When you see someone very obviously take an element of your design... *sigh*

Interview went fine but it was just a screening, so I don't know when I will hear back. Rent is urgent now, I'm at 37%. On Thursday I start accruing late fees. I'm applying to so many jobs y'all. 😭 But in the meantime, comms are still open! 🫶 #mutualaid #commsopen #ych #digitalart #smallstreamer

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Happy Pride all <3 This me.

Big ol' anxiety today. Need a weighted blanket and cuddle.

Rent is due tomorrow, and I didn't get the job I interviewed for. I'm still applying and trying really hard to stay positive. My commissions are open, and I also take custom requests! PNG's, logos, stream/web graphics, I can do anything, just send me a request! ko-fi.com/ember_glows/...

A MAJOR SHOUT OUT TO @salviokami.vtubers.social for gifting me this amazing chibi art! SO MANY HUGS AND SMOOCHES! THANK YOOOOOU Artist ych.commishes.com/user/rosebla...

GLOW IS INCREDIBLE AND WHISKEY IS AMAZING

Feeling viciously lonely. I miss people. I miss having someone to chitchat with. I miss...being seen as someone worth an effort? I stopped reaching out first and crickets.

I have come to learn... I can draw pretty bald bitches XD

Crazy how much just...changing a brush changes the whole process. Anyway, working on redrawing my shark oc, she needs a name.

Tried to draw... ended up getting frustrated because someone was wrong and my brain didn't understand how to fix it. Now we cry instead. #pms #artblock

I wanna do more with my Lemon Shark Oc. Think its time to actually flesh her out a little.

Crams my soft squishy body into shape wear to feel better about it. We do what we can.

For my bitches with boobs! Can confirm, jelly bras? 10/10. Doesn't even feel like I am wearing anything.

Still absolutely obsessed with Kevin

Today was a day. A really, incredibly bad one.

When ya gotta go to work in 45 minutes but you just wanna lay on the couch, watch people play Subnautica 2 while wanting to play it yourself!!

When you're the person everyone else comes to... But you can't go to anyone... It's okay. I'll just cry over here.

Gnocchi sausage Alfredo. Tidied the apartment. Wrote in my journal. Confronted some yucky thoughts in its pages.

I STILL LOVE KEVIN

Making an educational post even though I know the bards won't read it.

Heading pad, sappy shojo anime and snacks. #happymothersday

When all your favorite pieces of art are of people who make you sad >.>

OK y'all, I'm desperate and scared. My rent payment got declined cause an automatic payment for a different came out first and now I'm $50 short on rent. I have an interview next week but right now, I need help. Anything helps, I appreciate you all. 🙏 #mutualaid cash.app/$embergl0ws

This headache is still lingering. Am I dying? (Kidding...mostly)

Welp, I made another gojinka. If you don't know who biollante is, finding out is your homework

Gravy

400 FOLLOWERS WOWIE!! Thank you all SO much, and I wanna do a lil giveaway for this milestone! I'll pick a random winner in a week to design them a lil demon >:) All you have to do issss ✦ Follow me ✦ Retweet this ✦ share your fav piece of art, whether it be something you've made, seen, etc!

Being a parent and having issues ideation is so hard. I just want to be done but I cannot hurt my spawn that way. Every time I have a thought, I feel so much shame. Then it becomes a feedback loop.

Goodnight cuties ~ Remember each day is a day to grow. To shake off the dust of the day before. To learn. To improve. Sending out as much love as I can.

Gonna do be better to be the sponge and not the brick.

I woke up feeling...good today. Not physically. But emotionally. At least for a while. Which is a positive step!

Headache plus IBS flare up? At work? Yippie!

Me trying to get up for work

We wake up, we shake off the sadness from waking up and we fake it until we make it for the day ^^

AHH I LOVE KEVIN

Anyway! Back to your regularly scheduled Mommet time!! Public Crash Out phase over. :D

Another thing about me, then I am done whining. I'm not gonna dig through my follower lists searching for friends. If people choose not to follow me places, that's okay! Cuz I still love you. I am not so numbers obsessed that "if you have to follow me on *social media/platform*"

If you ever wanna talk about this like *adults* my DMs are open. I am not the one to who made contact near impossible and I am not going to push past boundaries if they seem to exist. Did I make mistakes? Yep. I take accountability. But you left and left me with no way to contact you.

How was I supposed to fight when you and I quote "cut me out"? I never resented anyone. I took some space for me. You saw that as something it was not. I made sure to keep the connection that I saw as important. The personal one. Not the parasocial one (I am *done* hiding and taking potshots)

Can't get hurt if you don't let people under the mask. A thing I am no longer doing.

BEHRFOLKS! If you can, I would appreciate it immensely if you help Ember 🙏 Thank you!

I've started Journaling again...

A couple of banana eels! 🍌 [ #plushart #sewingpattern #plushie ]

God, I have so much going on inside my brain and no where to put those thoughts... I have literally shut down my feelings or the anxiety and sadness take over and I spiral.

I forgot how easy it is to turn turn everything off. We are blissfully nothing.

Pattern recognition is a curse. The bones, they sensed a disturbance. They were right. Maybe one day I won't be too much?