i miss hee.................

i will probably watch the aus performance tomorrow after work but oh my god reading how the songs changed is killing me.

i love how jungwon doesnt know how to just make one comment on a post. ill open a comment notif and there'll be multiple of his comments on a single post. girl.

me: did you know theres a coffee in the fridge with your name on it mgr: AUGH... I FORGOT... an hour later, mgr yelling from afar: AUGH THE COFFEE

wdym it's the middle of march and we're alr in an Extreme Heat Watch... ok........

thinking about how sunoo told heeseung he was so nice he was like an angel

why are my coworkers being so weird about korean fried chicken. dude it's just fucking chicken. wait until they learn about korean bbq. jesus.

my client meeting didnt take long enough to cover the whole other meeting that sucks 💀 they were very nice tho

actually the only silver lining from this week has been that ive been sleeping earlier bc i want to be unconscious so bad ✌️

checked the spam folder in my work email and it was all invites to A/I trainings. what if someone knocked me tf out rn please ty.

back to listening to en- today bc those are my boys wtf

good morning i miss heeseungie

thats so funny i turned on the ps5 and sky was open. i guess i. didnt turn off the ps5 last night. i was actually fucked up last night im ngl i was crazy depressed lmao i was mentally clocked out ✌️

ppl saying that ni-ki was wearing Two of hee's jackets at the airport today is fucking devastating btw!! girl bye!! im running into the desert and crying real hard!!!!!!!

kicks a rock... i miss hee..........

leave to jaywon to be the first to post on wv after everything 😭 hope theyre well

mgr asked what we wanted for dinner and i suggested korean fried chicken even tho i knew they were gonna make fun of me for it and they did 😩 whatever. pay for my chicken.

i am in such a bad mood today 💀

theyre not even going to give us the enoclock content thats already recorded (probably also already edited) that has heeseung in it. im so sad.

i seem to actively be getting worse instead of better 💀 i guess im gonna need more than 2 days to properly process this and mourn the en- i grew to love 🙇

found a nickel in the parking garage im gonna go to the store and buy a single piece of candy

remember when i drove 9hrs by myself to LA to go to the en- pop up shop and universal. im gonna be so fr i was Depressed and i needed to Feel something, so i did That. i am feeling the same way rn like i need to disassociate in the car on a long drive. 🧍but it's. tax season.

maybe im just grumpier than usual (i am.) but coworker is driving me Crazy. theyll ask me a question and when ive answered it and i sit back down bc im done with the convo they'll Stand Up and keep talking. and they keep talking to themselves... please... shared work space... be Quiet

sometimes mgr responds to questions with a tone of "this is so obvious are you fucking stupid" and it pisses me off so bad 💀

i had forgotten about the australian concert when they dropped the news and now it's like. theres no way he wanted to miss this. im so emo.

why are my pets all white... how did this happen... tho i guess technically villin is like. blue. if only he would get baby zapped.

this is unrelated to anything but yesterday there was a new barista and when i asked for a 12oz iced coffee they said they don't do 12oz for iced drinks. ive been having 12oz iced drinks like every day for at least a month but i was like ok whatever 16oz then. anyway im having a 12oz iced mocha rn.

trying to keep up with work and en- news is actually killing me rn we have a deadline in 5 days 💀

from watching the movie on saturday to losing a member on monday. the epic highs and lows of being an enhypen stan all right here for your viewing pleasure.

trying my best to keep listening to en- even tho it makes me crazy sad rn. no way back started playing and im sitting here like. 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

good morning im still thinking about heeseung 🥹

ppl on twt saying they have fancalls with the other 6 members later today is fucking insane btw wow bet you cant guess what topic #1 will be 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 wtf is going on

my computer broke i am having a super good time rn

back to being sad i accidentally matched with heebat today 💀

brief pause in being sad to say this sunoo is cute as hell who is this diva

im done being sad at work it's time to be sad at home 😌

leisi again? no problem

mgr: here i got you some baked not fried chips bc i know you're watching your weight mgr2: yea, watching it go Up

cant tell you how equal parts amusing and annoying it is to get tax prep ads. i am tax prep.

wv: west virginia me: weverse

sitting at work like. no one knows im going thru all the stages of grief rn. 😌

our work vpn isnt working so i played some en- world instead. kicks a rock.

i want to listen to en- but i also dont want to listen to en- 🧍

one of our admin folks is coughing a lot... like a lot a lot... i understand it's busy time rn but if you're Sick...........

external person called me to ask who from our firm should be the rep on this clients account and they went "no offense, but theres been a lot of turnover" 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 we decided on me bc. im not going anywhere. as much as i hate this place.

completely unrelated to anything ever. these are my charms on my work lanyard. 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

ok work now goodbye forever 🧍

en- twt post... lays on the ground and lets the rain wash me away

getting Really Sad when heeseungs parts come up in a song 💀 rly enjoying this Really Painful exposure therapy. desensitizing. coping.

me, thru tears: im so excited for his solo album