Dude my dad’s skinnier than me, ???. This is weird of me but fuck, im Lowkeynuinely jealous when he visited me and he’s like thin to the point his hand looks really thin, if you get what i mean UGHH FML. Starve an dwork out okay

Okay, yeah! I need to workout, while also trying not to eat too much fuck. Im scared to even check my weight, i prolly gained ahhh fuck

Holy shit i want to get skinny, fuck

The rope we trust💪

Hmm, i might not be able to do the former method bcs they did say that ppl are more aware of it now sigh

Fuck wven if i did hang myself, idk if i can be left alone for 30 to like40mins, someone is always near me brah. Sigh, once i live alone, im fucking doing it. For now ill just cut, because getting to the srtery is too much work! I’ll just do the SN method or hang myself

Fuck, so there is a qay to die peacefully holy shit. Needs certain medicine and stuff tho, i dont think i can get sny of these right now. Once i have my own money and kinda independent, i’ll do it. There’s stoll the rope option tho

okaysies i took a pic of the cut, fuck it's fucking ugly but i'm overall satisfied, it's wide enough well it's almost fat but also it's kinda long enough for me too left is edited, i suck at editing, and right is non edited #shbsky #slitsky #shsky #shtwt

I nicked a vein esrlier but sigh, i should kill myself

this shit sucks, my vousin hit me on the spot i just cut im cryingm, its an almost fat deep cut too

i was so suprised when i saw them send those pics

im cryign, does ky friend not know those characters come from a lowkey dark nsfw game😭😭😭

okay yeah, esiest way to put myself in a mental spiral is to piss myself off by recalling my first attempt UGHHHHHHHHH I COULE'VE SLICED THAT ARTERY, WHOT OLD ARTERY'S TO BE SO THICK AND HARD, my blade's at fault, i swear i named my blade but i forgot, their name is bleb now

im actuallt terribly pissed that my first attempt failed i mean, the artery was right there! WHATEVER, atleast i was able to cut a vein for the first time instead of that fuckass artery, ughahdhjensmishfidnkdmskdlwnd I HATE IT, i should've died. okay now i'm pissing myself off

i feel bad, NO im trying to kill nyself i need to stop feeling bad, i mean i do feel bad! but i feel like i have to let everything go once i attempt

but like, i'm not really used to affectionate people, i'm not affectionate! I just express it via physical touch, but affectionate eords make me trribly akward.

me N bro if we met in our peak mental ill era

i don't know! if i go into a mental spiral in the morning instead of night i might actually do another attempt artery style!

So scary, if i sliced that artery the first time, i prolly wouldn't have known morimens or met my new friends...i'm still fuckass suicidal though

UGHHH WHAT THE HELL, MY FRIEND MEANT THE WORST WITH HIS NOT COMING BACK MESSAGE AFTER ALL, GUAHHH i should've known brah, well i'm glad that he's still here though

UWHAHH MORIMENS LOVES ME, idk where to use wanda tho, sigh, pulls up a guide

like yeah i want to kill myself still but everyone's just so nice even though i can't really bring myself to open myself up to them, vut just hearing those kind words makes me feel better osb

uaghsh, people are so nice, how are people so nice hisgsj im gonna cry again even though i cried my eyes out kast night sobs

I want to isolate myself, i want to be wors

Im going to search for new blades in the house tomorrow

I want to put myself in a bad place again, i dont like how i seem to be gettingg better, k don’t deserve this, i should die i should die i should die i should die

I wanna do this again, but deeper and bigger. Atp idgaf if they find out fuck fuck fuck, bye this is so random why am i going intona spiral again holy shit if im gonna cut i should make sure that itll kill me fuckf cikfcukf

I wanna cut

UWHABD

cornball, boo👎🏻👎🏻 i love him thi

cael's lowkey an asshole

???? LMAO

WOAH

oh i'm so tempted to pull, BUT I REALLY WANT THE WEDDING CARDS UGHHH

Is it really that hard to find genuine love without some kind of lust

Putting up boundaries is kinda harder than i thought because, one i don’t wanna hurt them, two i don’t want to be a party pooper, and three i don’t wanna disappoint anyone

Am i getting used again, i dont know

I’ll be really sad if i am allergic to cats

And the thing is i get attached to someone real quick and gain these feelings towards them eushjdnsammaks, i should just live and die alone, with a cat, and another cat, i’ll just become a cat lady but, i have a suspicion that i might be allergic to cats

Friend asked a weird question about becoming fuck buddies in the future. Sigh, im getting flashbacks to when my past crash used to say icky stuff towards me, euh idk. Its weird because i do feel like i have a romantic interest to them, not sexual. It’s just, sigh

Wah they have a gun, just lying there, well not rlly they are watchingnidk guarding over the gunnbut omg. Knowing that there’s really a gun that i could just probably take and shoot myself with is so fucking. YEAH, i wont do it, prolly, but i keep fantasizing shooting myself

My period’s severely late this month and im having stimach pains, dude i hope it comes soon. I dont wanna swallow thick ahh pills again

Well, damn okay

I can never get tired of listening to beabadoobee

So im drawing yep, but i colored the pther one too bright sp i redrew it

Ii have this urge to delete everything, and just, i dont know

This is killing me, he doesn not gaf LMAOOO

Today i shall contemplate whether to cut tomorrow or not, its a yay for Me

ALSO STREAM XG HYPNOTIZE OUT ON FRIDAY RAHHH JANUARY’S FEEDING US GOOD