Jesus Christ the thirst traps on YouTube today lmaoooo

I hope some day I can achieve that big soft muscular look. Like my ideal body shape. I don’t think I have the genetics for it, but won’t stop me from trying.

Wanting to hammer one out but people are suppose to show up at any time. Ugh

Always have terrible insomnia on days I had my shot.

Seems I was correct, when the house is empty my libido shoots up.

Looking at latex sheeting again…I need to make some extra money so I can make this happen >.>

Everytime I see cute romantic stuff I always think of Acyrus and Rakule . Weh ; ;

Man I was actually wound up today. Missed the feeling, hopefully it continues for a few more.

Do I buy what I want, or do I try to make it my self. Keep wondering if I could just make my own stroker but then there’s this thing called time, and maybe I should just get what I want

I love it when my phone shows me memories and the rouge selfie of me next to Acyrus’ huge hog pops up 😂

Alone for 5mins, can I make it…

Talking about sex stuff I’ve come to realize I’ve accidentally put my sexual needs in the same category as other things I find to be a waste of time…oops. Hopefully recognizing it I can recover from it. Need to think of ways to get me excited again.

Do I buy a pump, or a stroker, the real transmasc experience.

Watching latex clothing how to videos and the sound of the latex sheets moving about, hits that ASMR part of my brain haha wow. Gives me tingles, calming and a boner. Who knew

Miss being into toys. That part of me has just completely died.

Me wanting to get a pet suit, also me worrying I’d be too lumpy ; ;

Feeling powerful in the gym today. Rrr, I wanna pick up friends for some rough fun

Look forward to our space finally having heat. Hand sewing with frozen hands sucks lol

Want to learn how to dance so I can do dirty dancing with someone. I find dancing so erotic 🔥

Sometimes I’ll get these really intense images in my mind of various scenes or ideas. I often think about two people pressed together, head to head, breathing heavy into each other. One has beads of sweat dripping down their cheek before leaning in for a kiss…the image gets crisper with time

One of those days where I just smell good

When I want to do several things but I only have the money for one…so it’s like, how in the world do I choose haha the real mystery in life.

Think this time of year just makes me crave various things. Brought on by fond memories of years past. Hoping the future can bring me even more.💜

Deep in the woods and all I can think about is my big purple boi

Love how I am still discovering new ways to make my self feel good.

Talking to my therapist about Rakule has made me so nostalgic. Lots of things I miss but looking forward to what the future holds. The image of him becomes more and more vivid in my mind. Cannot wait to push around clay

Still very weak toward big muscular me with long hair. Saw a pic in my time line and stared at it for a good 5mins haha

Thinking I’ll finish Acyrus’ sculpt. It’ll free up so much clay and space. That and he’s at the part that’s really fun, texturessss. Poor thing has been waiting for years, it needs to be done

As soon as velocity is complete I have to work on Rakule. The desire to make him again is burning back up. Think I’ve waited long enough.

Some days I just wish I had a massive hog 😔

Find it funny that my makeup looks get way more likes and followers then anything else I post x) I wonder why that is.

Hoping I can sculpt a latex hood soon. Think Velocity would look pretty sick. Gonna then make a bodysuit that’s tight on me. Just need to decide what to make the body out of. Spandex? Mochi minky?

Missing Rakule and Acyrus something fierce today 😭 I think the cool crisp air just makes me think of them.

I want a latex hood of velocity 😭

Pointy ears make me feel so goooood erghhh

This hair work is giving me flash backs to making Acyrus. Which is making me want to work on him…can you imagine if I could actually capture how I draw his hair. Ughhhh

Oh man, pondering my boy half the day, then working with this long hair just makes me miss him more. Weh ; ;

Sure do miss lusting over long haired men. I miss you guys

Weird to have a level 10+ libido for years, for it to just diminish to barely a 1.

What I wouldn’t give for a crumb of intimacy

…actually made it to 2” >.>

Maybe I shouldn’t post selfies anymore lol the amount of nsfw accounts that keep following my other account is nuts lmao like I don’t care but also?? I don’t post anything nsfw yet I post a selfie and suddenly “sogay98 followed you”

Me wishing I could get freaky

It’s so rewarding to make stuff for others. Maybe I should quit taking commissions, just work for others instead.

Me wondering if I make my chee suit have a bulge…

Miss when my muse and my libido fueled each other. Feel like those days are long gone now. I am finally inspired to create but any sense of spice has left me. I miss it despite wishing it’s calm down at times, now it’s just GONE. Unsure how to bring it back.

Thinking about silicone muscles again ugh

I don’t get why so many adult accounts follow my regular account lol

Miss you big boi

Realizing my muse has saved me from constant loneliness. Been too busy thinking about projects to care about it haha now if only muse would dip back into spicy stuff. This account is pretty barren lol