it's tough bc i'm trying to avoid making her look like a farm girl (nothing wrong with farm girls it's just not the direction I want her to go) but that bun is making it hard

me waking up: nice i woke up before 12 PM i can work on my translations also me: what if I worked on game dev

im overall feeling a bit better today but I have to start working again for my end of dec/early jan deadlines come on man

Theres a huge overlap between vocaloid and danganronpa communities in comparison but fans of those usually tend to be younger and hundred line fans tend to be older

I think of hundred line and vocaloid as two very separate communities atm so when i see a familiar face in the community posting hundred line im like ?!?!!! EITO AOTSUKI?? In MY vocaloid fandom?! It’s more likely than you’d think

Having my bi-monthly outing tmr but it’s to the dentist office which i hate so idk if itll help my mental state

my least favorite sound fukase makes is "wa" i dont know why but it always gives me so many problems

Ive been yelling at myself to work all day bc i do have a deadline tomorrow but i just . Ugh

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checking up on my 7 vocaloid WIPs like I'm watering my plants

i thought it was sleep deprivation getting my ass but i slept like 8-9 hours in the end and i still just feel ________ come ON let me enjoy my free time oh my godd

me, smacked with garbage brain immediately upon waking up: it's ok. . .. this despair is just a stepping stone to a more shining h ope....

Ive been laying down for like an hour and im still awake ugh

Ive been kinda zombie for all of today and now the day is over without me having much to show for it ugh

i know theres no shame in using 3d models and it's not much different from buying those irl drawing figure models, but i still feel like im gonna be shot out back

instead of feeling accomplished i kinda just feel like i got hit by a truck RIP

making fan cover art for fukase songs that dont rly have cover art would be nice but i think im getting overambitious

Finally rewrote the first chapter of my arusu story…hacks up blood…im at least happier about it than my past 3 attempts to write it

Why is it 70 degrees at night in the winter

Im way too awake for someone who only slept probably 6 hours

also considering she has an idol type of voice i should probably give her at least SOME makeup but urk... i like...plain faces... and i kinda wanted to give her my biases to see if it makes me a little more attached (i never get attached)

UGHHH ITS HARDD i dont have any personality ideas so it's hard to make creative decisions

Uuu…

wow a sakura song just came out with a design i really like oh..................... what a coincidence tho literally what are the chances

anyway i unironically have been wanting to read classic books lately who am i

ok no more translation deadlines until the end of december sniffs

oh yeah about tuning Sakura but I feel like I can't quite manipulate the way she sings certain sounds the way I can with standard vocaloids so that's been a bit frustrating (I think it's an AI synth thing)

i wanted to post a rough vocaloid cover but clipchamp isnt loading so i cant crop it down ugh

tuning ai vocas is more of a learning curve than i expected... because you can tell the VP is a really good singer, if u dont tune them well it makes it feel *really* off compared to just a standard vocaloid

why do i come up with so many ideas when i have deadlines

ooh wait hold up my original plan was that she'd be stationed at the healing center most of the time (patients basically never die, she just helps speed up the healing process) but the idea of her going into spirit worlds for emergency care....ooh...

so far in my AU she seems very serious/not the type to RP but maybe it can be gap moe

Nurse type T is supposed to exist in my AU but shes canonically a robot i think… but i cant have too many robots bc theyre not supposed to be a common thing…hmm

Neuro problems acting up a day before deadline come on man

stares into distance...i feel like...there's too many vtuber based vocal synths for me to continue ignoring them for my AU...but i also just really do not like the idea of making vocal synths that look so similar to their vtuber counterparts

having the cilantro soap gene is like literally wild bc i can handle a tiny bit but if I have even a little bit too many, my mouth explodes with the taste of soap it's bizarre bc such a tiny piece should not warrant Big Soap

i thought this time my oats wouldnt explode bc i was making savory oats this time and was using water and like. it was doing well for a while but then.... heh... sniffs.....

i literally dont know what to do with these two man

oogh...i feel like.... Piko's genuinely getting fed up with Spirit finally . like they went from wanting to confront it about what happened --> "you dont want to talk about it, fine, i just want to hang out again" --> "ive been thinking about you all these years do you even care about me anymore"

i have like two big deadlines back to back pray for me

every so often i get tempted to buy fukase cosplay shoes just bc i already have a wig and if i have the shoes i can instantly make closet cosplays of him what stops me is i grew up being told to never buy shoes online. and now the tariff situation scares me it's too unstable

heh..... i go t distracted

also im just rly fond of those yukatas, especially Spirit's

i love fukase and yuki with a sibling-like relationship . unfortunately in my spirit unraveler AU that's all in the past for Spirit </3

just remembered this art im still very fond of

it kinda sux that i have some character designs that i have no use for but im just barely attached enough that i don't want to let them go as adopts

yen exchange rate hurts worse than i thought ooof

my brain is burnt out as hell again

I wish it was easier to gauge how much im improving in Japanese

Ok i think i did enough work for now… 1 and a half chapters left for this volume and its 4:30