also my family left for their beach trip today which i could not go to because i dont get enough fucking vacation days to actually take a real vacation 😒

oh no halfway thru mermay and i still haven't gotten my mermaid stede fic polished enough to share 😂

i'm gonna be That Guy and just say........... kinda embarrassing to have a game that needs 150 bug fixes 🙄

man loaded up my ts2 game for the first time in a while but forgot that i hadn't played for so long because my legacy family lot got sooooooo laggy lmfao, i checked out some other lots and they were fine so it's like wehhhh i gotta build them a new house, don't i? and there is no room left in the

been playing a new coral island save like crazy lately, my Ed inspired farmer just got a new tattoo which I felt had the same vibes as trust no one, lol, and look at their new mermaid form!!!!

also breathing underwater turns 4 this month and I'm like damn the dedication but also I'm like damn ur still not finished with it???? 😂

have not done shit at work today lmfao rly wish I was home working on mermay or sensual September stuff but alas. and by the time I get home, I'll probably be all out of mental energy and won't even feel like picking up my laptop 😮‍💨

making stede a new tail for tomorrow's mermay prompt ♥️

woke up feeling Not Good I'm so annoyed I was supposed to do stuff with Julie today!!!! 😞

had dinner with an old online friend tonight, hadn't seen her in almost a decade and it was so nice to reconnect 😊 also met her husband who is very nice, and I'm just. idk I felt rly bad and like I had let our friendship kinda fizzle out when I was Going Thru It but turns out she was also going thru

wow i slept sooo poorly last night, lol, i think i was all keyed up feeling excited abt a Project and organizing fics?? 😂 hate organizing except if it's something im rly interested in 😂 and idk, ppl saying nice things and showing interest in my WIP stuff and it just made me a little wired i think

trying to decide if i want to make my mermaid stede fics a separate ao3 series, right now they are just shoved into the BU series to keep everything together but idk 🤔 i think i only have 2 iirc so maybe not worth it yet?

(cw pet death related) randomly hit with such a wave of grief and missing Minnie that left as quickly as it came on but I did have a little cry abt it???

rainy afternoon playing coral island with mr dandy 🪸 🏝️✨

never posted any pics from my trip, smh, here's a few!! 🥰

had to be at work longer than i care to be on a friday so i'd only have to use half a vacation day for when i was sick on monday, but i did get........ some writing done. will it ever see the light of day? remains to be seen altho i would like to have it done sometime for mermay

train leaves in 4 hours 😱

thinking abt my trip on Friday like

also ordered a new phone because mine has gotten real sluggish and has started doing this thing where it just. won't turn on or off for several minutes, and im worried abt it happening for good somewhere important, like when im in ny next weekend, or if im at julies and need the gps to get home etc

waited until the last minute to do my taxes and then rushed thru them just to get it over with but now im like oh my god what if i messed somethign up???????? 😅 which is a pattern in my life, lmfao, rush thru stuff and then panic that i did it Bad 😔

all morning I kept thinking why does April 9 feel like an important date? and then I remembered 😂😂😂

I always get a lot of compliments on this dress and I'm like heheheee they dont even know!!! 🤭

pretty gif of the water in sulani, now that i've started recoloring that world!! 🌊✨ #ts4

woke up way too early and already thinking abt closing my eyes again, lol, but i have a telehealth appt in 1.5 hrs so that'd probably just be. a bad idea 😂

train tickets for NY.......... have been purchased 😱

rly missing my girlfriend rn!!! would love to be held!!!! missing physical contact in general tbh I feel like I don't..... get much of it anymore? 😂

ed and stede are going to live here..... someday..... ✨ #ts4

still have not bought my train tickets to ny for rhys' show, lol, i keep procrastinating because i am Scared, and i cannot see myself actually going thru with it, like it seems so far out of my comfort zone it almost feels like a joke? idk, i have therapy tomorrow so hopefully my therapist will get

cw pet death related: cleaned up the space around minnies grave and made a little fairy mushroom circle around it. will eventually paint something on that stone but I want my dad to power wash it first 💜🪦🍄

started playing reka today and i rly rly rly want to enjoy it, seems very ME but so far it's not entirely holding my interest, and it doesn't rly run Great on the deck despite being compatible. i only JUST made the chicken house tho so hopefully now things will get more exciting 😂

would love to get up and pee but someone is making my laptop overheat by warming his butt on it 😂😂😂

idk what im gonna do abt my adhd medication, man, the lower dose is just not doing it for me!!! i am not having a good time 😅 i miss how good i felt on the higher dose, but it was a lil more than the max rec'd dosage, and it did make me rly tense and sore, and there isn't rly an in between dosage,

think i am gonna finally learn how to mod on steam deck because one of my simblr moots has been posting their modded stardew game and MAN i miss mine!!!

something very special abt being just the right amount of stoned and comfy cozy playing a farm sim ☺️

started a new fields of mistria save to play the latest update and look at my adorable, definitely not Ed inspired farmer!!! ☺️

weirdly not busy day at work, which is kinda annoying because I have stuff that needs done but I don't have all the bits and pieces of any one thing to accomplish any of it 😞 made an eye Dr appt tho, FINALLY!!! lol I have not been since pre-covid and gf keeps sending me rly cute glasses she sees

gf said some nice things to me today that helped up my confidence abt going to NY and I think .... I am gonna try and get my train tickets on Thursday when I get paid, and will hopefully be thru the pms and everything won't feel Quite so scary 😂

i am here once again to tell you abt the joys of sitting outside in the sun for even like 5 minutes ☀️ that shit is great!!!!!!

hmmm all of my ofmdsims have been flagged as immortal for years, and then all the sudden as i was playing today they started dying one by one, and i was like UMMMMMMM?????????!!!!! so i quit until i can figure out what is going on, lol, i dont want to turn of aging completely because i like the npcs

wanted to show off some more of my progress on this!!! #ts4

been rly considering getting a switch 2 cause I rly wanna play the new pokemon lmfao, but man that is a hefty price tag 😂

okay sat outside in the sun and smoked a joint and tried to convince myself that is what matters moreso than the amount of notes I do or do not get online 😂😂

trying VERY hard not to be discouraged that my newest fic update post got 4 likes in 3 hours but MAN. rly trying to convince myself that it's because i used izzy's name in the alt text and a lot of ppl have it muted (i do, anyway, lol) and not because no one is interested anymore but. alas.

feeling quite low today and I am sure it is hormones and trying to get by on less medication than I rly need and some work stuff that made me feel a lot of RSD, and just being burnt out and overwhelmed in general, but man!!! so weepy!!!!

still having an anxiety afternoon, which is annoying!!! i was doin a lot better there for a little bit so now it feels even worse than normal i think, lol. trying to talk myself thru it but i am not the best at that, it's almost like i feel like i Have To wallow in my bad feelings because..... ?

had such a nice time with julie yesterday, it's so neat to have someone close enough to spend a few hours with on a whim!!! ☺️

corresponding with a freight company via email today and they kept calling me sir and I never know how to respond to that so I didn't correct them 😂😂😂

it's Friday!!!! I'm home and cozy in my bed and I get to hang out with @1109.bsky.social tomorrow!!! ☺️☺️☺️

a little stoned but was just absolutely entranced by a gifset of Ed n Stede's first kiss, wtf they were so smiley and cute I cannot believe I got to witness this with my own eyes????? 🤩🥹

next part of BU is done, finished editing it this morning but feeling weirdly anxious about it????? and it's not like it's anything out of the ordinary, mostly just more smutty stuff lol, but idk i am just feeling a lot of self doubt lately? which also isn't anything out of the ordinary i guess 😅