The other day, I threw a ton of hot sauce and dried cayenne peppers on my food and the first reason in my head was: 'so I can feel alive'. Only succeeded in giving myself a mild upset stomach the next day. Hmmmmm.

Still here and still hurting 👍

I have loved ones I can tell everything... But I feel like I can't tell them -everything-. And it's painful.

The dissonance I feel while going about my daily life gets really heavy to bear at times. Sometimes it just feels like it'd be so much easier to go 'fuck it' and just disappear.

let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out

Today, it is indeed too much to ask of me to be a functioning adult. I have answered the call to exist for yet another day, and my very being protests and struggles against this. My outside body hurts, my insides writhe in anger, my mind screeches at the sheer indignity of consciousness.

I've said this before but I've been through so much bullshit, professionally and personally, that I feel quite mentally and physically exhausted every day. So, a boring-ass 9-5 job as a real estate accountant is just so much peace for me.

I refuse to believe that anyone ever has shits so perfect that it takes only one pass to wipe their ass clean.

Introduced my partner to the concept of plurality. Was too chicken to tell him how it relates to myself. Will do it later I guess. Definitely been noticing the headies out and about freely interacting with him for varying contexts. I'm sure he'll accept it once I be direct about it.

Man. What the fuck was this past year.

I need a way to block reposts by someone I'm following. Main account. Love this person, don't gaf about their reposts.

By now I've had several dreams of myself being mean to the fucker that got me fired last year, so I guess I'm starting to heal from it. Certainly helps that I just got super validated at my new job and got high praise and a high raise.

Well. I guess being an endogenic plural system is part of why I had no problem ghosting 99% of my local acquaintances years ago. The other part is that I have a deep-rooted online life. Good or bad? I'm a functioning adult to an extent, and I haven't killed myself, so I'm gonna say good.

I was at about a 7.5/10 on Monday. Now I'm back to 6/10. But then I was probably cruisin' high on cough medicine on Monday...

It tastes ok today. Either I'm about to die or my sense of taste has finally buckled

Have an unfamiliar feeling today. Headspace feels tilted 15°. Realised that I might be... In... A good mood?

Basically my coping mechanism. youtu.be/2mY_YUUdRBk?...

Kirkland coffee tastes like ass and I'm convinced that ppl like it only because it's cheap and/or they grew with shitty bitter coffee.

Feeling particularly unwell today. Emotionally. If one of my alters could take over the driving that'd be nice, but I don't blame them for not wanting to deal with it either.

Snacc

Scrolled so far that I got a random post of someone's haiku and it's the wrong fucking syllable count That's enough social media for today

4:35 am and I'm lying awake thinking about how much I fucking hate the sack of shit that got me unjustly fired last year.

Is it just me, or is it kind of craycray how much effort/work neurotypical/abled people are willing to put into doing things?

Hey @telussupport.bsky.social ? Stop using third party telemarketers that bought my info off a list you released years ago. You're literally the only service provider that constantly calls me when I've said no repeatedly.

Low key stressed the fuck out by current events, so Imma go seek out some catharsis by getting some new ear piercings. Got a rook piercing back in November.

Every day I wake up and am sorely disappointed. To be waking up.

What the fuck, Pierre. This is why it's good you didn't win.

If I were a blogger my clickbait title for today's article would be "My Parents Gave Me a Privileged Life and Also a Condo. Here's Why I Can't Wait For Them To Die"

This tinnitus is hella loud, jeez

So. How big is the hand basket?

Was having a decent day then brain decided to get into a spiral ust because I saw old coworkers at yoga.

I'd love to see some guillotines set up by the white house. As a treat. Doesn't even need to have blades.

I'm about to become a home owner which is every millenial's pipe dream. But I'm not really stoked about it, because this is being thrust upon me when I'm barely making a living thanks to stupid end stage capitalism. :/ truly a dystopian world we live in.

If you're abled and leave a mess in the public washroom, I hope you shit yourself for every single time you leave it in a disgusting state without cleaning up properly.

Is this depression or is this legitimate boredom? The ADHD dilemma

:') can we either just collectively die or ascend to proper progress already, I'm tired of circling the drain as a species

Hey what can I do if I'm followed by an account that only posts AI generated photos? :)

Hi new follower, welcome to the pizza party. We got cold pizza but it's tasty and has both meat and veggies and the microwave's over there.

Woke up tired with a crick in my head and emotionally sore from being upset at people in my dreams and yelling at them. Come to work with no earbuds and no work to do cuz I've been ahead for weeks running. Taking a looooonnng siiiiiiiiiiip of coffee that tastes nasty but I bought it so I drink it.

Imagine owning a home and being mad at someone (paid barely at living wage and definitely not a home owner) for the penalty charges you incurred for not having your fucking financials in order so that your bank isn't overdrawn when it's time to pay fees.

P sure I took my brain meds yesterday but the brainmeats is trying to lie to me and say I didn't :D I opened bluesky four times to make this post and got distracted every time and forgot before I even made it to the Make Post button. Hurray!

- open excel file - hit f12 - select an existing excel file with the name I want to use - change file save type to pdf - excel: "tHiS xls file exists dO yOu WanT to RepLACE it?" WHO THE FUCK PROGRAMMED THIS

I don't consider myself a definition of "highly educated", but even I know some basic economic concepts. So it is today that I realised, a large majority of the population downstairs actually does not, and the implications it raises now horrifies me...

Lmao? I glanced up at the break room tv and saw "frustrated with current political climate, US doctors eyeing Canada for new careers"

I've been listening to radio news all day waiting for the 1pm tariff announcements but now that they're streaming his voice I can't fucking listen anymore it's just nonstop bullshit

Could the news outlets stop calling it "liberation day"? You're just feeding his fucking ego because it's making him think he's created another Independence Day.

I hope every person that roars down the urban street in their muscle car between the hours of 11pm to 7am dies in a horrible car crash

Bf makes fun of me for having "white people blindness" about celebrities, and then without hesitation agrees that someone we met looks a lot like Chris Hemsworth. I'm an artist, I can tell 'em apart thank you very much, so I know I'm not wrong stating that Hollywood has an ideal look.

I have a cold and it sucks