need to eat fibre guhhh, i haven't shit in 4 days, is that normal.

It’s okay 1000cals is still a deficit anyways🥹 Bfast was 500cals because it was a burger, ice cream ~200cals, dinner will prolly be 200-300cals

Gave in and ate ice cream guhhh

My island’s so ugly im crying, BUT WHO CARES, ugly or pretty, I love my island because it’s full of memories grahhh

Played animal crossing again after abandoning it for like what, a year and three months according to my residents

I need to die

I really should just die, I don’t have a place in this world anyways. I’m fated to die young

I keep thinking of hurting myself, I keep thinking of pushing everyone away. I hate it, I hate these thoughts, I wish I was dead

I want to kill myself, but i unfortunately do not have the materials i need on me. I’m trying it tomorrow omfg, might aswell look for new ways to end it too

already hd 200cals for breakfast, but guhh the smell of scrambled eggs is jsut so yummy, i'll treat myself to one snack which should be around ~200cals, and then eat a ~300cals dinner which would then be ~700cals overall. That's fine

So worth asking for sweet potatoes, im getting allat fibre that i need yumyum, ~200cals breakfast(overestimate, prolly less than 200 since i didn't finish it), i drank milk too

i want to pass out, i want to sleep forever, i should've started saving up meds so that i could od.

im so sensitive brahh can someone shoot me

I want to cut, but suddenly everyone’s in the room once i need to get my blade🫩

Gave in to the urge and ate some ice cream, yum

I think, i’ll try graduating and then, idk as plan b i’ll just do fucking die

Guess who just a kg, YESSIRRR i did!!! I hope by the end of april i’ll be 44kg

Fuckkkk, eating over 1000cals, but its still a deficit anyways FUCKK. It’s okay, i wojt beat myself up for this or else ill go down in another mental spiral

Weighing myself tomorrow, hope i lost a kg🥹

Gonna try to look for blades tomorrow

Fuck i want to cut os bad

I want to cut so bad fuck

I cant stop stressing about the future, i know that maybe i should just focus on the present but with how fast time is moving, the future will eventually become the present anyways. So like idk, why stress abt all this bs when i have to option to just kill myself

I should just kill myself

But the ban wave’s going crazy on twt, prolly won’t post any cuts there for now

I’M OOMFS WITH KENNO🥹

Is the gw of 30 too low, ahould i reconsider, i mean even if it’s too low idgaf tbh. I would like to be at risk of death please.

Can’t even cut on my thighs because i was an idiot and got caught

The downside is, i’ve been threatened to be sent to the mental hospital so! Maybe i shouldn’t cut on my arm again

My peak frs🥹 I miss cutting on my arm, should i just fuck it and cut anyways

Either i isolate myself and die, or achieve my gw HMMMM decisions decisions

Takoyaki’s so yum

it's getting bad again and it's happening more often, and now that i think about it, it's probably draining to be around me. I'm always fucking depressed so, idk maybe i should just push everyone away so that they don't have to deal with me

lowkey i should just kill myself

My stomach hrts sm dawg, i did poo earlier and uhh lowkey tmi but it was soft shit

tomorrow i shall eat less

even tho i highkey ate more than yesterday I JUST LOST 1KG WOOHOOO GUYS CHEER. Literally just 4 more to go to reach my goal of losing 5kg🥹

Kinda overate, as in i think the total cals i’ll eat today would reach close to 1000

im scared did i eat too much, fuck, i already calculated the cals but like idk, what if i'm entirely wrong and it's a thousand and above cals omfg. Like i know it isn't but i keep overthinking, also i really really need to learn how to eat slowly otherwise i'll keep getting my stomach upset

ate too fast and my stomach hurts

30kg just sounds perfect, need that

Hmm i didnt eat a lot of rice so total calories that i’ve eaten could actually be around the 500-600cals

I eat, stomach still hurts like oh okay, be like that and i’ll starve longer.

UGHH FUCK, okay, i’ll ask my older cousin who goes to that school

Wait why am i thinking of sports, hello i’m trying to reach an underweight level of bmi, i won’t even have the energy for it UGHHHH. WHATEVER, in another life i’ll be doing track and field(athletics) in a school that can facilitate said sport

Went to church, joined the prusisyon until it reaches the street where our house was, asked grandma if i can go home, once approved i IMMEDIATELY ran straight towards home, DUDE my feet hurt and they were walking soooo slow it was just so mildly irritating i couldn’t take it anymore and ran

Can my stomach not make a noise that loud omfg

Okay i ate too much and too fast, my stomach does not like this

i'll judt walk more and workout to burn the calories

Okay whatever, i’ll have 400(?) cals for breakfast, no snack, and thenn200-300cals dinner