note to self: don’t try to listen to an audiobook and do another task requiring any level of concentration simultaneously you WILL loose focus on the book and you WILL have to start the chapter over 📖

the apartment we live in now is so much older + cheaper [less ‘luxe’] than our previous one yet the sound proofing ?? a BAJILLION times better we very rarely hear anything at all, and even then it’s faint vibration bass noises can we build nothing good now ???!

ʚ┊new scheduleeee ♡ 1 december - 7 december ———————— #faestreamia ———————— 🎨 faeastria.carrd.co/#credits 🖌️ vgen.co/rosuwon 💿 twitch.tv/faeastria ———————— 🗓️ faeastria.carrd.co/#schedule

i don’t think i’ve ever seen one of those ‘i think my account is limited, pls interact’ posts with less than 100 likes buuut i suppose the actually limited ones would never show up anyway … i wish all those accounts a very ‘sorry this platform is shit’ 🫂

for a lot of streamers it really isn’t as simple as ‘stream what you wanna stream and whenever you wanna !!’ i’ve said it before but streaming with an actual chat to engage with is the enjoyable part for most of us anything that would risk that often doesn’t feel worth it

streaming to no one + streaming to some ppl are two separate hobbies if ur a natural gamer then occasional yaps alongside five hours of gaming will be the hobby i am NOT - outside of streaming i dont play anything for even 2+ hours at a time my hobby is the interactions 😖

how is it that i had 0 tummy troubles for my whole life up until ~ 3 years ago now its lit something i have to plan around because i can’t deal with solid foods for a good 3 hours in the morning 🙄

every time i feel like ive got my life together, i know i will inevitably look back at this moment and see so much that i could have done better but thats how i know i’ve progressed and learned more about myself 😌

does anyone still use threads ?? what even goes down on there ?? what’s the vibe ?? 🤔

sorry to the liquid glass haters but i’m a fan i think they should have thought more about accessibility absolutely but as a design concept i’m a fan of the bloopiness 🫧

keeping on top of medication should NOT be this difficult and yet here i am, finding it difficult 🫠

i find it near impossible to push myself to do things i don’t enjoy streaming ?? easy, i love doing that editing ?? scheduling ?? outreach ?? brand management ?? nope, nope, and nope 😤

we've been invited to game with strawbearty over on their channel on wednesday 26th november at 3pm 🎬 make sure to support the host !! 🌸

i have most definitely overbooked our weekends i tried to give us one weekend of doing stuff then one week of chill … hasn’t really worked out that way so probably gonna be a bit sleepier than usual !! 😴

ʚ┊new scheduleeee ♡ 24 november - 30 november ———————— 🎨 faeastria.carrd.co/#credits 🖌️ vgen.co/rosuwon 💿 twitch.tv/faeastria ———————— 🗓️ faeastria.carrd.co/#schedule

i want this hobby to remain a hobby, i don’t want it to be a job but i also LOVE streaming to more ppl, engaging with more viewers, yapping about more things i don’t think that can happen while enjoying this as a hobby and not working at it like a job … that makes me sad ☹️

now is the perfect time to completely uproot my streaming schedule and content overall because … well … not like it can get much worse !! 🙃

the screen time feature on apple products could be SO useful if you could just tell it not to include certain apps like bruh no i’m not on my phone this much per day, yeah my phone is OPEN but i’m streaming pls 😖

audible’s subscription + credit system is so crappy 🥴

do other countries in the world have an equivalent to bonfire night ?? like an excuse to focus on fun firework displays ?? or is it just saved for new year’s eve elsewhere ?? bonfire night is genuinely one of my favourite traditions 🎆

grab tidal surge while you can 🌊 brought back for a limited time during black friday, now is your chance to try it, or stock up while it’s available if you enjoyed it during its initial run !! use code ‘pouf’ for savings at checkout + a lil support for me 🫶🏻

i'm gonna be streaming with strawbearty tomorrow on their channel !! we'll try to start at 3pm ish 💫 make sure to support the host !! 🌸

contemplated having a chatting part before gaming in streams but like … i really have nothing to chat about, my yap skills are on a consistent decline and i just dunno if i can fill that time in an entertaining wayyyy 😭

no no no we do NOT agree to disagree i have made the effort to inform myself about the issue while YOU haven’t even used a search engine for it ONCE YOU don’t even have the knowledge to KNOW what you’re DISAGREEING with me ABOUT 😡

it will forever grind my gears when someone believes restating they have done 0 research, have 0 knowledge, and 0 experience [even second hand] about an issue, is enough for them to restate harmful opinions without consequence 😒

