too drunk. forehead to toilet seat while ellie goulding is blasting

period pains……. kill me

i wasn’t meant to be a person i was meant to be a little forest animal

i wish i could understand people better so i could teach myself to be more likable long term. i’m tired of being the friend that builds people up so much that they feel the need to put me down/make fun of me/whatever why does my affection create such an easy target

when will i stop feeling like a product for purchase

i want to be held and for it not to feel like it’s out of pity

don’t want to sleep but i am so sad for no reason (my period is about to annihilate my body)

listening to music is getting hard again

if i didn’t worry so much about everything all the time i would have a lot more space in my head for actual knowledge and maybe i wouldn’t feel so god damn stupid

i’m tired of falling asleep and seeing my face melt into my mothers or being surrounded by flames in bed or reliving events that don’t need to be relived

do medications that help you stop having nightmares impact your quality of sleep

i just need to get a job that takes up all my time so i can’t think about anything anymore

at least i have my little itty bitty fantasies inside my head where i escape it all and wander down streets of cities i’ll probably never see firsthand

i want to put on fun little outfits and let wonder overwhelm me and try more food and learn more about the world i live in

i’ve figured out ways to travel this continent but i want to see more

i want to visit so many places and it makes me so sad to know that i will never be able to achieve that on my own

i want to visit florence so bad

fuck my local train for being so expensive

my ass looks incredible today. god bless

i shouldn’t let people treat me like a guilty pleasure i have to believe it is possible to be celebrated openly

and i will never be anyone’s dirty little secret ever again

just enough to feel like a person and not be consumed with the shame of taking up space on earth

i don’t need romantic love i just need to be understood and not secretly hated

“you know that taxes get you your health insurance right” “if you pay them” “so you’re just taking from the system and not giving anything back like the people you complain about” “exactly” ?!?!??????

i was constipated for like two days now i can’t stop shitting</3 free me

and they say romance is dead

why are people so careless and cruel to me the more i open my heart to them

valentine’s day sucks because all day i think about the thing that made me resent it

happy valentine’s day to the extra pathway in my heart please kill me at a cool time and not during something stupid like an anxiety attack love u

i am better at setting boundaries and not letting people disrespect me now. fingers crossed

last time i had my adult face as my icon someone told me that if i kill myself i should do it in a freezer so they can thaw out my corpse and fuck it let’s hope we don’t get another repeat of all that lmao

pinned my bangs back and i look kinda evil

local pizza shop owner is going insane and posting pics of people smoking cigs with a wall of ranting text under each one in the front window this is killing me

why am i feeling so ashamed to be alive today

my body feels like an overfilled water balloon resting on very dry and sharp grass

anyway my dad was confronted by the duck club he’s in and was asked not to run for president again because half the club would leave if he did so now he’s Really On One

i am trying so hard to be kind to myself and build myself back up but it is very hard when i am constantly being yelled at and put down for very very small things :/

stop flirting with me i’m evil and stupid and everything i touch detonates

i kinda wanna change my icon on main

yes i can count the number of times i’ve been called handsome on one hand yes i do sit down and think about each time almost every single day

pissed off and anxious and weed isn’t helping

is it too much to ask to have things communicated to me directly instead of being subbweeted on this website or am i crazy

my brother is the only person in my immediate family who genuinely respects me and it really really really means a lot to me that he puts effort into making sure i’m comfortable around his friends

officially Quitting a certain type of work has left me penniless but Free my body was never meant to be a product that can be purchased

and FUCK YOU FOR KEEPING MY URANIUM GLASS COLLECTION

shoutout lesbianism and drugs

you’re welcome to oomf’s neighbor who i made eye contact with as my shirt was coming off 🤩

it’s such a cutiepie little tiny airport i think i will sit at the bar with my journal and sip a drink mysteriously before i board

FLYING OUT OF THE SNOOPY AIRPORT TONIGHT

clocked