good thing no one tried to stop me through my self—injury spree.

MUD BURNS HIS EYESˎ BUT DESIRE BURNS HIS MIND.

irrationality and lonelinessˎ you don't have to hate them.

it isn’t your fault you turned out this way. it’s only because the circumstances you were put through changed the person you used to be.

is it so wrong to grieve over my unhappiness 𖤠

don't leave me again... i'll have no one else.

i crave companionship and desperately want to be by everyones sideˎ even if i don't think i deserve it. i long for that sense of belonging and acceptanceˎ but i often feel unworthy of it.

nobody seems to see me for who i truly am. it's as if i am not allowed to open up and truly be myself because people have such high expectations of me.

i'll miss you. give me the worst of it allˎ 'cause i'm ready for my downfall.

i only wanted to protect my future. / i only wanted to understand my past.

i'm not a jealous person but when i am it's because i'm afraid someone else is going to make you happier than i ever did.

a pomegranate, dripping redˎ a sickening display. / i wonder if you heard me while i called out your name.

it is undeniable that my sister had a deep impact on my life, and i will always carry that part of her with meˎ for better or for worse.

please don't break. don't come in. i'm not ready.

you left me. it was only natural for me to think you wanted nothing to do with me anymore.

don't leave me again... i'll have no one else.

i didn't want to be right about you; i wanted to be wrong.

love is not for meˎ i lost my heart quite some time ago.

i keep telling myself that i don't deserve to be lovedˎ but the loneliness i feel seems to contradict that belief and makes me crave it all the more.

what do you want 𖤠 to laugh at meˎ rip me apart 𖤠 i don't want to talk to you.

i crave companionship and desperately want to be by everyones sideˎ even if i don't think i deserve it. i long for that sense of belonging and acceptanceˎ but i often feel unworthy of it.

i didn't want to be right about you; i wanted to be wrong.

i thought that loving you was the most powerful thing i could offerˎ but it wasn't enough for you. i gave you my whole heartˎ soulˎ and beingˎ and stillˎ it wasn't enough. you still left.

i desperately want to share my true thoughts and emotionsˎ but it feels like i am constantly being judged and expected to conform to a certain role.

i’m caught between trying to live my lifeˎ and trying to run from it.

but if you let me by your sideˎ your own beachˎ your own escapeˎ you'll learn to love yourself again.

save yourselfˎ another self—salvationˎ nearly desperation. / you know it by nowˎ pray all you want but god won't take you now.

this is my tragedyˎ my curse ... because i understand themˎ and they do not understand me.

your love for me was nothing more than a fleeting feeling in the vast sea of your selfish desires.

i think there's something wrong with meˎ why can't i just live happily 𖤠

it's wasn't enough to just take them away from meˎ i was forced to witness every moment of their agonizing death. the painˎ the sufferingˎ the helplessness; i was made to experience it all.

i think there's something wrong with meˎ why can't i just live happily 𖤠

it's not the dying that worries meˎ it's the fear of never escaping the cycle of reincarnation. livingˎ dyingˎ being rebornˎ and starting it all over again.

i miss him. but it's fine nowˎ haha.. ／ are you sure 𖤠 you look pretty upset still..

i'm tired of doing the same thing everyday.

i desperately want to learn how to loveˎ but i would rather remain safe in my loneliness than risk exposing my heart to the pain of love.

there's this lingering sadness that i can't shakeˎ as if i'm still missing something.

taste what's leftˎ the fruit that you decay.

i won't let you escape. i don't want you to take what's mine.

nothing's wrong.. i.. have you ever left this place 𖤠 ／ are you kidding me 𖤠 i can't leaveˎ and even if i wanted toˎ i don't have any other place to go to. this is my home now.

and i'm baffled why you chose to stayˎ you’re completely freeˎ yet you refuse to leave.

and they don't realize it; they think I'm protecting them, when in realityˎ i'm doing far more harm than good.

i miss him. but it's fine nowˎ haha.. ／ are you sure 𖤠 you look pretty upset still..

it's wasn't enough to just take them away from meˎ i was forced to witness every moment of their agonizing death. the painˎ the sufferingˎ the helplessness; i was made to experience it all.

the suns light has lured manyˎ but its heat has claimed so many moreˎ their bodies turning to ashesˎ their spirits descending into the void. and sheˎ tooˎ was no exception.

regardless of my remorse or attempts at atonementˎ my very nature will always lead to hurt and suffering. that is the truth of who i am: a bad person.

there's this lingering sadness that i can't shakeˎ as if i'm still missing something.

sometimes it feels like it would be easier to give up altogether and just resign myself to a life of misery.

our intertwined heartbeatsˎ what we dedicated. i won't forget that memory either.

no. i can't even breatheˎ without feeling hungry. why is it that you still believe in me 𖤠