Im so unbelievably awkward SHOOTNKE

Actually, even if im not exactly planning to kms yet. I atleast want to see blood gushing out of my wrist once i sever an artery, gulp, that would make me super happy lowkey.

Sometimes all i need is a little fluff, and heartwarming stories to take a break from action manhwas, and that terrifying mahou shoujo manga i dropped. It was definitely a roller coaster, and a weird one at that!

I love “mother’s contract marriage” sm, like i could read this multiple times and still be overwhelmed with emotiones from this story AHHHH

im in pure bliss bro, also i actually love shrimp now. shrimp AND fried rice??? holy shit, i could ascend right here right now

Ilovefriedrice, feed me fried rice everyday and i won’t get tired of it. Actially yeah, feed me fried rice everyday plz i LOVE froed rice. Fo you know how much i love fried rice, i love fried rice tk the point i wouldn’t kill myself as long as you feed me fried rice. Have you heard how much i love f

Shrimp tastes good i guess, it’s just…. Eating it kinda feels weird, im just not used to seafood other than fish…also the eyes, gulp, i almost feel bad about it

Oh man, i would love an emotional support pet! But in my state, i DOUBT that i could actually take care of it. Still, i wish that for christmas i could get a cat, dog, anything, please

₊˚⊹♡ i need to gaslight myself into not being insane somehow ₊˚⊹♡

I think i’ve calmed down now, hello

Oh man it would’ve been awesome if my meds and psychiatrist were actually good !!!! I still hate my psychiatrist and i feel like if i see this guy, i’ll get the urge tk bash my head into a wall

I swear, only by stimulating my brain, or making myself busy can stop me from kms💔

I want to stab myself in the neck SO BAD

I get triggered by ONE food, and here i am thinking about it killing myself💔💔

I wanna hang myself

Actually forget what i said, idk why but food triggers me so bad

Why do good food exist, let me die fr

Okay km gonna live for another year chat, i wanna eat graham for noche buena YUMMMMM YUMYUM, leche flan too… bro… gulp

Distracting my brain by playing morimens and limbus company💔💔 Those two games make me use up a LOT of brain power

SHE REFUSED NOOOOOO, i thought 💔 me thiygh💔 its okay

i hurt my right index finger.... It hurts brah, i cant cut for now sobsosbsobsosb. IT HURTS, reminds me of the time i accidentally cut my finger with a blade.

WHATEVER, i dont exactly lose anything from her refusing to buy me the blades...I still have my trusty-starting-to-rust sharpener blade. I mean, it's kinda starting to rust but not really ...It's prolly just blood residue. maybe

I SENT IT, im so scared.....I asked for monster hunter rise sunbreak, and the blade thingy used for art, gulp. It's kinda 50/50 like there's a chance she'll refuse WAIT NO SHE MIGHT REFUSE THE BLADES NOOOO

no cus, if i was a mom and my mentally unstable child asked me for blades, i would refuse . UGHHHH IDK

wa do i do

gulp, hit or miss, you gotta try atleast once sobs

now that i think of it, it would ve still sus of me to ask for this😭

oh yeah, i wanted to get into crocheting back then. BRO i should get back into practicing my guitar, like, i dont wanna just leave my guitar hanging on the wall and collecting dust. That would be so awesome, forget crocheting, i should actually master the guitar.

im kinda scared rho, what if they find out that im actually still harming myself....They'll be severely disappointed but, it's my body anywyas, and it's my life, and it's not my fault that these urges keep pushing me to harm myself.

eait, i was gonna say oh i'll just buy silk song instead, but my dumbass forgot that there's no physical copy or smth yet

wait how much is the monster hunter rise anywyas, might oair it with that

uh wait, to make it look less ish suspicious, im gonna ask for some art supplies as well, but bro what do i need uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I do need better color pencils ....

HOLY WAIT, i just got an awesome idea. Hmo, i ask her to buy this, and then i use the extra blades for cutting HWHAHA, im so awrsome. I really hope that this is sharp though. Wait, how do u even use this, art wise. brb looking it up

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

bit, where do i even use the carving k nives for ???? Im usually just on my phone lately, hulp drop out... And thats literally just it LOL

but if i'm pushed to the point of reamly wnating to kms, then yes bro

Im not gonna kill myself, i guess. Sigh, soon but not this year sobs. Whatever, i just hope the world explodes tomorrow

i do want q new nintendo game too....like monster hunter rise bro, i want that so bad

but if i just buy thosem....gulp, mom would be super sus of me

are carving knives actually shapr like, idk

but uhhh maybe they trust me a bit now, like, they're letting the scissors out now LOL. Idk

oh how i yearn for the kai razors.....sobs

uhhhhh forget eyebrow razors, maybe i'll try to get art supply stuff cus i draw and yk...i kinda do need some. iirc i think there are some sharp stuff in there idk lemme check online

crying, is there a makeup set with blade included plz.......im so desperate. I did cut earlier with my sharpener blade, it was okay, went uhhh like styro, dermis yk. Not too shabby, time id just limited cus i do it in the bathroom

Im gonna kill myself, i DID NOT expect witch hat atelier to turn out like that holy. Bro, poor coco☹️ She’s probably feeling conflicted from everything and holy moly, GAH I HATE IT

f the detail button

oh okay

AHHHH THE YURI, THE IMMENSE YURI POTENTIAL THIS MANHWA HAS IM SCREAMING, man, kinda wished this IS yuri, but it's not, sobd.

KANG NAHYUN AND YURI'S YURI KYA ><

AHHH SIWOO ILY, IM INVESTING IN SIWOO STOCKS. FIGHTING SIWOO !!!! FORGET THAT SCUM NA YUHAN, LETS GO SIWOO WOOOO