“how did u start to suspect a dissociative disorder” well u see one of me hates umamusume with a burning passion and there’s another one who thinks its so cutsie

*entering front* IM BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN !!!!!!

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zell…. zell are you a trauma holder…. zell if you can hear me please…. please zell…..

being the only outwardly goth person in the family on my inlaw’s side is funny because i notice other family members starting to also be alternative and it’s hilarious bc they realized no one would actually judge that if you just. never stop doing it. like that’s all they know of me and im nice lol

*entering front* IM BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN !!!!!!

FUCK nevermind i was reading our posts and we have one named ichor but idk who she is or what she does 😔 or what her source is?? where did you come from!!

name urself vi we can be twinning

guess whooooooooo!!!!

WAIT this means i’m the only fictive here!!! HAHAAA that’s so cool

using this opportunity to figure out which one of me watched arcane first and did this shit to me n made me like this IM COMING FOR YOU

finding out i’m a jinx fictive 😀 by watching arcane and watching vi abandon powder 😛 i did not know this about me or that i even existed but thank you netflix or something

i cant fucking wait to get tomodachi life specifically for creating all my system members and being able to keep track because for some reason we refuse to use any system apps or plural kit or anything like that cause it’s gay and lame or something idfk what do old people say about that stuff

i feel weird cause i see so many other systems / did/osdd havers have like way more alters than i do and its weird asf like why do i only have like 4?

reconnecting with the past so that you can actually REMEMBER the past since SOME OF YOU BITCHES won’t tell me…….

i think the reason i find it hard to believe anyone thinks about me outside of during interactions is because they likely ARENT thinking about me. i mean they’re thinking about me, but not ME. not whatever my name i haven’t picked yet is. they’re thinking about the person im in but not who i am ig

when anyone else fronts and gets triggered it’s fine but for some reason when it’s me or zell or ichor we have to throw the phone on the concrete and break it. when struggling with finances, breaking your phone on purpose is a great remedy :^))))))))))

unpacking sexual trauma is fun because you get to write down all the things your harasser said to you and try to not get triggered challenge

obligatory i hate you amanda palmer tweet

girl anachronism is such a system + bpd song im going to be listening to this during every episode for my entire life and i’ve already been doing it since i was like 11

i wish i could evilpost here 😔

fallen for the ugly in so many ways :^( oh zell

finding out who you thought was a persecutor might be a protector?????? ichor why did you not tell me this you slut

ugh :( my poor sweet zell jesus christ

feeling really bad for zell in particular today. writing the messages her abuser sent her will do that to ya. but i have to do something about it cause she only wants to ignore it and refuses to handle the trauma. i got this, or whatever qwq

thinking about this drawing of myself i did on my 3ds at like 15/16 years old and how my art style has stayed so similar lmfaooo i could probably recreate this to a t

ive taken out my eyebrow piercing since making this and now i can’t fucking finish it because i can’t get over the eyebrow piercing still being there even though it’s inaccurate now ughhh

i’ve gotten my hair so long that it’s getting genuinely hard to draw like holy shit i haven’t been adapting my self doodles to account for my hair in ages how am i supposed to do this now

new handle rip username i had for 4 years im officially never using it again its psychoevil time

at least i’m making art progress and adding my newest piercing

nuance, or something like that.

something’s about to happen to me

lowkey getting a bit unhealthy again but not entirely sure what to do about it except see what i can gain positively from it. we ball and by we i mean me and only me fuck everyone else they prolly don’t even really exist

man fuck all these hoes in my head deadass

when you forget you have bluesky

if you dont want to be called a pedo, dont sexualize characters nade by children

feel bad for zel cause she formed when we only had one nostril piercing and like she would love to be depicted with more piercings but i fear that it defeats the whole “you’re a preserved version of me that i had to become to survive and you look how we did at the time” thing. which. yknow.

nevermind i’m here now and i actually DONT suffer the ocd symptoms like the rest of us haha

ocd be like drag urself across the concrete to make sure if someone shoots you (even tho u live in canada, behind trees) you can crawl to your neighbor fast enough. do it or you’ll get shot RIGHT NOW.

jesus christ man

this also goes for white people acting offended on our behalf. you’re allowed to point out what you think might be racist but please stop acting like ALL native people have to be offended or we’re race traitors or something. real sick of white people policing this shit.

btw just cause i don’t think what ghost said was racist doesn’t mean other native people aren’t allowed to be offended by it. we aren’t a monolith.

i hope everyone mad about ghost and pals also directs their anger onto their (now ex) friends who enabled their behaviour for over a fucking decade. speaking out does not absolve them of the YEARS they spent defending/excusing ghost's behaviour and attacking people who so much as disliked them

anyways any 6x111 fans probably dni i do not think we will get along if you are fans of someone who does shit lol this

i hate that i can’t talk about shit that happens to me without ruining someone’s career cause i don’t think they deserve that but i certainly think they need to stop acting like the morality police when they went out of their way to try and trigger me for MONTHS

when the person who tormented you for months is being coddled as a “victim” of ghost and pals meanwhile you know exactly what they did to you and to other people and they still do it to this day 🫩

i hate how sensationalized dissociative disorders have become online. i truly hope people realize that in most cases, switching alters is very subtle and that most systems are extremely covert. i don’t know how much more i can bare to see people posting “switching” videos on tiktok 🫩

OSDD be like yeah i’m jealous of my own art. no i can’t draw. but yes i did draw that. but no i didnt.

CW- ARTISTIC NUDITY, BODY HORROR (?), DISTURBING IMAGERY thought i’d post the full versions of the art in my pfp and banner. both of these are old, first one is nearly 2 years old and the other is almost 3. yes the second one is .flow fanart. bonus points to whoever knows the song in image 1.

yeah i guess you could say we draw