcting mistakes) with this practice.

trying to do a 5 minutes warmup before each 45 minutes of drawing. I don't intend to draw quickly, I want to avoid the fear of making mistakes. It paralyzes me. These practices force me to draw even when I make mistakes, and I try to fix the mistake by trying and failing again and so on.

my slow asf internet made me feel nostalgic for the internet from 20 years ago

practice

I'm yawning so much and so hard that I'm afraid my jaw will lock

practice

I have this strange feeling that all my drawings always seem rushed and poorly finished no matter how hard I try to draw. They always look like an eternal sketch.

i thought MF from MF Doom meant Mother Fucking (I always called him that lol). It's actually Metal Face or Metal Fingers

Lately I've been seeing a lot of OCs that look like Dasi. It's not just the hair covering half of the face, but also bedroom eyes, ear gauge, smug smile and being trans girl. maybe it's a coincidence

i need to find the thing that makes me sketch in a comfortable way but for painting. it's still a challenge for me

I woke up 5 hours later than I expected to wake up 🙃

practice

I like this drawing. i'll sleep happy and i hope i can dream with her. I want to hug her

- prepare to work on some drawings - but before that, do a warmup of 30 minutes - draw Dasi ass - It's been an hour and i'm still drawing because i like what i'm seeing

i asked an artist about what tablet they use to draw. it's an ipad *i check the price of ipad* average price: between 15 and 25 comms of 90 usd that i do

I will certainly regret this, I will have coffee about 4 hours before I go to sleep

my OCs Void and Dasi be like

genesis progressive era is so beautiful. Man i wish i could write music like this

practice

i beat the horny thoughts

On Pinterest you can now remove AI content from recommendations settings - refine your recommendations - generative AI interests turn all the stuff off

ngl I finally looked at this trend and didn't feel immense depression combined with bitterness. The topics were always the worst possible

practice

i want to sniff a hole so bad

I hate the fact that I know what to do and how to do it when it comes to drawing, but my brain/body is always willing to do things like get too tired, anxious, sick, or something negative to keep me from drawing. It's like I'm lacking dopamine.

it's weird that i love buttholes but i don't have any interest to see them gaped. What makes them attractive is their natural shape.

With my new account, I have no idea if I'm seeing new accounts or if they were accounts that had blocked my previous account for some reason. Either way, it'll be funny for me to see those accounts that blocked me noticing that I'm following them