我真的需要放血 微量自杀

Staring at the ceiling for 4 hours.

The tears are welling in my eyes again I need twenty big buckets to catch them in And twenty pretty girls to carry them down And twenty deep holes to bury them in

Why bother doing anything ever again

真有点受不了了 要么退学要么割开我喉咙了

geez carlos

2025 replay

Watching Anthony Bourdain of 2000 makes me want to go back to dating apps

Life would be better if I wear more leather jackets and sunglasses and then get myself a gay little hoop.

有时候带着眼线洗澡 出来后眼线晕染得特别自然漂亮 可惜我是晚上洗澡

maybe i would get myself to work if im in my soft and fluffy and comfortable and newly changed sheet bed with my laptop. who knows

there is a girl who was very kind to me. we dont talk anymore but still like each's posts on social media. it fucking kills me that these days she would daily post screen shots of her using chatgpt as her therapist to talk about her relationship and introspective delicate thoughts in great details.

And they ask you how you're doing Of course you'll say you can't complain If you're squeezed for information That's when you've got to play it dumb You just say you're out there waiting For the miracle, for the miracle to come youtu.be/6rv1C1G3bis?...

remember when (not long time ago) my friends were talking about how frequently they have rice. the other chinese friend there and me just looked at each other and be like ?

i want a candle warmer

越想越觉得柏林苍穹下好 于是把letterboxd 四大中的悬崖野餐改成了柏林苍穹下。 有意思的是Wim 是我寥寥几个讨厌的导演之一！他的作品崇尚的是朴素、纯粹、平凡、善良、人性的美。柏林苍穹下可能是因为主角是天使吧，所以把这种美演绎得非常好。很纯真很美好，尽管最后有一点点不对劲但是我都可以原谅。完美的日子里是从普通日本男的角度来看世界，已经多多少少带有男味。巴黎德州里Wim 是爱男的爱疯了。男的是恋童癖Wim 他也要同情，男的抛弃虐待自己的孩子他也要怜爱！我感觉这个男的真的非常欣赏又怜爱自己和他的男同胞们。怪不得他支持波兰斯基呢！

with his new film in the theater, my hate for Yorgos resurfaces and deepens. as i am watching ken russell right now, i keep think how they both make surreal, violent, sexual, provacative films. however, ken russell chose to not abuse his actresses.

girl, so weird

How the fuck half seven means half past six

当然世界上唯一一张让我觉得石破天惊的专辑还是is this it

i only knew Serge Gainsbourg is that ugly french guy, i didnt know he was an asshole too

全澳大利亚只有我老公一个忧郁文艺twink 连尼克洞都去湖里冬泳去巴巴多斯海滩晒太阳了

Just realized common people by pulp is also “Are women bourgeois?”

I’m still excusing him.

好难过 但是也没有办法！

i like how he suddenly decide to look beautiful and theatrical in the gay way youtu.be/lVZ1c_VMWYM?...

Fra Angelico, Gustave Moreau, Gustave Doré, John Sargent, Louis Wain, William Blake

Drag Shows Save Lives

loving rock music these days feels a bit odd bc of the contrast of its fame and its popularity. everybody knows whats rock is and listened to a bit of it. the word is in people's daily language. "rock musician" is still a imagine that everyone knows and unironically think is cool.

a normal ass interview and performance with nick being slightly rude gets ruined by fans being racist and misogynist and shamelessly defending nick in the comments youtu.be/rRQC8xAobdc?...

当年是真帅过啊 youtu.be/4ChE4c_g4B0?...

i want a Blåhaj... im feeling the trans pipeline......

看到尼克洞最新合影心情：

在推特吃杰维真的特别快乐因为我爱同人。但是现在只有以前的一半的快乐了因为我看不到色图了。恨死啊！

这没猫的日子是一天也过不下去了！

小时候经常听到卡扎菲 后来没人再提他了 今天在看anthony bourdain 原来是因为他被推翻被杀了

思考一会尼克洞做chaser 以获得内心平静

再没有香薰蜡烛就活不下去了

what is this phenomenon of chinese american women in bay area being super into AI and "tech" companies... sister do better

兄弟穿昂贵定制金灿灿衬衫的样子真的很难看很好笑 但是兄弟自己开心就好 看到最后我已经被洞的自在所感染了 what the hell, sure youtu.be/kljMNIP4nbA?...

“This little angel I’m squeezing, she ain’t been mean to me “ 是尼克洞写过的最性感最好的歌词之一

洞兰眼睛一个颜色的

I hate weebs

我已然是资深兰粉了

邦尼门罗又何尝不是尼克洞的性压抑