another of my skinny ocs, Linda, a cute late 20s squirrel woman. She's also biracial, half Chinese/half Mexican. She is a cheerful nerd & works as a hairstylist. (This is an older file, sorry for the lower res/compression artifacts)

my romance manifestation where I visualize a partner before sleep is working 🖤 last night was second night in a row where I dreamed of a sweet gf. she was chubby, wearing pink outfit & hoodie, she had black hair & was so sweet & even gave me a kiss👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨 I really feel like my visualizations are working

I am feeling a good bit better about things. I had some time to calm down and reflect. I am choosing gratitude and joy and curiosity in my life. It is a special thing to be alive. I have art to make, cookies to bake, friends to visit & love to be found. & I'm thankful for that.

Got an appointment for a hair dye session this Thursday! I'm gonna look so hot 🔥 LOL

Something that bugs me about young artists is that for a lot of them, they don't really know what aging looks like, & so their ocs in their 40s look like they're in their SIXTIES. Yes, aging is different for everyone, but a 40 year old OC shouldn't look geriatric.

I think it's finally hitting my subconscious that I'm no longer at my old job. I was dreaming last night and I was on a business trip in the dream for my old job. Then I was like, to myself, 'Wait a minute. I don't work here. I don't have to be here or do this'. That was really cool.

more proof I don't just draw chubby women. Bimby Ramos, a cute 'fun-size' Filipina dog lady with a huge nose. Yes I know I draw all my characters at 3/4 angle facing left, I have a problem lol, I *know* #furry

more proof I don't just draw chubby women. Bimby Ramos, a cute 'fun-size' Filipina dog lady with a huge nose. Yes I know I draw all my characters at 3/4 angle facing left, I have a problem lol, I *know* #furry

lately I've been drawing my female characters with big noses & it's cute lol. I'm having fun. Every woman should have a big nose. #bignoseforallthecutegalsintheworld

religion rant: I don't believe in the bible as literal fact. A lot of religion as we know it was built to control the patriarchy & keep people in check & I say this AS someone who believes in God. Anytime I see someone who's like 'Read your bible for a good life', I'm like oh man you bought the lie

I don't care if it sounds sappy or delusional or optimistic; this is a cold hard world and sometimes you simply have to believe in the positive outcomes you want to see. I am choosing to believe in the outcomes I want to see. Sometimes hope is necessary.

no matter what went down w/ my previous 2 toy design jobs, I will never stop loving toys. Plush toys are part of my soul. I know that I chose to incarnate into this life to make toys. They are my super power, & I will never stop. I can never stop. Toys are who I am.. forever & always.

posting proof that I don't -only- draw heavy gals, this is my oc Danci, a biracial Polish/Mexican lemur.

rewatching Adventure Time, I had forgotten how charming Flame Princess is. She's passionate, strong, decisive, but also soft & curious & sweet. Her design is cute too. I know she & Finn broke up but I always genuinely liked them together, they were a cute couple w/ good chemistry

Been rewatching Adventure Time and had genuinely forgot how damn funny this show is

I know I often talk about my type -- Latina women & how much I am attracted to them-- but I really do think women of every ethnicity are cute, for real. I would be open & willing to date a woman of -any- race if she was kind & sweet & we had chemistry & the attraction was there.

colored sketch of my new oc, Sycamora "CeeCee", a tree elemental🌳🍃

colored sketch of my new oc, Sycamora "CeeCee", a tree elemental🌳🍃

put on an old episode of Adventure Time, it's the one early in like, season 2 when Marceline pranks Finn & Jake by making them think she turned them into vampires "Don't you two feel any different? Like, maybe hungry for something?" Jake: Mm yeah I could go for some blood right now 🤣

Eating at a Mexican restaurant. Cold drink in my hand, quesadillas on the way. This isn't Heaven, but it's pretty close

Treated myself today to a mini Oreo Reeses Blizzard at DQ because I'm an ADULT, THANK YOU VERY MUCH 🍦

man I wish I felt 100% like my old self again. But healing takes time.. I'll get there. I know some folks might think that the moment you leave a bad situation, it's time to celebrate, but that's not my reality. You have to grieve for a bit..

Healing after leaving a bad job has been complicated.. I went to the grocery store & bought $100 of food to cook new recipes with, & I felt happy &alive in that moment, then I had a huge wave of sadness because I hadn't felt so happy in such a long time. I'm glad to be free but healing takes time😢

a non-sexual trait that I find wildly sexy in women is kindness. I really mean that. A woman who is kind, compassionate, sensitive and gentle melts me. I know some men yearn for a 'bad girl', but not me. I dream of a sweet woman w/ a heart full of love, & one day I'll find her. 🖤

a non-sexual trait that I find wildly sexy in women is kindness. I really mean that. A woman who is kind, compassionate, sensitive and gentle melts me. I know some men yearn for a 'bad girl', but not me. I dream of a sweet woman w/ a heart full of love, & one day I'll find her. 🖤

name a woman celebrity ( or female character from fiction), & I'll tell you what animal I see her as w/ my furry artist eyes. I might even throw in a scribble doodle too lol. 🐾

Even though I am free from that bad job of three years.. I am going to need some time to heal & grieve. Truth is I'm not okay & I'm not gonna be okay for a while, but I will be one day. Not to be a bummer but I went through something traumatic.. how could I not need some time to just.. heal🥲

I know this was a sketch I did in like 8 minutes but I still think this is cute lol

manifesting a cute gf w/ a tail! 🐾 & by that i mean a gf who is a furry, or furry adjacent!

