need to stop doing stuff for male validation but truly my own validation isn't good enough for me because i do not care about myself

genuinely think i slept for 13 straight hours and if i didn't have work i could 100% keep going

yeah I've had a 5h nap to skip dinner and yeah im sleeping for another 8h til my alarm and what

#tinyspo #cutespo #cutesy 🎀

ugly cried for 2h on public transport yesterday drank 3 bottles of rosé at home and then woke up still drunk for work at 5 this morning i dont think the universe can throw anything at me that i havent already experienced during that short time span

god my coping mechanisms are so unhealthy

i have the shits so bad rn cant get off the loo but i have to go to work HELP

guys 🙏🙏🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

regret

mum i frew up

regret i have a 630 work in the mornitng

maybe more than a bottle (i have a 6am shift tomo)

back on the apps (kill me)

bottle of wine for dinner methinks

im gonna keep going with him and 100% it's gonna hurt me in the process lol

i NEED to get skinnier

he only wants fwb.

was otp complaining to my coworker after work and loudly said i was gonna kms THE AMOUNT OF HEADS THAT TURNED TO ME i completely forgot i worked at a train station and that was a genuine concern there 😭😭😭

ik i talk about how happy i am that my childhood bully who made fun of my weight got fat but now the girl who lied abt being sa'd by my ex also got fat and i feel like im winning

opened the cafe 45 min late this morning bc im in a different place to normal and I COULDNT OPEN THE DOOR i literally had to wait outside for 45 min for a different coworker to leave her house and open it for me i am so embarrassed

and if i say i missed the bus to work because i was taking selfies and not paying attention? then no i didnt

seeing him tomorrow but i started my period :| the universe is out to get me

hoping to GOD i lose another 5lbs in october and get to 110lbs i lost 5lbs in september so hopefully i can continue that streak

nvn he texted me back

maybe i actually dont need to start looking for love right now if im gonna crash out like this every time

i bought a skirt 6 months ago as a goal to fit into it and today i can finally zip it all the way up 🥹🥹 just in time for autumn im so happy

killing myself btw

crazy how i thought i was 1inch taller than i actually am and now i have to deal with the embarrassment of being 5'4 AND bmi 19.7 instead of 19.1

580 cals eaten and it's only 1pm,, STOPPP

i cant stop eating

adding to his story but not responding to my text from 9am :( hope youre actually busy and not ignoring me on purpose

feeling suspiciously ill with no time to dwell on it bc work is the busiest ever

slept 4h woke up 3 times bc i felt sick ,,, 6am start at work,, please please someone kill me

making friends at work

my bus smells eerily like pepperami

completely forgot to start tracking my cals this month :[[[[[[

def ate over iver 1000cals in cheese alone yesterday and im gonna be so fat but god i night have been worth it

anyway

HOW DID I FORSEE THIS IM GONNA CRY HAHAHAHAHAH

oh my god oh my god oh my god

guys stop clicking suspicious links 💔💔 how are they getting so many of us AURRRR

im gonna make mac and cheese when i get home

today has been so terrible i dont wanna go home and binge to make it worse but i can literally feel it

MY FAVOURITE COWORKER JUST GOT FIRED today is so horrible

nevermind he cancelled. im killing myself

does anyone have a good cal tracker :( ive lost the good list i used in september

i don't wanna eat today but i feel sick from hunger UURGHH

this was rookie numbers my legs are so much worse now thank you crisp stand at work for being the worst 🫶

thinking about how badly i fucked over my ex situationship makes me want him to unblock me so i can do it all over again

im scared for him to see me naked