feeling profoundly thankful to be alive. there is art for me to make, nature for me to see, cookies for me to bake, chubby women with huge butts to take on dates; love, joy, excitement & more is out there for me, & I am excited to discover it all with each passing day

feeling profoundly thankful to be alive. there is art for me to make, nature for me to see, cookies for me to bake, chubby women with huge butts to take on dates; love, joy, excitement & more is out there for me, & I am excited to discover it all with each passing day

i know furry characters are just fictional but if animal people were real I would totally date a furry lady. I think snuggling a woman with fur during winter when its cold would feel amazing

I don't know who needs to know, but as someone who briefly worked on Simpsons licensed merch, the pantone for the family's skin is Pantone 116 C

I know I have my roots drawing cute monsters, toys, & fanart, but I'm really enjoying drawing tasteful pinups in my 'pinup phase'. I'm still in my butts & boobs phase lol. I know it's not for everyone, but I am drawing this stuff for me, primarily, & I've really had fun with it

I'll forever be the guy who loves curvy women, but there's this cute alt Latina lady on Insta who's thin, & I'm extremely attracted to her. Oftentimes a preference is not all or nothing, & truth is I'd happily date a skinny woman if we had the right connection. Attraction is nuanced!

Sometimes the absence of pain can FEEL like healing, but that's not true healing. Life is supposed to be lived, & the answer to the terrible 3 years I went through isn't me locking myself away in my room shiny hunting in old Pokemon games forever. I'm special & I deserve to live, out in the world..

working on another pin up illustration, a cute dino lady🦖 furry/anthro characters who are dinos are some of my favorite

as someone who's had a lot of challenging moments in my life, I genuinely hate at parties when I'm asked about my life & the answer involves something really fucking sad that happened to me. I'm not trying to be a Debbie Downer!!

feeling depressed about my life; going to bake cinnamon coffee cake and shiny hunt in Legends Arceus for a bit

ultimately it comes down to the fact that I don't know what to do about the pain of being single for so long, the emotional sting when I realize I've had this need to love someone & it's gone unfulfilled for years. I have a lot of grief over it. I just want to love a woman & be loved in return.😞

vent: I really wish I had met my soulmate by now. There are so many people my age (40) who have been married for 10+ years. Chronic singledom fucking hurts. I'm not expecting a woman to 'fix me', but I would give anything to have a woman genuinely say to me that she loved me. Really struggling rn

posted a new pin-up illustration on my main acct. It's been too long.. I'm trying to get back into art. I had forgotten how much I love drawing thick ladies with huge rear ends lol

if I can be self-indulgent, an actress that I find super attractive & gorgeous & sexy is Stephanie Beatriz. She's so cute. She was cute in Brooklyn 99 in her 30s and she's cute as hell in her 40s.

Finally, a therapist for me

saw a post that angered me. This account posted a positive thing for each of the Zodiac signs, like "Aries -- passionate", etc, except for my sign, Aquarius, they listed a negative thing "hard to understand" Why is it that they wrote a nice trait for each sign except for Aquarius. Fuck that acct

Boomers wouldn't last a hot fucking second in the hellscape that Millennials and Gen Z have to live in. They wouldn't last a second in our job & housing market.

my former boss emailed me BEGGING me to come back & freelance for them. I left this job months ago because, in part, the stress was overwhelming & I was afraid of a cardiac event. Coming back for freelance would be like the equivalent of sticking my head into a volcano. I'm not doing it. I'm not.

Ugh. Another insomnia flareup..🫠 I am trying to sleep but my brain will just not quiet down to rest. Damn..

Legends Arceus. How I love you.

i know I'm the guy who loves pear-shaped ladies but every now & then I see a thin lady who lights my fire. there's this psychologist gal on Insta who is thin & twiggy, & despite not being my normal type I'm like crazy attracted to her. Human attraction is complex & isn't all or nothing

Kinda bums me out how little reach I have on my main account.. it's fine, I know social media doesn't really matter but unless something I post is Pokemon or Nintendo related, no one cares. Shit like this reinforces my depression. 🫠

I don't mean to be a downer but I'm not into the new designs for the Star Fox characters in the new game. They look a little too realistic. I think some of the fun in Star Fox is that the animals are a little stylized, saturated-colors, slightly playful. They lose charm when hyper realistic.

