I put so much work into my ff games session this weekend I hope it's fun. I'm excited to run it.

This week is not letting me rest. At all. Emergency Doctor appointment tomorrow and Dad decides the best idea to suggest to his son with severe anxiety is cancer.

I had a bit of a mental snap last night that I wasn't expecting. I didn't think anything was wrong. I really wish anxiety and depression came with a handbook. I'm okay now, I overslept tho. I hate this. I hate waking up sometimes.

God fucking dammit dude could I get at least an update on my tower?

Today was too much

And I got food poisoning too

Dad might have had a heart attack.

Yesterday went good. And I'm happy for that. It sucks that my brain still find something else to worrry about tho. Like fuck off, let me be.

Well, when your main fan base is neckbeard unemployeed racist, right wing trump supporters and you refuse to denounce white supremacy and in fact play into it this stuff fucking happens. Reap what you sow.

I'm dreading tomorrow. I don't like running sessions on this laptops and I'm just bleh.

Today is big bleh lol

Going to my moms concert tonight. Hopeful it's fun.

I hate waking up with a generally bad feeling about the day.

YOU AIN'T PUSHING ANYTHING OUT BUT SHIT

Toho is reportedly planning to release ‘Godzilla Minus Zero’ in late 2026 (via THR)

My brain no worky today but this remains true.

Got a haircut

jgoiwjpowj I'm going to fist fight anxiety I'm tired.

I want to try and cook something new. I want to make something with fish. Feel free to suggest stuff.

I passed out oops

PC is in the repair shop for a few days. Here's hoping it's a simple fix.

Random Anxiety all day.

It's become irresponsible for me to order out. My favorite wing place raised the price of what I usually get by $12. I don't like the idea of cooking in the kitchen with rats being around even though they've "closed" more holes. Idk what needs to be done to get the fucking exterminators out here.

I'm so jealous of my friends. It takes me like three minutes to write out a multi-sentence reply. And then my friends send a paragraph in 3.4 seconds. 😭

Has anyone else gotten brain zaps when they try and sleep? They'll be laying down and studdenly there's like a zapping noise in your head and you head twtiches but it doesn't hurt or anything? I'll get this checked out though.

I just saw a rat in the kitchen. Fun.

feeling drained and meh today. Idky but we keep trucking.

I'm not trying to be moppy. But taking breaks at work and reading the Asperger subreddit really fucking sucks sometimes. I see so many people complaining about things and people not understanding them and loneliness that I just can't help but feel broken. I already feel socially tired all the time

My captain, my king.

I... ate like 10 tomatos before I realized some of them had fucking mold on them. I hate myself so fucking much I'm so fucking stupid.

Just got my meds at Walmart and they were playing kpop demon hunters

Today is going to be a good fun day. I'm going to write. I'm going to have a good time. I'm not going to let anything or anyone ruin it.

Pink eye, sick, and now there are mice in the apartment again. :/

Social things hard. reading hard. TT_TT

Went to the ER last night. Caught something and I have pink eye at the same time. Hating life.

LADS is wild. I'm seeing screenshots of people straight up grabbing dick bulges in a mobile Gacha game .

Can't sleep. Too busy thinking about some stuff and just getting angry about it.

Might have to move in December. Lol Dad fucked up his paperwork and we might lose the apartment.

Wait is national colonizer day still a fucking holiday? Is that why I see kids running around during school hours? Oh right, he reinstated warmonger atrocity day that fat cheeto fuck.

This is the type of year that I'm all about. Sweater weather, cloudy days, rain, warm skies while the air temperate. I'm hoping the next two weeks is full of spoon gathering.

Just left the bathroom. GERD is great. I love burning chest pain and throwing up.

Old white dudes need to shut the fuck up lol. My dad and some other old dude almost got in a fight in the walmart parking lot. The most white man boomer shit I tell you.

went to order chicken from my favorite place and they raised the prices by $12.

You know.. I might just leave social media all together tbh. Everytime I open this place, or reddit, or elsewhere it's just miserable stuff and I can't even curate it anymore because they put it on your feed regardless.