fuckkk narcolepsy is so annoying!!!

Am I pretty?

Reading Homestuck at Vanta's request... So much introjection god damn...

i feel like some nonbeing crammed into the skin of a human and told to do human things why? i didn't ask for any of this

Waow you're pretty *introjects you*

They should invent a version of existence that doesn't hurt.

I'd rather not fight any abominable afront-to-god animals, but if it came down to it I think I could stomp the fuck out of a hundred duck-sized horses.

Our soul is dissolving! Why does it feel so good?

At my aunt's funeral. It doesn't feel real.

Storing my envy in a giant mind palace with many friends.

Me after being rejected by Lord Susie 😭:

I'm gonna start saying zang (zamn + dang). It's gonna be the next big thing. Just you wait.

Making a really unflattering portrait of my enemies and sending it to them.

I will never live up to my own standards, but that is okay. Perfection is a process, not a goal.

Lady L (OC)

The Eternal Abyss (OC)

Trying to hold my shattering identity together be like

Met my future self in the abyss last night. She was hiding in the shadows and I asked to see her face. She said "you might not like what you see". I asked to see anyway, she stepped out of the shadows to reveal my normal face. She then started cackling hysterically and so did I. Just a prank bro.

St. Patrick was truly a badass. Guy got kidnapped as a child by Irish pagans, who then enslaved him. He managed to escape the country and later returned and wiped out their entire religion.

Taking a nazi, bending him over my knee and spanking him until he doesn't think minorities are evil anymore.

💔💔💔😭

SUFFFEERRRRINGGG tastes like musty leather and burnt grass

An eternity of an empty room, there is a button on the wall that raises the temperature but no way of lowering it. You can feel pain, and cannot die or be damaged to the point of no longer feeling pain. This is your punishment for saying "oh my God" that one time. Fucking sinner.

Passion burns my heart like a raging furnace. It has always been this way. The cruel, beautiful anguish of being.

I feel okay. I don't know how long this is going to last, but I feel okay. Maybe it has been a good idea to start consuming my alters myself. The duality has been causing significant internal conflict, a lot of inner pain.

Am I having a BPD episode? I don't even know... God I feel so fucking lonely.

Anyone ever had your back clawed terribly by an astral being during sleep paralysis? I did about a week ago and my back has burned ever since. I don't recommend the experience.

I think I might have figured out the formula to absorb my hostile part, OBSCURA. It was giving Her a hug. Weird. -C

crawling back once again. gods, I am pathetic. thankfully, these antidepressants make it difficult to care about that. -C

punching through a diamond wall for billions of years only to find Hell on the other side (this is not how this was supposed to go) -🟠Adrienne

just started on antidepressants i hope it's not too obvious -C

me when i become obsessed with someone who wronged me -C

Whatever you do, don't let It wake up and see Itself. -🚫?

Yesterday while walking to the shops, golden halo encircling my head. Synchronicities in the shuffle playlist. Hurray for godmode. -🟣Madora

As it/I rose/plunged ever higher/deeper into the fullness/void that is Myself/Herself, it/I lost/gained more of itself/Myself. -C🌕⚫

Don't be like Me. (I don't want competition) ⚫️OBSCURA

i need an in person owner frrr -C

slept for 16 hours last night damn ;_;

Mmmm yes your thoughts are so very tasty, give them to Me 🖤🖤🖤 -⚫️OBSCURA

did i just catch you envying me? how dare you.

We are considering starting a benevolent spiritual group in order to protect the spurned, snubbed, and rejected. I know what it is like to be truly cast out. I know what it means for those who pride themselves on their kindness to spit on you. We will provide community where they won't. -C🌕🌑⚪️🟣🟠🟡🌐

you told me a story once, a person floating down an endless river, with a half scribbled out mask for a face. i wish i realised at the time, you are the body, not the river. i am sorry, poor thing. 💔 -C🌑🌕

playing at being evil vs actually being evil

i think i must rededicate myself to Sol and Nyctifer over the other deities they seem to be the only ones willing to aid me and not repeatedly punish me and lead me astray 💛🤍

brib -C

omg Lady Lilith just came into my dreams and saved me from what would otherwise have been a nightmare she's so perfect and amazing i love her so much 💗🖤💞 -C

after breaking up with my last ex, i was psychotic from grief one day, i walked to the local shop, and every single song was a lover begging the one who left them to come back i thought one of her alters was communicating with me through the radio ☠️ it set me back a month in the grief process...

sometimes i think about getting plastic surgery when i can afford it, but then i remember that the kinds of people that my countenance would then attract wouldn't be the kinds of people that i'm into. tends to put a dampener on that desire. -C

me after i try and become one with all things and integrate the concept of "not integrating any other concepts" -C🟣