i crave. i want to be seen clearly or not at all.

i wish i could take back every selfish action i've perpetrated against them. i wish i could undo all the hurt i've brought themˎ but i can't. i'm not a good personˎ and i know that. but i'll always regret who i've ended up becoming.

i hate everything about you because you’re the person i could’ve been if the world treated me the same way it treated you.

you left me to die. and for thatˎ i should hate you ... so why do i still love you the same way as i did before 𖤠

i'm tired of doing the same thing everyday.

you know i come from the mistakes i've madeˎ the damage that i'll have to pay. / i'd do it all again (do it all again) for only you!

you can never change the fact that we're related. you can't change anything because you're weak.

friends are like leaves in a treeˎ they will eventually fall and you will be left standing alone.

i'll turn my back on youˎ just like how you turned your back on me.

i often wish i could go back to the days where i didn't know what i know now. now all i see are the mistakes of the pastˎ the mistakes that have defined my present and the mistakes that will haunt my future.

it's impossible━ he's been gone for a decade. i don't think he's still here. / i'm sure he's not gone; no one is really lost forever.

i desperately want to share my true thoughts and emotionsˎ but it feels like i am constantly being judged and expected to conform to a certain role.

i keep telling myself that i don't deserve to be lovedˎ but the loneliness i feel seems to contradict that belief and makes me crave it all the more.

i think there's something wrong with meˎ why can't i just live happily 𖤠

i don't want to walk a different pathˎ i just want to have an happier one.

atleast i'm stuck here with you.

my father is the worst man aliveˎ and i'm his favorite daughter.

why 𖤠 why do i do such terrible things 𖤠 unlike many othersˎ why am i the only one doomed to walk down a linear path 𖤠

where's your savior now 𖤠 porque ya no te siento.

i thought that loving you was the most powerful thing i could offerˎ but it wasn't enough for you. i gave you my whole heartˎ soulˎ and beingˎ and stillˎ it wasn't enough. you still left.

i miss what it wasˎ i miss what it could have been, but most of all i miss what it should have been.

a pomegranate, dripping redˎ a sickening display. / i wonder if you heard me while i called out your name.

you can never change the fact that we're related. you can't change anything because you're weak.

my father is the worst man aliveˎ and i'm his favorite daughter.

why 𖤠 why do i do such terrible things 𖤠 unlike many othersˎ why am i the only one doomed to walk down a linear path 𖤠

i don't know who i am anymoreˎ and i especially don't want to know you.

and i'm baffled why you chose to stayˎ you’re completely freeˎ yet you refuse to leave.

i hate you so much. so why 𖤠 why do i find myself thinking about you everyday 𖤠 it's sickening.

you don't know how long i've mourned you .ᐟ you don't get to waltz back into my life like your death meant nothing .ᐟ

there's this lingering sadness that i can't shakeˎ as if i'm still missing something.

and they don't realize it; they think I'm protecting them, when in realityˎ i'm doing far more harm than good.

i don't know who i am anymoreˎ and i especially don't want to know you.

when has it never been my fault though? everything bad that happens always ends up leading back to me.

rememberˎ love &. pain are one in the same.

i crave companionship and desperately want to be by everyones sideˎ even if i don't think i deserve it. i long for that sense of belonging and acceptanceˎ but i often feel unworthy of it.

nothing's wrong.. i.. have you ever left this place 𖤠 ／ are you kidding me 𖤠 i can't leaveˎ and even if i wanted toˎ i don't have any other place to go to. this is my home now.

i wonder what it would have felt like to have a choiceˎ to choose loveˎ to hold anything with both hands. it's taken me this long to say i wantˎ i wantˎ i want.

i hate everything about you because you’re the person i could’ve been if the world treated me the same way it treated you.

i don't think i know how to be a friend without something to fix.

nothing's wrong.. i.. have you ever left this place 𖤠 ／ are you kidding me 𖤠 i can't leaveˎ and even if i wanted toˎ i don't have any other place to go to. this is my home now.

i'm the only one left. everyone i loved and cherished had their lives cut short before their time. i survived, but at what cost 𖤠

i wanted to be you— but not like this.

preventationˎ a putrid conversationˎ never within temptation that won't cleanse you from this hell.

i crave companionship and desperately want to be by everyones sideˎ even if i don't think i deserve it. i long for that sense of belonging and acceptanceˎ but i often feel unworthy of it.

when the curtains closeˎ you'll come away stronger. or maybe you'll break. not my fault you sought this pain.

don't get too attachedˎ don't you recall what happened last time 𖤠

i can't find myself anymore; my other half took that with them when they died.

in your eyes do i not qualify of being someone you see as an equal 𖤠

i think there's something wrong with meˎ why can't i just live happily 𖤠

i don't know who i am anymoreˎ and i especially don't want to know you.