🌐 #art

‘i lost followers over this’ you’re CHECKING ?? people are CHECKING ?? do you not value your mind ?? your SANITY ?? 😨

i wonder if past me would be disappointed in present me … or if she would appreciate that i’m comfy and i’m happy, even if i’m not the society definition of successful 😌

ʚ┊new scheduleeee ♡ 17 november - 23 november ———————— 🎨 faeastria.carrd.co/#credits 🖌️ vgen.co/rosuwon 💿 twitch.tv/faeastria ———————— 🗓️ faeastria.carrd.co/#schedule

routine changes are so stressful 😥

hyper focusing is usually BAD ‼️ yes you get a lot done, but sometimes it’s for something useless yes you absorb information quickly, but it’s just as quickly forgotten yes you become hyper productive, but not in the most important areas like health + self care

forever sharing my ideas with my boyfriend and bestie to validate my decisions i’m always worried i’ve missed something or not considered something that would make my ideas bad, but they help me process it + figure stuff out every time 🌸

our bunny bit through both of my 3ds chargers and i’m hankering for some ds era pokémon gameplay guess i gotta replace those cables … again [yes he has bitten them before rip] 😮‍💨

nvm i was overdramatic this morning lol i was just sleepy collab with @strawbearty.com is back on at 3pm gmt !!

i'm gonna be taking today and tomorrow off to recover from sickie 🌡️ if i'm meant to be streaming or doing anything else online + social during the next few days then they're cancelled ☹️ take care poufs !!

an update for my current and future clients: sadly i'll have to start upping my prices starting from dec, as my disability income has been cancelled by the government. this extra money is what i used to pay most of my bills as i'm disabled and unable to work an in-person job. +

i want to multi stream to youtube but i also want a united community - i don’t want either platform to feel favoured, i want a combined chat and the same features across both [or as similar as i can make them] that’s a big ask, but just know i’m working towards it !! 🫶🏻

i wonder before i knew much about asd, how often i felt intense anxiety because of change but just didn’t realise that was something one COULD feel anxious over all of those suppressed emotions i must have dealt with so young ☹️ i wish i could go back and help her 😣

we've been invited to game with strawbearty over on their channel on friday 14th november at 3pm 🎬 make sure to support the host !! 🌸

wish our flat pointed towards the midday sun more thinking of how we could use mirrors to bounce the light in more areas of the flat … it’s always bright but i looove direct sunlight ☀️

i will always encourage people to take a look at what they do in a day and review each thing !! could any of them be automated ?? made easier ?? cut entirely ?? habits and schedules are great but remember to make sure it’s working for you 🙂‍↕️

so hard to stay cozy and warm when too many layers causes SO much overstimulation 🫠

now i take more medication, my clever little med holding necklace doesn’t hold enough anymore but i couldn’t find exactly what i was after online, so my boyfriend is making me a custom one !!! 🥰

ʚ┊new scheduleeee ♡ 10 november - 16 november ———————— #faestreamia ———————— 🎨 faeastria.carrd.co/#credits 🖌️ vgen.co/rosuwon 💿 twitch.tv/faeastria ———————— 🗓️ faeastria.carrd.co/#schedule

first thing i’m doing if we manage to buy the place we’re renting atm is replacing the extractor fan with one as effective but as QUIET as possible they stress me the HECKIE out, surely i’m not the only one ?!??

my happy place is snuggled on the sofa with the boyfriend watching nature documentaries 🐟

i hate it when you get super annoying symptoms out of nowhere - not connected to a virus or allergy or anything, just BOOM problems 🫩

i hate it when nail polish decides to just … turn to gloop i have no idea how to avoid this, i try my best to take good care of my polishes but every time they become unusable in their consistency 😥

joining a game of repo with @strawbearty.com today on their channel at 3pm gmt ish !! they’ll be using their new live2d model for the first time aaaah i’m so excited for her 🥹 is my first time playing repo so watch me get scared probably 💀

working out in autumn/winter is so much harder because i just want to stay cozy and it is VERY hard for me to stay hyped about it in the cold 🥶