you ever think about when someone deserving of a makeover finally gets one and it's horrible and you feel bad that their big chance was wasted? Anyway this is a post about Mega Excadrill

drifloon is one of those rare Pokemon designs that isn't a legendary or starter that just sticks with people It's a perfect design The purple coloring, the x bandage, the cloud tufts, the cute appearance Genuinely an S tier design. I'm not a huge gen 4 fan, but Drifloon is art

artistic expression is great and all but I'm kind of not loving the sheer deluge of pin up Jar Jars people are drawing??? c-could maybe we take a breather on the sexy Jar Jars lol? I'm not a prude (I draw pinups) but its just a near constant array of What If Jar Jar had Huge Naturals

lowkey feel bad for my mutuals who follow this account sometimes because I'm kind of going throw Some Real Shit™ right now, & that's not exactly a fun thing to read. Like I don't mean to post the 900th post about how I'm Anxious about possibly being alone forever, or my issues w/ other stuff

My passion is imagining & drawing gorgeous animal ladies. No one in college cared about my furry art, & in general there have been large periods of my life where people around just didn't get it/were indifferent to it. But this is my space, so I'll post what I want. Furry art is in my blood.

beach day in one-piece swimsuits for my ocs Melva the wolf, Tazzi the cat, & Montie the bear

beach day in one-piece swimsuits for my ocs Melva the wolf, Tazzi the cat, & Montie the bear

One of my ocs, Marlee the dog, cutely aging

One of my ocs, Marlee the dog, cutely aging

I've come a long way in my growth, but anytime I reach out/comment on a friend's post, there's that part of me that thinks 'You're inconveniencing them. They secretly are annoyed. Leave them alone.' I'm still trying to get over the inherent feeling of 'You're Unwanted'. It's a process..

you ever have a youtuber that you fall out of love with their videos? I'm not talking about like, a youtuber who was later revealed to be a bad person; I mean more like, over time a youtuber's videos just go in a direction that you just don't like anymore? I've had that with a few folks..

genuinely shocked at how spritzing just a few squirts of distilled vinegar on the armpit parts of my shirts got rid of deodorant staining & sweat stains. I know this is an incredibly "I'm 40" thing to be excited about LOL

I like living in an apartment building, but I swear every time I open the door into the hallway to take the trash out, without fail every time there's like an entire family having a reunion in the hallway. It's not that I mind hallway traffic but it is ALWAYS when I open the door/have a place to go

"Can someone pick me up from the hospital in a car seat? Because apparently I look like I was born yesterday" is one of the funniest things I've seen lately as a response 😆

insomnia thoughts no one will read: i sometimes think my art dream, being amazing at drawing anatomy, is maybe something I'm not wired for. I feel like drawing cute little chibi creatures is what I'm great at. Part of me is like is it wrong to want to draw people? am I wasting my time? idk..

my art-block has been one of the worst bouts I've ever had.. I'm trying to draw a cute bear mascot character for myself and the entire time, my inner-critic is like 'This is boring. This is uninspired. Oh wow, a bear, how original. No one will care. You're a hack. You have nothing to 'say'."

if I can be a hater for a second: I hate pull-apart cupcakes. Like when someone frosts over 8 cupcakes next to each other & makes it look like a giant turtle or something. I think the frosting ratio is gross & unwieldly.

gonna try & have a nice dinner tonight, to help w/ my current bout of depression & hopelessness.

I'm not doing great, mentally-speaking, at the moment. I'm not in the place to date right now, obviously, but I'm just so nervous that when I finally DO get back out there I'll get my heart broken. Ugh. I know that no one can predict the future, but good lord I wish I could turn off my anxiety

remembered being lonely & single in 9th grade, & one of the older guys in Band class was like, "Mark there's this girl who likes you!" and it turns out it was just a fucking joke & there was no girl. Fuck you, Josh. I'm not losing sleep over it, but that was still needlessly cruel. Teenagers suck

saw a video on Instagram of rows and rows of beautiful Pokemon plush at a thrift store, & I felt a sharp pang in my heart for those unloved toys. I know they're not alive, but as someone who loves toys, to whom toys are sacred, it saddens me to think of those plush w/o someone to love & own them

I dislike the style of flirting w/ teasing. I was a nerdy guy in school in the 90s/early 2000s who sometimes got teased for my interests. When a woman play-teases me, I just feel like that 14 y.o. boy who was called weird for liking X-Men. I hate how prevalent tease-flirting is. It's not for me.

as a furry artist, sometimes I wish I could visit a world where everyone was an animal person. I think that would be COOL haha; I just wouldn't want to leave😅

the amount of love I have to give.. it is so much. I say that not sadly, but, with optimism. One day I'll meet the right woman & she will be so loved, so wrapped up in my love, & I look forward to that everyday

slight tmi: I've always been a very sexual person but I feel like lately my sex drive has actually increased as I've aged. At 40 I feel more frisky than I did at 20. I know each body is different & there's no one way to experience physical sensations like arousal, but it's interesting all the same