IT'S MY LAST DAY oh my god!! I'm super happy, but, also a little sad. Happy for the freedom, sad that I suffered. But, I look forward to moving forward, and to healing and finding my way back to a life that I am proud to live.

WIP I'm probably not going to finish (my sketches can be realllllllly loose/gestural sometimes as I figure out some details in the finished art)

I know I've posted a lot about my job ending, & how I want to leave & need to leave. But I'm still .. sad about how it ended. I tried SO hard to make this job 'work'. I gave this job so much of myself for 3 years. I'm also sad for the pain I endured because of the job. It's been an emotional day..

WIP I'm probably not going to finish (my sketches can be realllllllly loose/gestural sometimes as I figure out some details in the finished art)

two more days at this job. Today, and then tomorrow. Oh my god, I feel like a kid trying to keep his cool before Christmas. The end is in sight

I know I vent a lot about my soon-to-be-former job but for real, my coworkers are like.. angels.. and I'm so glad I met them. You know who you are. (also this does not include the boss who I am legit angry w/)

god, the more I think about this job the angrier I get. I am not an angry person but for fucks sake I was the only goddamn plush designer for THREE YEARS??? HELLO? HOW THE FUCK WAS I SUPPOSED TO NOT LOSE MY MIND? --why-- was I an afterthought??? that was fucking BAD management.

I think an anthro/furry overweight Chansey lady would be really cute.. I had the idea & can't stop thinking about it haha. I have to draw it

ran into Target yesterday night & saw the Valentines day section. Upon seeing all the cute V-Day plush, I didn't get jealous of coupled people, but instead felt a new feeling of 'I'm excited for the future day when I'll have a gf to buy presents for, I can't wait'. & I genuinely mean it🧸🖤

as someone childfree who plans to stay that way, it really bothers me that a LOT of people only consider parents as having true worth. My life has just as much as inherent value as that of a parent. I'm not 'lesser' or 'a failed adult' because i'm childfree. I know it shouldn't bother me but it does

not to be a bummer but growing up w/ Catholicism as the religion I was born into was really tough in some ways; I've had anxiety & OCD for like most of my life & boy let me tell you a religion that focuses on Right & Wrong, PENANCE & GUILT.. that was not a fun experience for my neurodivergent mind..

took a break this weekend to do chores & relax. Been watching a lot of Modern Family reruns too. -God-, Haley should've ended up with Andy instead of Dylan. He was perfect for her. Anyway, just 5 more days at work before I'm gone. The end is in sight. I feel myself starting to wake up inside

I'm still bitter that my employer had just ONE plush designer on staff (me) with NO freelance assistance do EVERY single plush for 3 damn years--- how again was I supposed to NOT get burned out? That's just a stupid & cruel business strategy at my expense. I'm legit mad about this.

you ever look back at an ex years after the fact & be like, 'why the fuck did I put up w/ that?" My one ex is like a literal angel-woman from heaven & I have no qualms w/ her, but my other ex was just.. crazy insecure, judgmental, eager to fight & insensitive. why did I date her. I will never know.

I have almost 550 followers on my main account, but I'm kinda having more fun here on my alt which has only about 35 followers. I didn't know I would value having an alt as -much- as I do. It's been cathartic & also freeing to have it

Just six more days at this stupid job. Just six more days at this stupid job. Just six more days at this stupid job

I saw this cute goth woman on Insta who had an adorably big nose & big expressive eyes. I did this sketch from memory of what she looked like. Exaggerated features can be part of what makes us look unique & charming & add to our beauty. 🖤

an update

on a lighter (more random) note.. I wanted to say that I really do love women, & not just as a straight man who is attracted to women. I just genuinely think women are special & I try to honor & appreciate the female experience as much as I can. I think female energy is beautiful..

I really miss my dad. He passed years ago when I was barely an adult. I always keep him w/ me in my heart, but I'd give anything to have dinner with him one more time. It's been 19 years.. You never stop wanting your mom or dad. I don't mean to be heavy, I'm just thinking about him today

a trigger of mine: listening to a group of people gaming over voice-chat. Growing up I was sometimes an outsider & had a hard time making friends; there were instances of being unwanted socially, an outsider looking in. Hearing people game over voicechat makes me feel like a helpless 12 yo kid again