ngl sometimes a good walk to the mailbox is just a nice thing to do. not my mailbox though. spiders

🥺🥺🥺🥺 KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i might edit it and add more images over time... but for now, it's good enough! :D tell me things and draw me pictures 💚 melsie.straw.page

once im finished taking notes from my group therapy sessions, im going to remake my straw page and share it! excited :D

my orientation went super well and im really looking forward to getting match with my group 🥹

always so embarrassing when u sign up for a 9-12 week long program and afterwards u feel completely normal fir the first time in weeks. forget everything i said. not an ounce of mental illness in this body

made my first gluten free grilled cheese today, it was ✨️delicious✨️ !

it went great! had a minor meltdown over scheduling conflicts until i just decided to reach out and ask for a different day 😅 hope it continues to go well :)

rhododendron 💗

rlly not feeling good. i hope my IOP intake goes well tomorrow :)

its rlly always be the millionaires who got handed their exorbitant wealth for doing absolutely nothing but being white and attractive that say the bullshit like "just get a job" and "no one wants to work anymore" 💀💀💀

home from therapy and got set up for my outpatient program :) i feel very emotionally drained and my anxiety is horrendous but i'll get through it and i hope it helps

may my abuser one day realize why it is that nearly everyone who has ever gotten close to them hates them

#fuckai #aiisfascist

i rlly can't decide on a favorite song from noah kahan's new album but absolutely loving downfall

life so overwhelming rn :( but at least i got gluten free cheez its yay

had such a fun time playing the new repo update last night with friends 🥺 all the new stuff is so cool!!! im so excited to unlock more cosmetics

when ur finally willing to accept someone u thought was ur friend just doesnt gaf about u and maybe they never did bc why did they say such hurtful things when i was already struggling

i have such a hard time interacting w and following new users i just auto assume no one wants to interact w me and ill weird them out 😭

wanna do a thread soon about my tomodachi life island :D it's entirely OCs, because I really enjoyed the ability to make up my own stories for them!

i think noah kahan wrote willing and able to mentally shoot me point blank with a bazooka

₊˚⊹⋆ about me ⋆⊹˚₊ ꕤ mel, she/her, 25, lesbian, chronically & mentally ill ꕤ interests: 🎮ffxiv (ft), endfield, tomolife ltd, minecraft, many others indie games! 🧶art, books, crochet, music ꕤ dni: basic criteria, proship, ed/shtwt, minors looking for moots, selective fb! ♡/↻ pls! #promosky

had the momentary urge to be alive and do things but that is gone now. back to bed

hi all :) did you miss me? a lot has happened in my life recently, and there is Still a lot happening, but I've been missing this app and my mutuals recently 💚 so i think im officially returned to this app :D

i think im gonna go on a bit of a bsky hiatus and focus on other socials :3 if oomfs want to stay in contact id be very happy to exchange discords, and you can also follow me on tumblr @appleferns and pinterest @applefern :D

oh...is mercury in retrograde? that explains a lot

hey, uh, y'all *do* know that chatgpt *is* generative ai, too, right? it's not just art. gen-ai is not just stealing & scraping the internet for art, it is *also* stealing & scraping the internet for all types of written word. you cannot be anti gen-ai and still use chatgpt. all gen-ai is harmful.

I like the new bird

ngl. feel very fortunate im discovering i might have an issue with gluten After gluten free oreos came out. ill survive chat

when im messaging among others in a group about thoughts and opinions and everything i say is just getting completely overlooked as they all reply to each other and its like i might as well not even be there. haha. ha.

OH MY GOD MY FREE 10 PULL. THEY FAKED ME OUT AGAIN IT WAS A 5* ON THE LEVER 😭 THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

my test results were normal. i feel very demoralized. it was so incredibly perfect and checked a lot of boxes with what im dealing with but i guess that means nothing. i feel so crazy constantly experiencing so much difficulty getting through the day and then im just told im completely healthy.

ppl dont talk enough about how much it fucking sucks to have joint pain in ur hands. so im here to do that. IT FUCKING SUCKS TO HAVE JOINT PAIN IN UR HANDS I NEED THOSE TO DO LITERALLY EVERYTHING AND NOW EVERYTHING HURTS 😫😫😫😫😫

when im reminded and have flashbacks to when i was bullied by people enabled by my abuser and how terrifying it was to suddenly have ur only support system turn on u. hhhh

they poked me and stole my blood :D i prob won't know results until monday, so now i wait with bated breath. i have so many identical symptoms ill be really lost again if this isn't it :C but what's meant to be, will be!

u really don't realize how much stuff in america has gluten until u might have to go gluten free o-o

Rem has to eat his sketti... or else

impulsively messaged my doctor about getting some blood work done based entirely on a suspicion i have, and the sweetheart that she is she sent the orders in, so im getting that done in an hour! 😭 wish me luck! i hope i get some of my questions answer at least 💚

ive gotten a lil addicted to deadlock. its sm fun esp w friends :3

srry im posting a lot of hot takes lately my hormones are outta wack and im one bad day away from committing arson

hot take i think it's incredibly scummy to not only put music behind a pay wall but a limited time paywall, as artists should not treat their fans differently and give them special treatment for simply having expendable funds. yes this is about twenty one pilots and drag path

im so fucking happy jacksepticeye played myvoicezoo i needed this

hot take it really frustrates me when people are like "i don't like confrontation/what if the truth upsets them" i fear speaking negatively about people behind their back is a far worse way to hurt someone than simply being honest with them, that behavior traumatizes people for life

everything i wanja be im just not. i wanna be a creative person and i cant do shit without just copying from others

im so stupid ihm

trying to explore and pursue my passions and dreams in life only to learn a lot of it involves things i just can't physically do because of chronic illness. i wish every day i wasn't sick

a week ago i almost ⚰️ed myself and now im sat here kinda wishing i did. i have such a difficult time talking about my mental health, esp the severe aspects, bc of the abuse i went through. my therapist tells me to reach out but i just get too scared atp. i make ppl uncomfortable. im sorry its heavy

just hurting really badly today about the abuse and mistreatment i faced for just. my entire life. by the people i loved and trusted most. i just wanted to be loved. they never loved me. they never even liked me