Writing poetry f elt really good yesterday and I actually liked the couple of poems I liked 💜

Yup gonna have to give up coffee I think its messing with me a lot. That's fine because I will be honest coffee hasnt tasted right to me since my ear surgeries happened 2 years ago. I love tea and you can do a lot with it! So honestly if its good for my head to be done with it that's okay to me!

Lack of sleep is turning me crazy time to utilize that into creative projects!

Im tired yall just really tired.

I am getting more into crocheting flowery things because while it can be complicated the results are so lovely and I can use up leftover yarn! Still not brave enough to redo a beanie even though I have two different patterns to try T_T

Today started out rough and continues to be so. I dont know what is with the pain levels today but I do not enjoy it 😭

I just saw Mega Meganium she is glorious I just have her 😭

Giving up on beanies just messed up another one at the end and I am not sure what I am doing wrong. Going to take a break from them and do things I enjoy for now!

Sad Low Manifest Nooo I am tired of feeling sad and low 😭

The more I have read about Tumarkin's disease the more I realize this is me. This is exactly what I experience and I am just so relieved that there is a lead. Not excited for the physical therapy for it though 😅😭

Omg I left my computer on and a game running when I thought I shut everything down. I mean I made some currency but holy losing my mind batman! Yall have a good night!

This week has been a hell of a week and I am just so happy to know that there is a possibility for healing 😭

Got a possible diagnosis that I might have a form of Meniete’s disease called Tumarkin because of how my vertigo makes me drop! Going into physical therapy and some scanning thing! But it’s something at least!

I just need one morning to not go stupid JUST ONE MORNING

I am not sure my second attempt at a beanie will go well. I used a slightly bigger hook size and that might of been a mistake. Ah well, too late to turn back now! Gonna be funny if hair sticks out of the beanie though because of if lol

Also turns out something is wrong with my left ear soooo will find out my friday🥹

It was terrifying but survived. Feel ick after it so taking today off yall take care 💜

Going to take rest of week off if I end up with vertigo from the VNG test because the drive back is going to be hideous. I am so not ready for this yall. When my vertigo happens I lose sense of my limbs and usually have to crawl places so I am not ready at all if it happens. 😭

QTP with an anime that has an awesome theme song. youtu.be/ueB0oNajuEg

Made the mistake of looking up the test I am taking tomorrow to test my vertigo and now I am more than freaked out. Yay meee 😭

Made a mock up beanie yesterday it was a journey and I realized I really need to learn to sew in ends properly. But I feel pretty good about it. Going to keep practicing so I can make some for friends and family!

Got denied my second attempt of disability but I knew it would happen. We unfortunately started it before this administration voting year and it takes forever to get any response so it dragged through the current administration. I maybe a bit off in the recent days but Ill figure things out.

Had an awful week of my head stuff and blood pressure. Its been a crazy month and it aint even halfway over T_T

So I might've overly hyperfixated on my horror story but next month is poetry month and I might try to dabble in some oof my old love <3

I cant believe I am actually considering writing a horror story franchise because I know I could do it and of one of my greatest fears T_T I know I know it would be a mistake to do this but I dunno i keep thinking about the story idea over and over....

Tornadoes hail and 70 mph winds yaaay 😭I’m hoping they move right along

I love rainy days and I know most people dont but for some reason I just get creatives energy from cloudy and rainy days. Also rainy days are a good excuse to drink tea and stay inside!

I think I may have ended up with too many farming games but Im not upset just it makes it hard on what I want to play that day lol

Arbitrary is my word of the year so far. Everything is just arbitrary.

Taking it easy today might attempt some things tomorrow!~ Rainy days really motivate me for some reason especially creatively.

Tomorrow is one of my least favorite days of the year my birthday for many reasons but tomorrow I will be taking it easy for once in a very long time. I plan to hang out with my mom and health issues be damned have a good time for once!

The irony of getting out my painful tooth while afterward being in pain. But good news is I seem to be healing just...hoo boy teeth things suck T_T

Tooth extraction complete and ofc went well love my old dentist he’s an artist yall and I have no doubt the bone graft is going to go smoothly. I’m in pain but feels amazing to have that troublesome youth out!

Going to bed early because I know I am not going to sleep well about tomorrow. But I am hoping what happens with my tooth will help with a lot of things. I hope yall have a wonderful rest of the week I will be taking it easy from tomorrow onward!

Getting a tooth puled Tuesday so I’ll be out a bit after because I’m a big baby with tooth pain haha. But long time coming with this odd tooth so actually relieved 💜

Crochet may not stop my head from hurting but it sure does distract! Super proud of these 💜

I think I may have cracked the code to my very long writer's block :o

I dont know why but when I take showers it almost always causes vertigo I dont know what the correlation is but I am glad I gifted myself early birthday gifts of a few games I wanted and one I know I shouldn't of gotten early but ya know I can always return if its too much before the steam cap

Happy love day everyone!

Thinking about trying to gather courage and clean my depression room finally this weekend since it might rain all weekend. Figured itd be a perfect day to do just that. Now to get the courage to do so!

If Discord does take me out because of my love for Hello Kitty posts I’ll miss yall but I’m not going to hand them my face or ID. I know I follow many here in Bluesky but I’ll miss those I wont be able to find.

Of course two of the bunnies need the one item I CANT GET NORMALLY....im tempted to trash them because nuts are really impossible to get in this game and to make peanut butter I need FOUR OF THEM. And one of the bunnies needs 2 SO I NEED THREE THINGS OF PEANUT BUTTER. WHICH THREE TIMES FOUR IS

I jinxed it D:

Head situation seems to have lessened but every time I say that I make it worse but its been a couple hours of just the norm. So I am hopeful. Said when the norm is better than whatever last week's BS was D:

Also I finally got my first 5 star island rating on animal crossing which means no more resetting the island for me I worked too hard on that aha.

Why is it when I don’t feel good that is when I gave the energy to do things! 🫣

Sorry yall for not being super with it my body has been going through it with the attempt to have vertigo so I have just been taking it easy and will continue to do so until things quiet down. Fluid in my ear has been acting up and causing issues >< Been also sleeping on and off

#Vtubers! Show me you and your favorite #pokemon! Yall know who my fave is 💜🍃

I conquered the tassel! It’s scuffed to hell and back but I’m proud of what I made lol

Today I shall conquer making a tassel! I SHALL!