Great, more feelings?

good morning! I have extra firm tofu browning in the oven to later braise in a garlic/soy/sambal olek sauce with sesame oil & gochugaru, with shiitake & baby Bella mushrooms & broccoli. I wish I had enoki mushrooms but alas: no fungal trifecta today.

I'm like a pizza dromedary - I can go for months without even thinking about the damn thing, but somehow I've been currently triggered into wanting a slice of Vito's margherita w/ ham & jalapeño on the daily. it's probably the perfect pie for me. I still remember eating it for the 1st time with PMD.

good morning! I am rehydrating some dried shiitake mushrooms to add to my dubu jorim for more nutrition. I think I will also add this last broccoli crown for crunch. real exciting times happening here in hollywood!

I walked onto my balcony & murmured, "It smells like summer." There's something about that scent that announces the possibility of something fun but covered in sunscreen & sand which terrifies my sensibilities. It reminds me of being a child.

Today I learned that Johnny Cash accidentally killed like 49 out of 53 endangered condors by setting fire to their sanctuary.

It's always wild to me when people tell me they thought I was mean or intimidating before we actually met due to how I look or carried myself at hardcore shows or on the internet back in the wild west of AMH & the hardcore scene.

What's your favorite wacky conspiracy theory about celebrities? I love the idea of TSwift being a descendant of Anton LaVey, and the one about Avril Lavigne being dead & that's actually her body double.

I had three defeated russet potatoes that were desperate for utilization so it's time to make Korean potato salad with them, hard boiled eggs, mixed veg, kewpie, sesame oil, sugar. maybe I'll do a wilted spinach/garlic/gochugaru/sesame oil/soy sauce thing next & then a dubu jorim for protein.

I am attempting to bake a chocolate cheesecake today, though I only have graham crackers for the crust. how will I survive this great offense?

SLANTED is a perfect film, no notes.

My horoscope recently suggested that I get more bored. Uh, I don't know if that's possible but I'll continue languishing, doddering, puttering & foundering. I screamed the other day just to release something other than methane.

Does anyone in Twin Peaks know how to tell a story succinctly or is a rambling soliloquy while gazing at a whirring ceiling fan de rigueur? Nobody wins at charades in this town, that's for fucking sure.

my brain is fully on strike despite me pleading with it to do something of value. it wants me to putter. so I putter.

I always feel uncomfortable when Clarence's dad is whacked because he's just trying to do right by his kid but his speech about the Sicilians certainly didn't help his cause

SNAKE EYES is RASHOMON set in New Jersey in which a redhead is murdered, a blonde is shot & a brunette escapes.

I gotta be real: the process of ingesting RSO & how I potentiate it makes me look like a real nerd but I love the ceremony of doing drugs - the rolling of the joint, pulling down a mirror & snipping a clean straw at an angle - the pomp of it all is exhilarating.

LOL some 32 year old tried to start a convo on a dating app with "hi, I'd like to go on a walk and smoke with you & see what happens" bro, take your low effort attempt to get a beej & shove it. save up for a SW. you're not even cute, dude.

debating if I want to soak some wide rice noodz & slice up some of this steak to make beef chow fun with broccoli for lunch. to quote superchunk, the question is how fast

These competing chefs look like a hardcore band out of Worcester, MA

I wish there were a sequel to JAWBREAKER. Also, despite having seen this a billion times, I only just now caught the Angelyne joke.

I decided to revisit the show TWIN PEAKS since it was a whole thing in high school -- like a boy I had a crush on made it his whole personality -- and I can report back that this show is fucking terrible & no wonder I stopped watching as a kid. Fashion & music/aesthetics don't make a show.

I'm about to throw a tantrum over how pixelated the LA METRO app is. There's no reason for it to look like this!!

maybe I want a T shirt that reads "TONNATO" on the front

The most embarrassing thing to come out of this is now everyone knows i fucked a redhead

I'm super excited thinking about baking bread, making homemade mayo & marinated tomatoes this week. It will make for a fantastic sandwich, improved by all the labor i put into it.

Andy Bell was always my idol, which says a lot. A man twirling with confidence in a tutu is my kind of energy.

Lunch today was the remainder of a half block of tofu doddering in the fridge like Grampa Simpson, broccoli, straw mushrooms, yellow bell pepper and sanuki udon (not pictured). It tastes like healthy takeout which i consider a victory.

LURKER may be my second favorite film I've seen this year. It's only May.

My biggest mistake was thinking that a career would fulfill me. That's not it. Oh my god, this is a midlife crisis. 🫠

West coast emo people do not do the chest thump bounce and believe me you, I am very disappointed.

I don't know if i can make it through a rewatch of TWIN PEAKS if Donna is gonna keep whispering "James" to that gerbil faced man

I was wearing a NYHC band tee from the 90s but the shirt is a heavy duty fruit of the loom XL that is shaped like Optimus Prime & thickly coated in plastisol print so I had to take it off because all my sensory issues were being triggered.

I just remembered I defrosted some pho broth I'd made about a month ago so I'm going to use the blade steak thinly sliced there (and these beef meatballs & tendon languishing in the freezer). I also have some fresh pho noodles (vacuum packed) & a lime. ooh wee, shit is gonna be bangin' today.

tonight for dinner I am preparing pan seared blade steak & broccoli in some form, debating if I should do a stir fry situation with udon or something more basic.

what a night! I'm very grateful that my friend invited me; we ran into a bunch of people we each knew. everyone hugged & listened to music we loved over half a lifetime ago. the vibes were positive. my face hurts from smiling & I'm not even high. A+ night, I am full of gratitude & love.

I finally managed to unearth my PWEI shirt from high school so guess who's wearing it tonight for full grebo vibes? I *almost* wish I'd gone on that date with the guy from [britpop band] but he was so fucking unregulated & manic that I couldn't do it, even if to advance the plot.

life is so weird; I met a guy on a dating app like 10+ years ago but we never met up in person but stayed "friends" via social media, though didn't keep in touch. anyway, he reached out randomly today to invite me to see TEXAS IS THE REASON! I'd wanted to get tix earlier but friends declined :(

The greatest work of fiction is any movie asking us to believe Rachel McAdams is ugly but SEND HELP is the most fun I've had at the movies in ages.

I'm one of those assholes who live to felt people at the poker table, don't encourage me.

Is there a site where bartenders and wait staff share their experiences about serving people who are obviously on awkward first dates? I would love to read those interactions.

I hate that the kind of man I'm attracted to is the type played by Marky Mark in THE DEPARTED but hey, he gets shit done.

BRB, gonna go make friends with some crows & ravens so I can start my avian army of destruction

an overcast Wednesday morning is a great time to listen to Archers of Loaf but let's be honest, ANYTIME is a great time to listen to Archers of Loaf.

Why does it smell like creamed leeks out on my balcony?

Nothing screams Los Angeles more than discussing your kinks over a rousing game of shuffleboard on a first date

OK, I've reached the threshold of living LIKE THIS so it's time to start unfucking my environment by cleaning my bathroom tomorrow. it looks like a neglected highway rest stop currently & this is no longer acceptable now that my brain has settled into something functional.

After I moved to LA, I was telling my parents about a new Korean restaurant that had opened in Flushing & my mother turned to my father and gloated "see, I told you, she knows everything about food!" which filled me with the oddest sense of accomplishment and joy.

I'm a little anxious today because I'm meeting someone for the first time to play billiards & maybe go eat Chinese food. He has a nice voice. He seems smart. One could say the same about me until I show up.

asian restaurants with shitty plain white rice should be set on fire as a punishment